Approved for a Power Wheelchair

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I as notified today that I have been approved by my insurance for a

power wheelchair. I totally understand that I should be very

grateful for having insurance and for having a doctor who decided I

needed one and set about making it happen.

So why don't I feel wonderful and grateful? I just feel like somehow

my life is changing in a huge way. Like I am giving up or something.

I know that I need a chair to continue working (75% of my work is

from home but 25% involves visiting schools and supervising 7 people

in a 200 mile radius of my home). I know I need to continue working

to keep insurance and provide for my family. I just want to scream

NO I AM NOT READY! I know I need to go with this and accept it as

help not a sentence.

It will get here in a week and in that time I have to trade my car

for my MOm's van and get the lift put in. The lift isn't covered and

it is hard for me to even consider using Christmas money for part of

the lift costs.

I don't know it is just hard and I feel like I am bering a spoiled

brat. Sorry

in St. Louis

By the way, thank you for the mouthwash information. I will ask my

doctor about it tomorrow.