I may go back to morning workouts

June 15, 2012

I've been very depressed lately and my weight continues to climb. I'm too embarrassed and ashamed to even put it down here. I've been over eating because it's the only true deep pleasure I have lately outside of working out. I otherwise feel like I'm just going through the motions, not much else makes me happy or arouses passion. My life lacks deep intimacy...yet there isn't anyone I wish to be completely transparent with either. You guys here on EV know me better than most; the people I do wish to be transparent with don't have time for me or live far away.

In LOLcat lingo, " I haz a sad " .

I've been in this place before and have bounced back before.

Luckily,

I AM passionate about working out, and I know that when I get up at 4:30 and work out before work I feel so much better. I seem to naturally awaken at that time anyway, and I love how quiet it is at that

time. It's a spiritual time. I like going to work and feeling like I've already lived another lifetime and starting the day strong and confident, and I miss Studio LouLou and my workout videos. I've been most successful with weight loss working out both before and after work, and by going to bed early it keeps me out of food

and wine trouble.

So I'm thinking my workouts could be something like:

Mon:

morning - cardio

lunch hour - walking outside or Sweat Shop (the small gyms at work)

after work - Cascade Athletic Club for strength or Zumba

Tues:morning - yogalunch hour - walking or Sweat Shop

after work - either Legs or Back and Biceps with Noel at Fitness

Wed:

rest day, walk if it's nice outside

Thursday:morning - cardiolunch hour - walking

after work - Group Kick or strength at CAC

Fri:morning - sleep in. lunch hour - walk

Sat:

morning - Group Kick

Sun:late morning - bike ride or run outside

late afternoon - strength at CACWe'll see what happens. I'm taking Monday off to make it a long weekend to help get me back on track.

Hope everyone has a nice weekend!

June 16, 2012

I've been in this place before and have bounced back before.

Yes, you do bounce back. Hard to believe this, but I've felt the same way and I've been with many years. I don't work outside this house so I don't socialize with anyone except my family and thank God for my friends here on the Internet. Exercise is the one thing that makes me feel accomplished. Most people can feel that way making a pay check every week. I don't have that. So exercise is a huge part of my life who I am.

Everything you said about morning workouts is how I feel. I give you a huge YES on going back to it. I don't like getting up early. Well, some mornings I do and some mornings I don't. But even on the mornings I don't, once I'm up and I got that workout in I'm so happy. I'm in such a better mood. I think from all the things you said about it that will be what gets you through this depression.

You are very dedicated to your job and your workouts and that is something to be really proud about. Depression can be crippling, but you are such a strong woman that I know you will do the things that's right for you to get out of this. I also think that someone will show up in your life and it will be when you least expect it. You are too awesome for someone to not notice you and grab you up. I just think that its all in good time. I believe that for everything in life. The things we want, hope for and desire feel like they will never come true and then that one day you get up thinking its going to be just another day and that day is the beginning of the rest of your life. OK, I'm getting a little too sappy there lol.

Anytime you need to talk just know that I'm here!!

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June 16, 2012

Oh ((HUGS)) - depression stinks. I think your plan is a very good one. I think in life there are very few people we are truly "transparent" to - So, life can be lonely sometimes. I have a lot of "acquaintences" but only a few good, true friends who "know" me as I am. ((HUGS)) Oh, plus you guys here - I am pretty much "me" here!Donna

Subject: I may go back to morning workoutsTo: "Exercise Videos" <exercisevideos >Date: Friday, June 15, 2012, 11:41 PM

I've been very depressed lately and my weight continues to climb. I'm too embarrassed and ashamed to even put it down here. I've been over eating because it's the only true deep pleasure I have lately outside of working out. I otherwise feel like I'm just going through the motions, not much else makes me happy or arouses passion. My life lacks deep intimacy...yet there isn't anyone I wish to be completely transparent with either. You guys here on EV know me better than most; the people I do wish to be transparent with don't have time for me or live far away.

In LOLcat lingo, "I haz a sad".

I've been in this place before and have bounced back before.

Luckily, I AM passionate about working out, and I know that when I get up at 4:30 and work out before work I feel so much better. I seem to naturally awaken at that time anyway, and I love how quiet it is at that time. It's a spiritual time. I like going to work and feeling like I've already lived another lifetime and starting the day strong and confident, and I miss Studio LouLou and my workout videos. I've been most successful with weight loss working out both before and after work, and by going to bed early it keeps me out of food and wine trouble.

