Kathe and June

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June your words to Kathe were beautiful- you have a way with words. :-)

I agree with you 100%.

Hugs to you, Kathe.....your heart was in a good place and your intentions

good. Be gentle on yourself....your loving soul shines thru, anyway!

- In , Kathe Sabetzadeh <lv2ryd@...> wrote:

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> Well friends,

>

> My heart was willing, and I so wanted to do it for

> myself and for all of you, but my body just would not

> cooperate. I had been flaring on and off all week

> long, RA and FM taking their turns at me, but I had

> the greatest hope of being able to do this walk.

> However, I could barely move when I got out of bed

> this morning. I tried taking my pain pill, and all

> the rest of my wonderful meds, to see if that would

> help - no success. My feet and ankles just got hotter

> and more painful, and I had to come to the realization

> that there would be no walk for me today. It is a

> real bummer.

>

> I was a bit better by this afternoon, able to hobble

> around my house. I wish the walk had begun later in

> the day, rather than 8:00 a.m. at a place 45 minutes

> from where I live. Maybe I could have made it. I feel

> really bummed and feel I have let myself down, and

> worst of all, let down all of you who had rooted me

> on. I have been made aware once again how RA can ruin

> your plans, take over your body, and there is nothing

> that you can do, but to take the dang meds and sit

> waiting for them to take effect, if they do. We did

> not get to see my brother, or spend the day I had

> envisioned after the walk.

>

> Anyway, it's just been a very depressing day, and I am

> glad that I can come here to vent about it. My family

> is sorry I could not go, but does not understand the

> depths of emotions that I am feeling because of my not

> being able to do even this one goal I had which was so

> important to me. I will make next year's walk my

> goal. I hope I can do it then, or will I be worse?

> That's the bigger concern for me. What will happen in

> the coming year with my RA/FM/OA situation? The great

> unknown. I hate to think like that, but there it is.

> The monsters that plague our days and nights. I know

> that you guys will understand what I am saying, and

> know that it is something that we all worry about.

>

> I'm heading back to bed now, and will back on

> tomorrow, hopefully with a better attitude and outlook

> on everything . You guys are the greatest - take

> care -

>

> Kathe in CA

>

>

> Kathe

>

> " To ride a horse is to borrow freedom. "

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