I started treatment today...

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PLEASE, don't anyone feel that I am trying to be funny or flippant. I

am sincere. I began today by taking a multi-vitamin and that was a

BIG STEP for me. I am going to gradually work up to taking a Hep C

supplement, vitamin B supplement and vitamin E. They are what Dr.

Berkson recommends and a group member was kind enough to send them to

me. I know this may seem SO TRIVIAL to those who have and are

currently doing conventional treatment but as I said this is a really

big step for me. I am terrified of taking any kind of pill( yes even

a vitamin ) and it was scary for me. I bought some herbal tea weeks

ago and was afraid to try the Sleepy Time because it has about 5

different herbs in it so I finally got up the nerve to try the

chamomile to try to help me sleep better. Between the vivid, all

night dreams and the constant itching & pain from psoriasis I dread

going to bed. I began using marijuana at the age of 15 and then began

doing EVERY kind of drug from the age of 16. I had fun doing drugs

and was just totally stupid about the consequences. I married at 17

and my husband was murdered when I was 21. I saw pictures of his body

after he had lain outside in the August heat for 5 days. The case was

never solved and at one point I was even accused of his death. So

there I was, 21 with an 18 mo. old son and NOTHING was fun anymore. I

still used for a little while but not for the fun, just trying to

cover the pain. It didn't work and nothing else ever has either. I

guess my life was spared when he lost his because I don't know what

path I would have continued on. SO NOW I am the complete opposite.

I'm afraid to take antibiotics when I need them, I won't take the

medicine given to me for the ulcer I have. I take the Xanax because

I've taken it for so many years and I take aspirin for pain. So, I

truely do admire those of you who are brave enough to go thru what

you do with your treatments but it just will never be for me.

Debbie2