Guest guest Posted July 14, 2002 Report Share Posted July 14, 2002 Hi Kere: Thanks for your message. This is where I'm struggling now -- I'm a member of AA and they say: " Let go and Let God " -- but it's so difficult to " let go " when you're even THINKING of nada -- who perfected the hoover!! OMG!! It's like trying to ignore the fact that a vacuum cleaner is turned on and making that sucking noise !!!! BOY did she perfect hoovering!!!! I feel like I have to call in the exorcist!! I ALSO feel extremely fortunate to have a CHANCE at life to take a different road than Nada did!! I feel like there's a " classic " novel about to be written involving all the members of this group -- with symbolic twists of fate, and heorines and the whole works!! I feel dizzy with the thoughts and feelings and images coming forth from my soul and the souls of the rest of this group!! I feel like a classic is being born!! Like another " big boom " is about to happen! We're all being reborn!! This is a wonderful miracle for all of us! Barb > > Nada had hurt my feelings so bad, and batted me down so many times, > > that by the time I was around 13 years old I couldn't stand to hear > > her voice!! > > > > At one point, when I was around 14 or 15 years old, Nada started > > reading my books that I had taken out of the library. Sometimes > > (JUST as I was leaving the house to go to a friend's house) she > would > > ask me if I wanted to talk about a certain book! > > > > What a wonderful thing it might have been to talk to my own mother > > about a book!! > > > > But by that time she had poisioned me so badly against her, like I > > said I couldn't stand the sight of her. > > > > Now -- well -- as everyone says " everything's about Nada " -- > > > > so, it never happened again -- she never even cared beyond a few > > minutes of my life -- what my opinion was about a book or anything > > else for that matter. > > > > How very, very sad!! I just hate the whole thing! It's so > painful!! > > > > I just love my son so much! > > > > Does she have ANY idea what she's missing? > > > > When she sees a movie about a wonderful mother/daughter > relationship, > > does she feel sad? > > > > Her constant verbal abuse and " nutty act " keep chasing me away -- > > chasing even the THOUGHT of her away!! > > > > Argh!! > > > > Barb Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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