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Hi (again) e,

I'm so glad to hear you were able to get some relief with your pain. It sure does have an effect on our personality when we're able to minimize the pain level. And yes, your Rheumy does sound greedy. How ironic (we) the victims have lost so much, yet those that hurt us have gained so much!

GREED [noun] 1. A selfish desire for more than one needs or deserves; Avarice.

AVARICE [noun] 1. Extreme desire for wealth; Greed.

"American Heritage Dictionary"

Have a wonderful and peaceful evening e with minimal amount of pain as possible.

Love and Hugs............

eRene@... wrote: Just thought I'd let you all know that I took 2 Vicodin last night and what a difference!! After having been in the worst pain in my life (and I do mean the worst pain) for the last 2 months, I FINALLY had some pain relief!! I slept soundly and uninterrupted for the first time in months, I was up at 830 this AM feeling refreshed and close to pain free. And all it took was 2 Vicodin!! I haven't taken or needed anymore (yet).My point I'm trying to make is that for all the pain I have suffered through the last 2 months, and kept quiet about for fear my doctors would label me, and then finally "breaking" down on Wed and asking my rheumy for a rx for pain medication and being denied----all I needed was a couple of Vicodin to do the trick. I know that 2 Vicodin won't keep the pain at bay forever, but if I at least have something to take when the pain gets bad, I feel like I will be able to manage and cope better. I think that a major part of my recent depression and anger has been directly related to my amt and severity of pain. I have noticed that the littlest thing sets me off--I am both extremely angry or else crying and suicidal. I am also hypersensitive to touch and am hypervigilant. My work has suffered. I haven't been able to work the last 4 days due to my pain. I have to get my pain under control, whether it be with narcotics on a prn (as needed) basis or with alternative therapy or a combination of the 2. But it comes down to finding a willing doctor, which is why I may have to travel out of state to do. Being a RN in CO, I have noticed 2 things with docs here: 1)docs either rx whatever pain med you want and give you refill after refill, then abruptly cut you off; or 2)they refuse to give you anything except in situations such as surgery, and then they rx Tylox/Vicodin/Percocet (which is acceptable), but they rx quantity 10!!! They are either one extreme or another.Needless to say, I am seriously considering reporting my rheumy to the appropriate accrediting commission/agency since he knows my history and I have been a pt of his for 2 yrs and my pain is well documented. Yet he refused to prescribe anything for pain knowing how miserable I was. And for crying out loud----all I even asked for was some Darvocet!! He simply wanted to pass the buck and not get involved, which, as far as I'm concerned, is negligence. I am simply not going to put up with any more crap from doctors (not that I have, but with the pain issue, I have tended to keep my mouth shut because I don't want to be labeled). NO MORE!! Oh, and get this. I am having to COBRA my insurance just for the month of Dec. It has not gone through yet, so everything is being denied, yet as soon as they get it posted, everything will be paid retroactively. I'm told that COBRA can take anywhere from 4-8 wks to get started. Anyway, my rheumy is usually pretty adamant about when he wants to see me and when he wants labs done, esp in light of the fact that my most recent labs have shown signs of early renal failure and a protein that is a precursor to myeloma. Well, knowing that everything so far has been denied, including his office visits, he told me that I could wait until after the first of the yr to come back to see him and to get my labs. Interesting, because beginning Jan 1, I have new health insurance, and he knows it. Don't you think this smells of GREED?? Sounds like my rheumy cares more about the money than the pts.....e