So I'm thinking my workouts could be something like:

Mon:

morning - cardio

lunch hour - walking outside or Sweat Shop (the small gyms at work)

after work - Cascade Athletic Club for strength or Zumba

Tues:

morning - yoga

lunch hour - walking or Sweat Shop

after work - either Legs or Back and Biceps with Noel at Fitness

Wed:

rest day, walk if it's nice outside

Thursday:

morning - cardio

lunch hour - walking

after work - Group Kick or strength at CAC

Fri:

morning - sleep in.

lunch hour - walk

Sat:

morning - Group Kick

Sun:

late morning - bike ride or run outsidelate afternoon - strength at CAC

We'll see what happens. I'm taking Monday off to make it a long weekend to help get me back on track. Hope everyone has a nice weekend!

June 16, 2012

, I havent posted lately on here...life has been crazy, but I know we all live crazy lives, so that's no excuse. I'm thinking about you and hope this plan works for you! I also feel so much better when I exercise in the mornings, but I rarely force myself out of bed to exercise. Keep us informed on how you do with your plan. :)TeenaSent from my iPhone

Oh ((HUGS)) - depression stinks. I think your plan is a very good one. I think in life there are very few people we are truly "transparent" to - So, life can be lonely sometimes. I have a lot of "acquaintences" but only a few good, true friends who "know" me as I am. ((HUGS)) Oh, plus you guys here - I am pretty much "me" here!Donna

Subject: I may go back to morning workoutsTo: "Exercise Videos" <exercisevideos >Date: Friday, June 15, 2012, 11:41 PM

I've been very depressed lately and my weight continues to climb. I'm too embarrassed and ashamed to even put it down here. I've been over eating because it's the only true deep pleasure I have lately outside of working out. I otherwise feel like I'm just going through the motions, not much else makes me happy or arouses passion. My life lacks deep intimacy...yet there isn't anyone I wish to be completely transparent with either. You guys here on EV know me better than most; the people I do wish to be transparent with don't have time for me or live far away.

In LOLcat lingo, "I haz a sad".

I've been in this place before and have bounced back before.

Luckily, I AM passionate about working out, and I know that when I get up at 4:30 and work out before work I feel so much better. I seem to naturally awaken at that time anyway, and I love how quiet it is at that time. It's a spiritual time. I like going to work and feeling like I've already lived another lifetime and starting the day strong and confident, and I miss Studio LouLou and my workout videos. I've been most successful with weight loss working out both before and after work, and by going to bed early it keeps me out of food and wine trouble.

So I'm thinking my workouts could be something like:

Mon:

morning - cardio

lunch hour - walking outside or Sweat Shop (the small gyms at work)

after work - Cascade Athletic Club for strength or Zumba

Tues:

morning - yoga

lunch hour - walking or Sweat Shop

after work - either Legs or Back and Biceps with Noel at Fitness

Wed:

rest day, walk if it's nice outside

Thursday:

morning - cardio

lunch hour - walking

after work - Group Kick or strength at CAC

Fri:

morning - sleep in.

lunch hour - walk

Sat:

morning - Group Kick

Sun:

late morning - bike ride or run outsidelate afternoon - strength at CAC

We'll see what happens. I'm taking Monday off to make it a long weekend to help get me back on track. Hope everyone has a nice weekend!

June 16, 2012

I know the feeling -- sorry " U haz it. "

Eating is a big pleasure for me, too, and a real problem when I'm down. I try to

substitute something for it. I know hand-crafts help me. I get a sense of

accomplishment when I finish something -- and if I'm working with my hands, I

can't be messing with food.

I having been posting lately because my new job is very busy (a GOOD thing!!)

and I don't get many personal breaks, like most of my jobs! Spring/summer is

also very busy at home (not so good!) with tons of yard work. I've been feeling

very stressed with that, too.en there

--There's my mom's care...

Anyway, " this too shall pass. " Do a little self-searching and try to find a

pleasure to replace food. It helps me -- I hope it will help you, too!

Indyrose,

trying to hold the fort here...

