Re: having trouble dealing (cassie)

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Well, my theory with me is that either way it will be ok. I am

grieving for the loss of my best friend (my husband), who hasn't

really been a friend to me in a long time and when the chips were

down, he was NOT there for me. It was like a light went off in my

head this evening. I AM A good catch. I am just sorry that he is

missing out on all I have to offer and the love and companionship

that would could be giving to each other. I am loving, loyal and

generous and after this time I guess pretty gullible too. Oh well

the important thing is that my kids know and God knows. He will

either come around or he won't. Either way I am ok with it. His

loss and as for his mother, well someday, when she is very old and

dependant on her children that they do not treat her with the lack of

ompassion that she has shown to me. She has more to offer strangers

than me, her DIL for 18 years. This time I don't know if I can do

it. I did with his grandma, grandpa, cousins, etc and anyone else in

the family who has needed me, but I just don't think that this one is

going away. The wound is too deep this time. I have been a good and

faithful daughter in law and it is a shame that the gossip train has

to keep on going so much so that relationships are destroyed. The

desire to be a part of " the family " is gone. Like something inside

of me has died. I honestly think it did and today I realized it and

that it is OK. I am letting go and letting God, because I have to!

I have to help ME get well. Thanks for listening. Cassy

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> THANK YOU Cassie..It really does help having someone to talk to.My

prayers are with you also. That was one of my reasons i left my

husband, he didnt care what i felt like, and after my surgeries he

never helped with the kids .. of course he was one of the kids. he

always wanted to take from me and never give, and i got to tired to

deal with him i finally had to leave to actually get some strength

back emotionally and phisically. Im sure yours will work out fine..

its just to bad people dont understand..Its like at work i tell my

friend , who is my boss... wow my arm is really hurting today.. she

says oh is it that bad? then oh yeah i have some extra papers for you

to do today. well anyways im in a better mood today. My prayers are

with you and thanks again... debbie(

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> > THANK YOU Cassie..It really does help having someone to talk to.My

> prayers are with you also. That was one of my reasons i left my

> husband, he didnt care what i felt like, and after my surgeries he

> never helped with the kids .. of course he was one of the kids. he

> always wanted to take from me and never give, and i got to tired to

> deal with him i finally had to leave to actually get some strength

> back emotionally and phisically. Im sure yours will work out fine..

> its just to bad people dont understand..Its like at work i tell my

> friend , who is my boss... wow my arm is really hurting today.. she

> says oh is it that bad? then oh yeah i have some extra papers for you

> to do today. well anyways im in a better mood today. My prayers are

> with you and thanks again... debbie(

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> > Photo Books. You design it and we'll bind it!

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