At my wits end! I need help....

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I am currently at work (desk job in transportation). I can hardly

keep my eyes open, the entire right side of my body is wracked in

pain and I am using my left arm/hand for everything, which is making

it hurt very badly and I'm afraid that soon it too will stop working.

It is only the 9th of the month, of the year for that matter! I can't

take time off (I was out 2 days last week) because I need every bit

of it for my many Dr's appointments. The fatigue is bone gnawing, I

didn't know I could be this exhausted and still be conscious. My

vision is bluring but I can't tell if it's the pain or the

exhaustion. I am going to find out from my Rheumatologist next week

if there's any way she can request my company to give me temporary

disability, just for a little while until I start my meds and start

feeling better. My other option is to quit and have no income or

health insurance. I dread that more than anything because then it

will be totally up to my husband to support us, and I have the better

job.

Any words of support would be so greatly appreciated. Anything that

you think might help me make it to 5 o'clock. Nothing I am doing is

helping. It feels like a truckload of bricks has been placed in my

lap and I can't do anything about it....

Lyndsay, desperate in Houston, TX

Thank you guys.