Change...kind of long (sorry)

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Recently, I posted a question regarding changing beliefs that are actually core

beliefs (as opposed to limiting beliefs). It occured to me today that these

actually comprise your self-concept. In googling this topic, little helpful

information resulted. However, looking at myself and over the span of my years,

there has never been a positive self-concept. While in reality, it is just me

being overly critical. I am a mother of three under five. Am I a good mother?

I guess so, but I don't think I am the best mother. I am disconnected. Playing

with the kids isn't something of which I readily or happily partake. Hand me a

book and I can read to them all day. Let them react to some tidbit of science

that I have spouted off and we are up and running, but this doesn't fulfill the

need that they have to play and be close to me. As a result, I eat. I feel

like I am cheating myself and my kids and the best way to deal with it is to

swallow it. The thing is, like Eldred, I don't know if I WANT to change. I

feel like I want to go back to who I was many years ago, but that took

discipline and time that I no longer have. There are SOOOOO many things that I

need to change that I just would rather hide than face them. This is not a new

rant from me from this group. I guess I just don't know how to get the answers

I need. Sorry to those of you that are sick of the same slant from me. I

appreciate you let me write through this.

T