doc/smoking

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OK I just cannot stop crying..

doc told me smokers are 40 times more likely to get RA.

He told me treatment is far less effective in smokers. Smoking releases

inflammatory agents into the body?

He told me to call my GP, a therapist, a hypnotist, a counselor, try lazer, get

gum, a patch, zyban.

He said not cut down, not " try to quit " I must PROMISE to quit NOW. Or he

cannot help me, won't try.

He said all kinds of people wuit, they are not smarter than me, they are not

stronger than me, if they can quit, I can.

It took me months to find this doc. I drove 2 hours one way to see him.

My previous rheumy retired in AUg. I was without my mtx since then till now.

My GP refused to fill in for rheumy even tho my old rheumy had said the GP had

agreed to cover the patients till our office got a new rheumy. GP changed his

mind and wouldn't.

My handicapped parking placard expired. I have 3 kids and they are ACTIVE and I

cannot handle the parking lots most of the time.

But doc made it kinda pretty clear. It is my own fault I am symptomatic, cuz I

smoke. ANd I cannot even imagine not smoking, cuz I keep trying with no luck.

And since I smoke, I guess that means Ineed tojust shut up and accept what I did

tomyself or something.

Yeah, I know about smoking. My mother just died of lung cancer. she was 62.

My MIL died of lung cancer she was 63. My best friend died of lung cancer she

was 35. all died in the last year. My husband has emphysema and lung cancer.

Heck, I was a Hospice nurse, a good number of my patients died of lung cancer.

I cannot explain why I cannot quit. Yeesh the cigs sure cost TONS of money, and

here we are hubby on soc sec since 1990 andme since 2000. with 3 kids we are

trying to raise.

Yup, people sure do not like smokers, I know that.

I do not know why I cannot quit. Not zyban, hypnotist, gum, patch, mints,

I cannot explain it.

All I wanted from doc was to have some of the pain lessened. I was not looking

for a miracle, was not even looking to be pain free. and maybe have him sign

myparking placard renewal so I could continue mybest tokeep up with the kids

easier.

I do not know why I cannot quit. I really don't. and now it has cost me

treatment for my RA.