Sadly, no Arthritis Walk for Me

[Guest guest]

Well friends,

My heart was willing, and I so wanted to do it for

myself and for all of you, but my body just would not

cooperate. I had been flaring on and off all week

long, RA and FM taking their turns at me, but I had

the greatest hope of being able to do this walk.

However, I could barely move when I got out of bed

this morning. I tried taking my pain pill, and all

the rest of my wonderful meds, to see if that would

help - no success. My feet and ankles just got hotter

and more painful, and I had to come to the realization

that there would be no walk for me today. It is a

real bummer.

I was a bit better by this afternoon, able to hobble

around my house. I wish the walk had begun later in

the day, rather than 8:00 a.m. at a place 45 minutes

from where I live. Maybe I could have made it. I feel

really bummed and feel I have let myself down, and

worst of all, let down all of you who had rooted me

on. I have been made aware once again how RA can ruin

your plans, take over your body, and there is nothing

that you can do, but to take the dang meds and sit

waiting for them to take effect, if they do. We did

not get to see my brother, or spend the day I had

envisioned after the walk.

Anyway, it's just been a very depressing day, and I am

glad that I can come here to vent about it. My family

is sorry I could not go, but does not understand the

depths of emotions that I am feeling because of my not

being able to do even this one goal I had which was so

important to me. I will make next year's walk my

goal. I hope I can do it then, or will I be worse?

That's the bigger concern for me. What will happen in

the coming year with my RA/FM/OA situation? The great

unknown. I hate to think like that, but there it is.

The monsters that plague our days and nights. I know

that you guys will understand what I am saying, and

know that it is something that we all worry about.

I'm heading back to bed now, and will back on

tomorrow, hopefully with a better attitude and outlook

on everything . You guys are the greatest - take

care -

Kathe in CA

Kathe

" To ride a horse is to borrow freedom. "

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