A good cry...

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I finally quit being " strong " and had a good all day cry yesterday. I

figured out that I feel Threatened by what is happening to me. Yeah,

scared too. My husband feels terrible right now. He has told me

things are all in my head or mabye I need to go back to counseling.

My chiropractor's receptionist called him an ***hole because she

couldn't stand the way he talked about me. This time he knows its for

real. He has been busting his hump to help me out and I can't help

but feel guilty cuz he works a cruddy shift and he's not getting much

sleep. I certainly don't want his health to suffer too!

The pain has been bad and i can't take anything because of the severe

gastritis. I'm afraid i'll start bleeding. So I soak in a hot bath.

Actually that's a treat for me. I have a houseful of kids so it's my

mini-vacation. It will be a while before I can see a rheumatologist.

I'm curious to see how the diagnosis will differ from the other docs.

I'm finding out some family history which has added fuel to my fire.

I do not want to suffer like my mother and grandmother did. They both

died from gastrointestinal cancers and suffered with unexplained pain

for years.

Thank you everyone for your ears!

Theresa