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Hi e,

It is so good hearing from you again! I know you not only have been busy, but you're also dealing with some extreme health issues, but I as well as many others have missed hearing from you. I wish there was something I could do for you, 'cause I know you're hurting more than just physically. If you could have the support from your parents, it would certainly make what you're going through allot easier.

My parents have passed away, but the rest of my family not only do not understand, they don't want too. And you know what? It use to bother me, but no longer. I know what's the truth and so does the Lord and that's all that matters.

I've seen a special beauty in you e and though your mom, other family members, Doctors or anyone else "chooses" not to believe you, continue to remain the person you are! You've bent over backwards trying to help so many of us (myself included), yet not asking for anything in return, except friendship. I don't know what the problem is with your mom, but I can tell you this - it's not you!

You have every right to be angry and some of us may be angrier than others, with just cause. Now turn that anger into something positive, like your book and don't let your heart harden, for if you do, those that have hurt us have won another battle. You've taken Psych and you know what I'm saying is true!

My heart hurts for you e, but don't ever forget who you are. You're a Blessing from God who's touched a mutitude of lives. And no one can take that away from you.

Have a wonderful evening and remain strong in your faith.

Love and Hugs.............

e Rene <e_Rene@...> wrote:

,

I understand where you're coming from. It was just 2 days ago told by my own mom that I am a liar. She accused me of making up all my health problems, and that I had surgeries I didn't really need!! She feels that if all my health problems were related to implants, then doctors would "surely not be implanting women with them anymore." Of course my mom is very narrow-minded and doesn't understand that I am only 1 of hundreds (thousands?) who have been made seriously ill and just because I'm sick doesn't mean that this proves implants are bad. She also doesn't understand that not one ps out there is refusing to implant women. And as long as ps' continue to implant women, our voices will never be heard and/or taken seriously.

Furthermore, after a very emotional and hate filled conversation with my mom, I asked her how she suddenly was granted a medical degree and could back up what she was saying? I told her that my heart surgery was needed because there was a hole in the septum, and I had had a stroke. I was at great risk for future debilitating strokes if that hole wasn't closed. I also was looking at a life of having to take coumadin or plavix. My neck surgery was needed because of the severity of my neurological symtoms, and the risk of permanent paralysis (of which I am facing now). My sternal wires were removed because of the multiple infections and granulomas in my chest. Since removal of the sternal wires, I have had NO problems with sternal infections or development of granulomas. And of course my explantation surgery was necessary. I went on to tell her the last surgery I had that wasn't needed was the placement of my implants. And that all of my health problems and "unnecessary surgeries" occurred after my implants were placed.

Needless to say, my mom and I are again on nonspeaking terms (the 2nd time in a yr). No love lost. I'm tired of fighting with my doctors and now I'm tired of fighting with my own parents. If they don't believe their own daughter, then they can rot in hell!

And if anyone accuses me of being angry, you're damn right! I know how my life took a turn for the worse after my implants and I know that all of my health problems are both directly and indirectly related to my implants. I have struggled with the medical system for almost 5 yrs now; trying to convince them of my symptoms and their severity, of the fact that I truly believe the implants are related to everything that has happened to me medically. And 5 yrs after this all started, I am still arguing with and trying to convince most docs that implants nearly killed me. I currently have only 2 docs I'm seeing now, my neurosurgeon and oncologist, who believe me, and only because of the fact that things that shouldn't have happened, did. And things that aren't supposed to happen to someone my age, did. I hate the medical establishment and what it stands for. And I can honestly say that docs don't care and most are only in it for the money. It's sad, and disheartening, and unfortunately, I don't ever see it getting better.

e

----- Original Message -----

From: Curry

Sent: Saturday, January 26, 2002 4:02 PM

Subject: Martha

Hi Martha, Thank you for your email. But I personally don't know if my threshold of pain is low, 'cause I live with pain 24/7 and somedays I feel that it's more than I can stand. All I do know is, I requested and Anesthesiologist for my explant surgery, telling the Doctor I felt she was going to find my explant more difficult than she thinks. She said to me, that she will have me out of surgery within one and a half hours to two hours. Then she told me a week later, that she was only trying to save me $ 800.00 by not having an Anesthesiologist there. That wasn't her decision to make! And you're right, medical professionals do think that people like you and me are exaggerating, or are just out right lying. Yet no one can tell me what I have to gain by exaggerating or lying about my health. It certainly isn't money! If that was the case, I would've invested my hard earn money to make my older yr's more comfortable. Not given it to soooo many Doctor's, to help make their older yr's more comfortable. It can't be for prestige, 'cause I no long am able to work. Instead I just continue to be humiliated and degraded for the past four yr's and two months, because I always believed that while a person is employed (paying into their Social Security), would be there for them to apply for when (due to health problems) were no longer able to work. I guess I was wrong. I am so tired Martha. I'm tired of the pain and "all" of the lies (not just about me, but about this whole implant issue). My God! I had a life once! I was happy! And I had a wonderful career! I had dreams and goals to fulfill. My husband and I were buying a home, living and loving every minute of life with excellent credit and money in the bank. Not anymore! We've lost all that, but we still have each other and the Lord! So, if that's all I have from now until the Lord calls me home, then I have allot more than all of the people who have hurt us for their own personal gain. I wouldn't trade places with anyone of them. They can keep their damn money and I'll keep the pain, just as long as I never become like them! Oh well. You have a wonderful evening Martha and I'll work on my anger issue and everything will be okay. Love and Hugs...............

MARTHA-NSIF <MAM-NSIF@...> wrote:

Hi ,

I Believe you, as my threshold of pain is soooo low, and I know what it's like to have medical professionals think I'm simply exaggerating because I'm not "normal" in this area!

Hugs2U,

MM

Martha MurdockNational Silicone Implant Foundationwww.topica.com/lists/BreastImplantNews/