frustrated

[Guest guest]

I have been reading the shares and have been a member of this group for a while,

don't share much just mostly read. However this morning I am very frustrated.

How does a person deal with the frustration of knowing what you want, seeing it,

feeling it and then finally achieving it. All to one day be taken away because

someone chose you to have this disease of fibromyalgia, and other diseases. I

was making $30,000 a yr for 5 years, I worked my a.. off to get there only to

have it yanked away from me. I know that I am sitting on a pity pot this

morning, but sometimes it is hard not to. Especially right now, I am living off

of my son's social security that he receives from his dad. I was denied at my

hearing due to a sh.... clinic that I was going to, I shouldn't have said

anything to them but being cut off my meds and being called a drug addict

because they don't know how to code a ua request is unacceptable to me. And

yes, i do have a tendency to go off on authority

figures. I've been there, I know exactly how it all works, you see I worked

for the state of Oregon. The people that work in our government here have got

to be as crooked as a dog's hind legs. I lived ok for two years of being off

work, had insight for some reason to sign up for short/long term disability.

That saved my a.. for two years, I had hoped that I would have been approved by

now. Now, due to no medical coverage, no $, I have developed a few new things.

(went to hospital, they referred me to a neurologist. Right wrist drop, however

I have been told by two people one that used to be a nurse that he should have

put some kind a machine on me to see if I have nerve damage. I noticed when I

take my alprazolam that I am able to use more, I work it every day but by the

end of the day I am hurting so bad that I cry. Sorry, just needed to vent.

Thanks,

happybluerainbow@...

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