Anger

[Guest guest]

I've been very depressed this week and just about at my wits end.

Thank God, it hit me this morning where it is coming from! I am so

angry! I am so tired of hearing " i know how you feel " and " get up and

do something " . I have the letter to normals which I've given to

everyone in my life, but they still don't understand. It's to the

point that I have no one to talk to because they all " understand what

I'm going through " . No they don't! They don't know how it feels to

hurt literally every time you move. They don't know how it is to never

sleep more than 2 hours because you hurt. They don't know how it feels

to not be able to do what you want because it hurts too bad or will

cause you to hurt too bad tomorrow! They don't know how it is to wake

up every day to face another infection, fever, rash, or pain. They

just don't know!

I am so glad I have all of you, I really needed to say this to

someone. Someone that really knows.