>

> I've been very depressed lately and my weight continues to climb. I'm too

> embarrassed and ashamed to even put it down here. I've been over eating

> because it's the only true deep pleasure I have lately outside of working

> out. I otherwise feel like I'm just going through the motions, not much

> else makes me happy or arouses passion. My life lacks deep intimacy...yet

> there isn't anyone I wish to be completely transparent with either. You

> guys here on EV know me better than most; the people I do wish to be

> transparent with don't have time for me or live far away.

>

> In LOLcat lingo, " I haz a sad " .

>

> I've been in this place before and have bounced back before.

>

> Luckily, I AM passionate about working out, and I know that when I get up

> at 4:30 and work out before work I feel so much better. I seem to

> naturally awaken at that time anyway, and I love how quiet it is at that

> time. It's a spiritual time. I like going to work and feeling like I've

> already lived another lifetime and starting the day strong and confident,

> and I miss Studio LouLou and my workout videos. I've been most successful

> with weight loss working out both before and after work, and by going to

> bed early it keeps me out of food and wine trouble.

>

> So I'm thinking my workouts could be something like:

>

> *Mon:*

> morning - cardio

> lunch hour - walking outside or Sweat Shop (the small gyms at work)

> after work - Cascade Athletic Club for strength or Zumba

>

> *Tues:*

> morning - yoga

> lunch hour - walking or Sweat Shop

> after work - either Legs or Back and Biceps with Noel at Fitness

>

> *Wed:*

> rest day, walk if it's nice outside

>

> *Thursday:*

> morning - cardio

> lunch hour - walking

> after work - Group Kick or strength at CAC

>

> *Fri:*

> morning - sleep in.

> lunch hour - walk

>

> *Sat:*

> morning - Group Kick

>

> *Sun:*

> late morning - bike ride or run outside

> late afternoon - strength at CAC

>

> We'll see what happens. I'm taking Monday off to make it a long weekend to

> help get me back on track.

>

> Hope everyone has a nice weekend!

>

June 16, 2012

> I've been very depressed lately and my weight continues to climb.

oh my, i hear ya pinky. feeling sad and over-eating go hand in

hand for many people. but you hit the nail on the head....

morning workouts will restore your personal power. i am so

proud of you for seeing that. i also want you to try to take

joy from even the smallest things. it might help you to write

on a calendar just one thing each day that made you feel

good/happy/accomplished/strong. a workout, yes, but other

things that touch you, like seeing a beautiful sunrise, or a

compliment that you received, or a long cuddle with a fur-friend

who loves you.

i just want you to know that you are not alone in the feelings

that you are experiencing.....

a) i was reminded that stress at work leads me to over-eating at

home - last week was HELL and i shoved so much sweet and fatty

food into my mouth over the week that i started to feel

emotionally depressed and physically ill.

ive been with my current dh for, like 16 years, and i dont

refer to our relationship as 'deep intimacy'. i dont think i

will ever experience that due to the person i am, and the people

that i choose to be with. i dont really tell him 'secrets' or

disclose most of my true feelings to him because, 1-he doesnt

really care about that stuff because he is male and somewhat

self-centered and 2-he will turn those kinds of things around

and use them to emotionally hurt me when he gets mad at me about

something.

having someone to share intimacy with isnt always the answer,

because often they do not co-operate fully in the picture we have

created. be careful what you wish for.

im looking forward to seeing you bounce back.... we all know

that this is temporary for you. do it for yourself, you have

the means and a very strong mind, so crawl out of your hole and

go and kick some ass !

:*carolyn.

June 16, 2012

Carolyn,

I agree w/ what you said about intimacy - I'm a very private and reserved person - so there aren't many people that I share with - I'm usually the one people share their feelings and problems with but I'm not one to open up very easily so a lot of my "friendships" are very one-sided. My DH is not into "feelings" he's a straightfoward sort of "what you see is what you get" person and I tihnk he finds my "feelings" to be frustrating at times!

