Guest guest Posted November 15, 2008 Report Share Posted November 15, 2008 No one.. Always a good first step, Don, good for you! Hugs, Sheena Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 15, 2008 Report Share Posted November 15, 2008 lol That was an oops. Hit the wrong button, but it did work out ok, didnt it? love don in kansas Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 15, 2008 Report Share Posted November 15, 2008 Huh???? Love Janet "There are souls in this world that have the gift of finding joy everywhere and of leaving it behind them when they go" Frederick Faber Subject: THIS IS WHO I BLAMETo: Hepatitis_C_Central Date: Saturday, November 15, 2008, 8:48 AM Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 15, 2008 Report Share Posted November 15, 2008 I think he means ---no one. At least that is how I interpreted it. SuziQ From: Christ <ludichrist2000@ yahoo.com>Subject: [Hepatitis_C_ Central] THIS IS WHO I BLAMETo: Hepatitis_C_ Central@yahoogro ups.comDate: Saturday, November 15, 2008, 8:48 AM Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 15, 2008 Report Share Posted November 15, 2008 I blame: the beautiful flower growing in afghanistan the farmer who harvested the flower to feed his family the guy who smuggled the junk to america the dealer who sold me the junk bob hope for inventing the needle george washington for inventing the dollar bill that I used to buy the junk my dad and mom for birthing me when they did so I was a stupid punk hippy the hippy generation and their drug culture the beatles for their song 'hey jude' the junkie who passed me the needle myself for sticking it in my arm God for inventing a bug that will kill me the cops for not preventing street drugs the taxpayer for not paying the cops enough money to do their job the politicians for being silly the scientists for not discovering the bug until it was too late my hair for growing long making me think I was cool big brother for not watching me close enough that blond babe for being blond that voice that said 'do it, do it' world war 3 that didnt happen geeeeeeeeeeze I wasnt my fault. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 16, 2008 Report Share Posted November 16, 2008 Personally, it *was* my fault; I blame no one but myself. I was the one who chose to stick that needle in my arm. Me and me alone. I can't blame anyone but myself. m > > > I blame: > the beautiful flower growing in afghanistan > the farmer who harvested the flower to feed his family > the guy who smuggled the junk to america > the dealer who sold me the junk > bob hope for inventing the needle > george washington for inventing the dollar bill that I used to buy the junk > my dad and mom for birthing me when they did so I was a stupid punk hippy > the hippy generation and their drug culture > the beatles for their song 'hey jude' > the junkie who passed me the needle > myself for sticking it in my arm > God for inventing a bug that will kill me > the cops for not preventing street drugs > the taxpayer for not paying the cops enough money to do their job > the politicians for being silly > the scientists for not discovering the bug until it was too late > my hair for growing long making me think I was cool > big brother for not watching me close enough > that blond babe for being blond > that voice that said 'do it, do it' > world war 3 that didnt happen > geeeeeeeeeeze > I wasnt my fault. > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 16, 2008 Report Share Posted November 16, 2008 > > > > > > I blame: > > the beautiful flower growing in afghanistan > > the farmer who harvested the flower to feed his family > > the guy who smuggled the junk to america > > the dealer who sold me the junk > > bob hope for inventing the needle > > george washington for inventing the dollar bill that I used to buy > the junk > > my dad and mom for birthing me when they did so I was a stupid punk > hippy > > the hippy generation and their drug culture > > the beatles for their song 'hey jude' > > the junkie who passed me the needle > > myself for sticking it in my arm > > God for inventing a bug that will kill me > > the cops for not preventing street drugs > > the taxpayer for not paying the cops enough money to do their job > > the politicians for being silly > > the scientists for not discovering the bug until it was too late > > my hair for growing long making me think I was cool > > big brother for not watching me close enough > > that blond babe for being blond > > that voice that said 'do it, do it' > > world war 3 that didnt happen > > geeeeeeeeeeze > > I wasnt my fault. > > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 16, 2008 Report Share Posted November 16, 2008 True- But I didn’t inject until 1988 and I knew that HIV was a possibility, I just didn’t care…. m From: Hepatitis_C_Central [mailto:Hepatitis_C_Central ] On Behalf Of Rick Kipp Sent: Sunday, November 16, 2008 9:54 AM To: Hepatitis_C_Central Subject: Re: THIS IS WHO I BLAME > I agree with you, , but we really didn't know the severity or the full risks of infection of an unknown disease in the '70's, did we? > Personally, it *was* my fault; I blame no one but myself. I was the > one who chose to stick that needle in my arm. Me and me alone. I > can't blame anyone but myself. > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 