Going to the rheumatologist tomorrow, excited and scared...

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Hi!

I have an appointment with a rheumalogist tomorrow and I have not

been to one since my diagnosis in 2000. I have just been going to a

general practioner for the past 6 years and since my symptoms have

worsened, I asked for a referral and tomorrow I am going. I am

scared and I do not know why. I suspect that I have more than

fibromyalgia going on and I would welcome a diagnosis, but I am also

afraid of it.

My mom has and her dad had rheumatoid arthritis, and she thinks she

can see changes in my hands. I have noticed more pain in my feet,

ankles, hips, elbows, wrists and hands and I am angry and afraid

because of the pain. I guess part of me always thought that I would

get better, or at least stay the same, and I think it is unfair,

after working so hard all these years, that I have this now. I feel

alone in my painful body and even though I know that I am more

mobile than many on this site, my pain levels are starting to

concern me.

I am having to limit my activities more and more and I do not like

to do that. I try to be a good sport most days, but today is not

one of those days. Thanks for reading my vent and making me not feel

so all alone. Penny