Donna> I've been very depressed lately and my weight continues to climb.oh my, i hear ya pinky. feeling sad and over-eating go hand in hand for many people. but you hit the nail on the head.... morning workouts will restore your personal power. i am so proud of you for seeing that. i also want you to try to take joy from even the smallest things. it might help you to write on a calendar just one thing each day that made you feel good/happy/accomplished/strong. a workout, yes, but other things that touch you, like seeing a beautiful sunrise, or a compliment that you received, or a long cuddle with a fur-friend who loves you.i just want you to know that you are not alone in the feelings that you are experiencing.....a) i was reminded that stress at work leads me to over-eating at home - last week was HELL and i shoved so much sweet and

fatty food into my mouth over the week that i started to feel emotionally depressed and physically ill. ive been with my current dh for, like 16 years, and i dont refer to our relationship as 'deep intimacy'. i dont think i will ever experience that due to the person i am, and the people that i choose to be with. i dont really tell him 'secrets' or disclose most of my true feelings to him because, 1-he doesnt really care about that stuff because he is male and somewhat self-centered and 2-he will turn those kinds of things around and use them to emotionally hurt me when he gets mad at me about something.having someone to share intimacy with isnt always the answer, because often they do not co-operate fully in the picture we have created. be careful what you wish for.im looking forward to seeing you bounce back.... we all know that this is temporary for you. do it for yourself, you

have the means and a very strong mind, so crawl out of your hole and go and kick some ass !:*carolyn.

June 16, 2012

>My DH is not into " feelings "

> he's a straightfoward sort of " what you see is what you get "

> person and I tihnk he finds my " feelings " to be frustrating at times!

my dh says that im 'super-sensitive' while i think that he has

only one emotion.

im trying to hold it all back... he just does not get it...lol

:*c.

.... ps, im enjoying the hummingbird show here... luv those little

gals (have only had one tiny male which the females chased off)

June 16, 2012

Thank you, , for the long and thoughtful reply and also to you, Carolyn, Donna, Indy and Teena that means a lot to me!I do feel listened to and loved by you guys and don't know what I'd do without you, fa realz! I do think getting up early and having that spiritual time alone in the morning before going to work will help tremendously. Heck I might even get to do the TLT Focus and Longevity workouts along with Donna, who knows! I do miss my workout videos.

As far as intimacy goes, I'm not necessarily seeking that from a partner/lover - I mean with just anyone. I don't feel close to many people. I feel my relationships mostly hover at a superficial level.

Anyway, I will resume morning workouts mid next week. Thanks again for listening, Everyone! Hugs

>My DH is not into " feelings "

> he's a straightfoward sort of " what you see is what you get "

> person and I tihnk he finds my " feelings " to be frustrating at times!

my dh says that im 'super-sensitive' while i think that he has

only one emotion.

im trying to hold it all back... he just does not get it...lol

:*c.

.... ps, im enjoying the hummingbird show here... luv those little

gals (have only had one tiny male which the females chased off)

June 16, 2012

Hugs . It's so awful to feel that way, and I hope it passes fast. I think you've devised a really great plan. It's a really great mix! I hope it helps to take those blues away. You're smart, though. When I get depressed, I just withdraw, which might not be the best thing to do. You post about it.There's nothing like morning endorphins, except maybe morning endorphins + coffee. I think that your a.m. workout plan is great for many reasons. It's murder to get up that early if the prior evening was out of control. This is one of those things that I have to relearn repeatedly. I also wake up naturally at that time no matter what, but I sure feel like crap if I went off the rails the night before. I promise to check in about my new evening routine. I know you check in regularly.FYI, regarding the Guitar Diet, I found I was taking my guitar playing too seriously so I just ordered a toy ukulele. http://www.amazon.com/Makala-Dolphin-Bridge-Soprano-Ukulele/dp/B0056I5NXUI think I need the silliness and joy of it. Plus, it's the color of a Caribbean beach. What could be better? Maybe you need a uke too.

I've been very depressed lately and my weight continues to climb. I'm too embarrassed and ashamed to even put it down here. I've been over eating because it's the only true deep pleasure I have lately outside of working out. I otherwise feel like I'm just going through the motions, not much else makes me happy or arouses passion. My life lacks deep intimacy...yet there isn't anyone I wish to be completely transparent with either. You guys here on EV know me better than most; the people I do wish to be transparent with don't have time for me or live far away.

In LOLcat lingo, "I haz a sad".

I've been in this place before and have bounced back before.

