Re: Dreamer..

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Oh my, I am getting embarrassed. LOL.

Thank you.

Yes my mothers day was wonderful. I hope everyones was good. I love my time

with my kids. The one thing my RA did give me that was a great thing was..time

with my kids. RA forced me to slow down, re-prioritize. Before RA I was so

focused on....accomplishing everything. (As I have said - I am bipolar and I

ran hypomanic my entire life, LOTS of energy) I was so busy, I was DOING

everything, for the kids, for my dh, for our family- but- I was not ever idle or

relaxing or just being with them. When the RA first hit me, well, like I said

it hit hard and fast and wicked, and I did not have insurance and I barely

remember some of that time, I was in such intense pain....but now? SOmetimes I

resent the illness, sometimes I feel sorry for myself, cuz I cannot work anymore

and I miss it...BUT...I think if I did not get RA? My kids might not ever get

to just be with me....and my presence here at home, my availability? It has

been the very best thing for all of them. It is not what I do, but that I am

HERE.

And before, I think I intimidated them and exhausted them and I think I

sometimes made ppl feel ....less than adequete, cuz I was so high power. But

now? Now my kids will come curl up beside me and just sit.just talk.yes, even

my teenagers.

I am truly blessed.

Am I strong? Nah..I cry, I tantrum, LOL, days like yesterday when I feel sorry

for myself. Some days I pull the covers right back over my head after I get

them all off to school.

Everyone has gifts and talents, and when I come here I benefit from everyone

elses strengths. The research and time and effort a and and the others

put in here.the ppl who struggle and go to work or do their housework? I am in

awe. The support everyone here gives eother? Thats what makes the world go

round.

- In , Gardenia blossoms <stillbreathing29@...> wrote:

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> Dreamer...

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> While I appreciate Betty's sacrifices and I am sure the board does as well,

I feel you are a strong woman too. I am touched by all that you do and all that

many women do to care for their families. I really hope your mother's day was

nice. I wasn't able to be online at the time. Happy belated Mother's Day!

That said, you are not Rambo but what you do sounds like a one-man army. Isn't

there any help anywhere in the family or friends? I know you do what you gotta

do and I am amazed by it all, but wow it just seems like so much.

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> My condolences to you for your mom's passing. You know I lost my mom last

year and understand the loss.

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> There were so many things in your message that touched me I wouldn't be able

to comment on them all but just wanted you to know I am in awe of all that you

do.

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> Many blessings to you and a helping hand or two,

> Ebony

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