Where is this quote from? and SS disability question

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Ring the bells that still can ring,

> forget your perfect offering,

> there is a crack in everything,

> that's how the light gets in!

I love it. That was my first smile today.

I'm currently not doing anything but naproxin, and feeling a little worse

every day. Reason is every time I try to restart the MTX I get another

something with my lungs. Feel like I've been on antibiotics since Mom died

in July. My rheumy says she's going to have to think hard and long because

she doesn't know what to do next -- she said everything that would be an

effective treatment can't be used. Not too encouraging.

In the meantime, my husband fell off the wagon as it were and got a couple

of dui's and is now on home confinement -- he's absolutely a sweetheart and

does understand when he is himself aka sober. And of course now he's dead

sober. I didn't have the heart to make him stay in prison for a year

instead of doing the homeconfinement bit... the whole thing was a nightmare.

I'm back seeing my counselor from days of old when I first got diagnosed

with clinical depression and that is wonderful, I also have great neighbors

who will do any emergency driving I might need.. they're friends, not " just "

neighbors. Am I lucky. Of course all of this stress in the wake of Mom's

illness and death has just hammered me emotionally. I'm going to be in a

position of deciding within the year whether to stay married to him, with

the condition that he never drive a car again -- I know I cannot take the

stress of his being on the road ever again --- or he finds somewhere back

West to go. It makes it a bit harder that I do appreciate the help of

having someone considerate living here. Which he is, when sober. He feeds

the dogs and cats and does the dishes and laundry and cleans the yard up

after the dogs. That's a lot of work -- I used to handle it fine; I handled

it while he was in prison. But I don't know how I will be as time passes

:-(

I wish they'd invent some effective treatment (don't we all) that wouldn't

give you nightmare diseases if you're using it when you get an infection.

sigh

Now too long story, very abbreviated: in the wake of my Mom's passing I am

back in touch with my " baby " cousin who was " lost to the family " when she

moved to Texas after the divorce from 7 hells many many years ago. That I

am very thankful for. But it turns out that the monster (her ex) never put

her on health insurance as he was supposed to ... why does this not surprise

me .... what horrifies me is that Nan must not have been getting medical

attention for all these years because she would have known that! Anyway,

she surfaced and then vanished for 2 months-- turns out she was in the

hospital for 2 MONTHs and had peritonitis and almost died. Anyway.. she is

applying for SS disability.. I mean, she is not allowed to drive or walk

much for months.. ..... Of all the people I know, you guys are the best

source for " what is a good contact/contacts, source of information " ....

i.e. , a ... someone ... " Tell me where to go " please. Thank you

so much

love, Carla

I'm going to learn the Native American flute.. I can still hold flutes!!