Luckily,

I AM passionate about working out, and I know that when I get up at 4:30 and work out before work I feel so much better. I seem to naturally awaken at that time anyway, and I love how quiet it is at that

time. It's a spiritual time. I like going to work and feeling like I've already lived another lifetime and starting the day strong and confident, and I miss Studio LouLou and my workout videos. I've been most successful with weight loss working out both before and after work, and by going to bed early it keeps me out of food

and wine trouble.

So I'm thinking my workouts could be something like:

Mon:

morning - cardio

lunch hour - walking outside or Sweat Shop (the small gyms at work)

after work - Cascade Athletic Club for strength or Zumba

Tues:morning - yogalunch hour - walking or Sweat Shop

after work - either Legs or Back and Biceps with Noel at Fitness

Wed:

rest day, walk if it's nice outside

Thursday:morning - cardiolunch hour - walking

after work - Group Kick or strength at CAC

Fri:morning - sleep in. lunch hour - walk

Sat:

morning - Group Kick

Sun:late morning - bike ride or run outside

late afternoon - strength at CACWe'll see what happens. I'm taking Monday off to make it a long weekend to help get me back on track.

Hope everyone has a nice weekend!

June 16, 2012

You hit the nail on the head - it's hard to get up early when you've downed a bottle of wine and stayed up late the night before. I love my mid-day workouts walking and at the Sweat Shop and my evening workouts at CAC and will continue those, but I miss my workout videos and alone time in the morning. Luckily my cat, Junior, also likes to get up that time and he will help me! I think it will help me feel a sense of accomplishment as pointed out, and if one is on the smaller but more frequent meal plan that works out well for me too this way. I'm thinking:

4:45 1 scoop whey with water, a quick chug to get something light in the tumdrink coffee, scoop cat poop, feed fish, throw on some clothes5:15 work out6:15 oatmeal and fruit, prepare eggwhite omelet with turkey bacon to take to work

9:15 reheat / finish cooking egg white omelet 12:00 chicken salad + sweet potato or rice12:30 walking or Sweat Shop workout3:00 protein shake smoothie5:00 - 6:15 nap, eat something6:45 - head over to gym for lifiting + eliptical, shower

8:00- one scoop casein with water9:00 or so be in bedWe'll see how it all pans out! I need to do SOMETHING different! Ukelele's are GREAT, , and I think they are making a comeback! They remind me of being in Hawaii and vacation. Yes, they are HAPPY instruments!

You'll have to take a YouTube of you playing and send it to us! Hugs

Hugs . It's so awful to feel that way, and I hope it passes fast. I think you've devised a really great plan. It's a really great mix! I hope it helps to take those blues away. You're smart, though. When I get depressed, I just withdraw, which might not be the best thing to do. You post about it.

There's nothing like morning endorphins, except maybe morning endorphins + coffee. I think that your a.m. workout plan is great for many reasons. It's murder to get up that early if the prior evening was out of control. This is one of those things that I have to relearn repeatedly. I also wake up naturally at that time no matter what, but I sure feel like crap if I went off the rails the night before.

I promise to check in about my new evening routine. I know you check in regularly.FYI, regarding the Guitar Diet, I found I was taking my guitar playing too seriously so I just ordered a toy ukulele.

http://www.amazon.com/Makala-Dolphin-Bridge-Soprano-Ukulele/dp/B0056I5NXUI think I need the silliness and joy of it. Plus, it's the color of a Caribbean beach. What could be better? Maybe you need a uke too.

I've been very depressed lately and my weight continues to climb. I'm too embarrassed and ashamed to even put it down here. I've been over eating because it's the only true deep pleasure I have lately outside of working out. I otherwise feel like I'm just going through the motions, not much else makes me happy or arouses passion. My life lacks deep intimacy...yet there isn't anyone I wish to be completely transparent with either. You guys here on EV know me better than most; the people I do wish to be transparent with don't have time for me or live far away.

In LOLcat lingo, " I haz a sad " .

I've been in this place before and have bounced back before.

Luckily,

I AM passionate about working out, and I know that when I get up at 4:30 and work out before work I feel so much better. I seem to naturally awaken at that time anyway, and I love how quiet it is at that

time. It's a spiritual time. I like going to work and feeling like I've already lived another lifetime and starting the day strong and confident, and I miss Studio LouLou and my workout videos. I've been most successful with weight loss working out both before and after work, and by going to bed early it keeps me out of food

and wine trouble.