16, 2008 Report Share Posted November 16, 2008 I recently found out that my 1st husband has hepC geno 3a same as me. I blame him for giving it to me or did I give it to him I kinda hope it was I gave it to him as thanks for the horrific 2 years of hell I was married to him for. He swears he never stuck a needle in his arm or had a blood transfusion but part of the many reasons I divorced him was because he was a cheat and a liar. He, like I, grew up eventually and from what I hear he is not the same person. So its really kinda unfair he got HepC as it was for me. I'm with you Rick. I chose to go into the medical field, and get into a car with a guy who was clearly drunk as I was at 18 years old and ended up in ICU with a blood transfusion. I also had regular Doctor check ups and took really good care of my teeth. Any of these things could have passed the Hep C to me. For some reason my circle of this life includes this disease. There are lessons to be learned but frankly I could care less about them right now. I am just sick of being sick and doing everything I can to keep me alive and healthy is wearing me out even more. Losing my independance, self worth, and having to strip my husband of his wonderful life is turning me into a bitter ugly person...well that and the Ribavirin I am not me anymore and I miss the old me allot. Dragon Fighter Extraordinaire > > > I agree with you, , but we really didn't know the severity or > the full risks of infection of an unknown disease in the '70's, did > we? > > > Personally, it *was* my fault; I blame no one but myself. I was the > > one who chose to stick that needle in my arm. Me and me alone. I > > can't blame anyone but myself. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 16, 2008 Report Share Posted November 16, 2008 Ah Hah, that explains the difference. In the '70's, we hadn't heard of HIV, much less HCV. Thanks for the explain! > > > I agree with you, , but we really didn't know the severity or > the full risks of infection of an unknown disease in the '70's, did > we? > > > Personally, it *was* my fault; I blame no one but myself. I was the > > one who chose to stick that needle in my arm. Me and me alone. I > > can't blame anyone but myself. > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 16, 2008 Report Share Posted November 16, 2008 Try the early 60's like me. I didn't know a lot, but I knew that it was not a good idea, which made little difference. But I mostly focus on what I can do now--not what I did back then. Can't change the past anyway. I can change my actions or my attitude so my future will be different, but I can't change what I done, done. SuziQ Subject: RE: Re: THIS IS WHO I BLAMETo: Hepatitis_C_Central Date: Sunday, November 16, 2008, 10:02 AM True- But I didn’t inject until 1988 and I knew that HIV was a possibility, I just didn’t care…. m From: Hepatitis_C_ Central@yahoogro ups.com [mailto:Hepatitis_ C_Central@ yahoogroups. com] On Behalf Of Rick KippSent: Sunday, November 16, 2008 9:54 AMTo: Hepatitis_C_ Central@yahoogro ups.comSubject: [Hepatitis_C_ Central] Re: THIS IS WHO I BLAME >I agree with you, , but we really didn't know the severity or the full risks of infection of an unknown disease in the '70's, did we?> Personally, it *was* my fault; I blame no one but myself. I was the> one who chose to stick that needle in my arm. Me and me alone. I> can't blame anyone but myself.> Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 16, 2008 Report Share Posted November 16, 2008 , Your e-mail touched me and I can feel the pain you are feeling. I think it is very normal with all you have been through to feel sick of being sick. I wish I had words that could help you. I relate to every single thing you said including how hard it is to ask for help. My thoughts are with you. Subject: Re: THIS IS WHO I BLAMETo: Hepatitis_C_Central Date: Sunday, November 16, 2008, 10:04 AM I recently found out that my 1st husband has hepC geno 3a same as me. I blame him for giving it to me or did I give it to him I kinda hope it was I gave it to him as thanks for the horrific 2 years of hell I was married to him for. He swears he never stuck a needle in his arm or had a blood transfusion but part of the many reasons I divorced him was because he was a cheat and a liar. He, like I, grew up eventually and from what I hear he is not the same person. So its really kinda unfair he got HepC as it was for me. I'm with you Rick. I chose to go into the medical field, and get into a car with a guy who was clearly drunk as I was at 18 years old and ended up in ICU with a blood transfusion. I also had regular Doctor check ups and took really good care of my teeth. Any of these things could have passed the Hep C to me. For some reason my circle of this life includes this disease. There are lessons to be learned but frankly I could care less about them right now. I am just sick of being sick and doing everything I can to keep me alive and healthy is wearing me out even more. Losing my independance, self worth, and having to strip my husband of his wonderful life is turning me into a bitter ugly person...well that and the Ribavirin I am not me anymore and I miss the old me allot.Dragon Fighter Extraordinaire> >> I agree with you, , but we really didn't know the severity or > the full risks of infection of an unknown disease in the '70's, did > we?