Re: Re: Help me if you can understand!!!!

[Guest guest]

Hi ,

Randall <krandall@...> wrote: >I understand what your

saying completely. And the same thing does

happen to me. I have to ask, " Do you mean in comparison to before I

got RA or in comparison to the last time I saw you? " I think the

answer for me is that I DEFINITELY feel MUCH better than after I got

RA, but before I started treatment. However, I am certainly not

back to where I was pre-RA by any means.

I totally know what you both are saying I found out how much pain I was in

when they put me on a pain pill I actually cried to realize how much pain I was

in and didn't know it.

I do think at some level " mind over matter " kicks in for me. I'm

sure that's why I can go through the day and pain is just sort

of " background noise " , but then, when I get into bed at night and

try to relax, it really hits me, and the pain becomes something I

can no longer ignore.

I train horses and give lessons I always put a smile on my face even though I

ache, I know people do not understand the pain I am in when walking hurts.

Well, there's a BIG difference between " any better " and COMPLETELY

better.

You are so right I was so much more active and before I found out I had RA I

found out I have Hashimoto's disease which can effect your whole body too plus

it makes you tired too. I finally think I have things under control and I found

out I have RA so this year has been one thing after another.

Yes. It has happened to me several times while driving. We live in

an area where a number of roads go through woodlands without

distinguishing features, and that seems to be where it happens to me

most. I get almost a little panicky when it happens, because I

can't remember where I am or where I'm going. It passes in a few

seconds, but it's scary.

I have those problems too especially going to the stable at 6:45 a.m. a couple

of times I was glad no one was behind me since I hit the brakes when I almost

missed the road to turn onto. Now this is a way I go 5 out of 7 days.

Plus I use to work 6 days a week and if I took a day off I staggered now I

have to have two days in a row. Especially when I ride two horses and teach 7

lessons on Saturday and the same on Sunday. I know there will be a time I have

to stop but it is like breathing to me. I am happy my doctor is good about

using aggressive when it come to my medication.

I also had a scare before Thanksgiving I thought I was having a heart attack

my husband took me to the ER no EKG was good blood pressure and they took

x-rays. I thought I was loosing my mind it was like I was kicked by a horse

(yes I know what that feels like I have been kicked before-Thank God it was in

my pre RA and younger days). It was my RA I looked at my RA doctor in disbelief

so he made his point by pressing on a place on my chest I went to the ground. I

do not know what is going to happen next.

Sorry it is so long but I can relate to this discussion I was a runner and a

body builder in my life before Hashimoto's disease and now RA.

I know you are only given what you can handle I just want to say " When! "

Marsha

[Guest guest]

Hey Guys,

I'm glad to know that I'm not going crazy, or maybe not going crazy alone

(lol). it's just so hard to accept that i can't do everything like before.

You know last week my boss told me that i will have a promotion by the

end of 2007 and I'll be transferred to our company branch in US or Canad. He was

talking about how he's proud of me for doing what i did in only 3 months. But

seriously i didn't hear any word.

I was busy thinking that i have to find another Rheumatology, buy another car,

find another apartment.........etc.

Sometimes i wish i could say to any one how tired i am. That my only hope in

life is to lay down and sleep for more than 5 hrs.

I wonder what my boss would say if he knows that i chooses his company because

they have a very good disability plan.....(lol).

Thanks guys,

Marwa

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