So I'm thinking my workouts could be something like:

Mon:

morning - cardio

lunch hour - walking outside or Sweat Shop (the small gyms at work)

after work - Cascade Athletic Club for strength or Zumba

Tues:morning - yogalunch hour - walking or Sweat Shop

after work - either Legs or Back and Biceps with Noel at Fitness

Wed:

rest day, walk if it's nice outside

Thursday:morning - cardiolunch hour - walking

after work - Group Kick or strength at CAC

Fri:morning - sleep in. lunch hour - walk

Sat:

morning - Group Kick

Sun:late morning - bike ride or run outside

late afternoon - strength at CACWe'll see what happens. I'm taking Monday off to make it a long weekend to help get me back on track.

Hope everyone has a nice weekend!

June 16, 2012

LOL! You have no idea how self conscious I am about playing for other people. I really have to get over myself.

LOVE your plan ! I'm one of those organized people. I have to do things a certain way each day and I like to have it all planned out. I really do think that helps TONS with eating also. You seem to have it all planned out. From your chores to your workouts, to your meals. That's great!!

Yes, would love to see play!

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June 16, 2012

> FYI, regarding the Guitar Diet, I found I was taking my guitar

> playing too seriously so I just ordered a toy u! kulele.

> http://www.amazon.com/Makala-Dolphin-Bridge-Soprano-Ukulele/dp/B0056I5NXU

oh that is so cool angelica. id love to be able to play that!

id also love to be able to play the banjo!!! LOL

:*carolyn.

June 16, 2012

pinky, your meal plan looks fantastic. im sure that it will

feel good to have control over food again. in some strange

way, angelica has made me think that i should buy a ukelele and a

book/cd on how to play it. i dont even know how to play the

guitar! LOL (but i did play the piano for 12 years of my

childhood and studied theory during the last few, so i might

catch on quick). but to be realistic, when would i have time to

take on such a fun project? :/ heck i cant even get my

workout plans off of the ground ::sigh::

:*c.

June 16, 2012

Cola Pop, I hear you on the extra hobbies! I got a bad piece of artwork from a thrift store hoping to add aliens to it with acrylics like these guys do (see link below) but with work and fitness I just don't have the time

http://twistedsifter.com/2012/04/adding-monsters-to-thrift-store-paintings/Still I value my workouts above all else so it's a fine sacrifice I figure there will be time for painting when I'm in a wheelchair

Hugs

pinky, your meal plan looks fantastic. im sure that it will

feel good to have control over food again. in some strange

way, angelica has made me think that i should buy a ukelele and a

book/cd on how to play it. i dont even know how to play the

guitar! LOL (but i did play the piano for 12 years of my

childhood and studied theory during the last few, so i might

catch on quick). but to be realistic, when would i have time to

take on such a fun project? :/ heck i cant even get my

workout plans off of the ground ::sigh::

:*c.

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June 16, 2012

I love that idea so much. My favorite is the painting with the water skier. Those are hilarious.

Cola Pop, I hear you on the extra hobbies! I got a bad piece of artwork from a thrift store hoping to add aliens to it with acrylics like these guys do (see link below) but with work and fitness I just don't have the time

http://twistedsifter.com/2012/04/adding-monsters-to-thrift-store-paintings/Still I value my workouts above all else so it's a fine sacrifice I figure there will be time for painting when I'm in a wheelchair

Hugs

pinky, your meal plan looks fantastic. im sure that it will

feel good to have control over food again. in some strange

way, angelica has made me think that i should buy a ukelele and a

book/cd on how to play it. i dont even know how to play the

guitar! LOL (but i did play the piano for 12 years of my

childhood and studied theory during the last few, so i might

catch on quick). but to be realistic, when would i have time to

take on such a fun project? :/ heck i cant even get my

workout plans off of the ground ::sigh::

:*c.

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June 17, 2012

,

I have some of the same habits I want to change...I often stay up way too late at night....sometimes drinking wine, sometimes not. I tell myself this is the only time I really get to myself to try to justify it but I know it is affecting my weight loss goals. I manage to walk a lot but I never have time for my video workouts. I need to start getting my butt up early too and getting it done. Plus getting up before my kids and getting stuff done would help my mental health tremendously. Even though I am with my kids all day I feel very lonely too most of the time.

Jeanette