> > > Personally, it *was* my fault; I blame no one but myself. I was the> > one who chose to stick that needle in my arm. Me and me alone. I> > can't blame anyone but myself. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 16, 2008 Report Share Posted November 16, 2008 This is certainly true, though it took me a long time to learn that we can’t live in the past, and can only look to the future. m From: Hepatitis_C_Central [mailto:Hepatitis_C_Central ] On Behalf Of Suzi Q Sent: Sunday, November 16, 2008 1:02 PM To: Hepatitis_C_Central Subject: RE: Re: THIS IS WHO I BLAME Try the early 60's like me. I didn't know a lot, but I knew that it was not a good idea, which made little difference. But I mostly focus on what I can do now--not what I did back then. Can't change the past anyway. I can change my actions or my attitude so my future will be different, but I can't change what I done, done. SuziQ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 16, 2008 Report Share Posted November 16, 2008 Well, , I've had a long time ---Actually, if I'd known I had this much time, I'd probably would have done a few more things that weren't so smart. My mom had dementia--and as it grew worse, our relationship got better. She couldn't remember all the things I had done wrong over the years. By the time she died (she lived with me the last years of her life) she thought I was wonderful. It is amazing how life can be when it is not colored by regret from the past. Someone gave me a book by Baba Ram Dass back in the 60's. I just couldn't "get" living in the present--but I have changed and maybe grown and I don't "get" living in the past anymore. Isn't it fun to move forward without all the weight of the past ???? SuziQ Quinn In the swamp in secluded recesses, a shy and hidden bird is warbling a song. Walt Whitman Subject: RE: Re: THIS IS WHO I BLAMETo: Hepatitis_C_Central Date: Sunday, November 16, 2008, 1:38 PM This is certainly true, though it took me a long time to learn that we can¢t live in the past, and can only look to the future. m From: Hepatitis_C_ Central@yahoogro ups.com [mailto:Hepatitis_ C_Central@ yahoogroups. com] On Behalf Of Suzi QSent: Sunday, November 16, 2008 1:02 PMTo: Hepatitis_C_ Central@yahoogro ups.comSubject: RE: [Hepatitis_C_ Central] Re: THIS IS WHO I BLAME Try the early 60's like me. I didn't know a lot, but I knew that it was not a good idea, which made little difference. But I mostly focus on what I can do now--not what I did back then. Can't change the past anyway. I can change my actions or my attitude so my future will be different, but I can't change what I done, done. SuziQ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted November 16, 2008 Report Share Posted November 16, 2008 It sure is! I learned from 12 Step meetings; one slogan they used to have was that if you have one foot in yesterday and one foot in tomorrow, you’re pissing all over today. I also like the books of Thich Nach Hahn, a Vietnamese Buddhist monk- the first Buddhist monk to ride a bicycle. He talks about “living mindfully;” if you’re doing something, do that thing and nothing else. I’m still working on that lesson. He teaches meditation techniques as well. m From: Hepatitis_C_Central [mailto:Hepatitis_C_Central ] On Behalf Of Suzi Q Sent: Sunday, November 16, 2008 3:33 PM To: Hepatitis_C_Central Subject: RE: Re: THIS IS WHO I BLAME Well, , I've had a long time ---Actually, if I'd known I had this much time, I'd probably would have done a few more things that weren't so smart. My mom had dementia--and as it grew worse, our relationship got better. She couldn't remember all the things I had done wrong over the years. By the time she died (she lived with me the last years of her life) she thought I was wonderful. It is amazing how life can be when it is not colored by regret from the past. Someone gave me a book by Baba Ram Dass back in the 60's. I just couldn't " get " living in the present--but I have changed and maybe grown and I don't " get " living in the past anymore. Isn't it fun to move forward without all the weight of the past ???? SuziQ Quinn In the swamp in secluded recesses, a shy and hidden bird is warbling a song. Walt Whitman From: Matchinsky Subject: RE: Re: THIS IS WHO I BLAME To: Hepatitis_C_Central Date: Sunday, November 16, 2008, 1:38 PM This is certainly true, though it took me a long time to learn that we can¢t live in the past, and can only look to the future. m From: Hepatitis_C_ Central@yahoogro ups.com [mailto:Hepatitis_ C_Central@ yahoogroups. com] On Behalf Of Suzi Q Sent: Sunday, November 16, 2008 1:02 PM To: Hepatitis_C_ Central@yahoogro ups.com Subject: RE: [Hepatitis_C_ Central] Re: THIS IS WHO I BLAME Try the early 60's like me. I didn't know a lot, but I knew that it was not a good idea, which made little difference. But I mostly focus on what I can do now--not what I did back then. Can't change the past anyway. I can change my actions or my attitude so my future will be different, but I can't change what I done, done. SuziQ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Recommended Posts
Join the conversation
You are posting as a guest. If you have an account, sign in now to post with your account.
Note: Your post will require moderator approval before it will be visible.