noah support

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thanks so much guys for the kind words. I really needed that. As for

Noah's behavior, he wasn't like this before his hospital stay, so I

really think something triggered his behavior. The sedated him and

cleaned out his ears, so maybe he is irritated or perhaps his hearing

is much better that he is even more sensitive. The thing is though,

he gets violent when he is told " no " or when he cant do something he

wants or is asked to do something he does not want to do. He does

the jello tactic where he slithers out of my grasp somehow and then

makes himself dead weight to where I cant pick him up again, and when

I do, he is kicking, punching, pulling hair, and still trying to

slither out of my grasp. This must look so horrible to people

passing by and I get so aggravated that Im the one who looks like Im

abusing my child when its me getting my butt kicked. I am scared for

him at the thought of what kind of consequences this could lead to,

and sadly, Im starting to be scared of him. I hate that! I feel like

the worst mother ever. I'll do anything to get this in check and fast

because I dont want to worry about what will happen to him(ha ha!

like thats not all i ever do regardless of behavior), but what I mean

is I want him to learn to control himself so he can be with me as

long as possible, and when I am no longer around, it wont be such an

issue for someone else in the family to take care of him. Im from

Texas and Im sure you guys saw the article about where we stand when

it comes to people with intellectual disabilities, so this is a real

concern for me. Again guys, thanks for being there for me like

nobody else can. Leilani