Fw: Update from our Helen ...

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From: " Helen Wattier (by way of ilena rose) " <helenmw@...>

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Sent: Saturday, March 02, 2002 5:11 PM

Subject: Update from our Helen ...

> Hi ilena and group,

>

> I have not e-mailed much the past few months and am sorry

> but I have been dealing with some very difficult problems

> not about implants but life.

>

> I saw a Rheumatoid doctor this week, I of course always take

> my 6 pages of history with me so I do not forget. He was

> thorough and nice, suppose to be one of the best in Des

> Moines. He did say I do not have Rheumatoid arthritis and

> that is good, but the swelling I have is due to my immune

> dificiency, actually a part of it. He doubled my celebrex

> for that. He would not listen to anything except joint

> problems. Did ask about bone density, I had had it done in

> his office 4-5 years ago, but never followed up due to

> everything else. He said I had a huge bone loss, took

> another test and was not much worse than the last which was

> good. He gave me a pill to build bones. I mentioned to him

> that this joint pain began when the implants were removed

> and he himself asked me that. But I could see he was not

> going to really go in to that aspect of my problem. When I

> mentioned the cancer and dx of MGUS he named it for me and

> said; " my God what haven't you been through? I am sure after

> I left he sat down and read my records. I am to call him

> Monday and he will go over the blood tests with me.

> I have found it does no good to argue with these doctors,

> and I don't think they do not believe silicone is good for

> you, but when they see us with all of these problems it is

> mind boggling for them and they do not have an answer for us

> anyway. The only answer I have found is to go day by day.

> I also think what is not good for me is; when I go to a

> doctor I do not look that bad with clothes covering me. I

> hurt terribly, but I am not one to limp and moan, I just act

> as if everything is ok. So who am I kidding. He did caution

> me on falling since I have fallen four times this past

> month. He said; " you work in a nursing home and you know

> what can happen. Right!

>

> This was Monday, that night I got terribly ill with aching

> all over my body, fever etc. I had decided to miss a few

> days of antibiodics because of money plus some of the side

> affects I have. I ended up with a terrible case of

> bronchitis could be pneumonia but I began taking my

> antibiodics.

>

> One of my problems is I am here with the dog alone right

> now. My husband is in treatment for an owi. It really is

> more like a jail, he is so misplaced and so sad and worried

> about me. I talk to him each day, he finally found a job but

> he has always made anywhere from $30,00-80,000 and he now

> makes $7 an hour. All of this goes to the place he is at

> which our taxes pay for, it is all so much bull(sorry) I am

> sad and angry and depressed today.

>

> He gets to come home tonight for 24 hours. After being alone

> for all of the holidays etc. it is going to be different. I

> know I need to go to someone because I am so depressed and

> angry, but that takes energy and money. I neither.

>

> Sorry for going on and on.

>

> What I want from all of you is to please pray for my

> granddaughter who had cancer and has been off treatment for

> 9 months and is feeling a lump in the same arm. She is 17,

> trying to graduate, never had a date, never worked, endured

> all the things chemo does to one. And now she is also going

> through the change of life at 17 and has to take hormones

> the rest of her life. If this MRI shows something tonight

> her chances are not the best. I have not been able to see

> her except in pictures she tiny and beautiful, my heart is

> breaking. Please pray for her. Her name is .

> Thanks to all of you for being there

>

> Helen

>

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