Post-Marathon blues?

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Hello,

It's possible I have post-marathon blue, but I'm not sure.. I know I did

after my half.. but the marathon was a different beast to me. It was done

for a different reason (to raise money to find a cure for blood cancers)..

So the goal always felt a little detached from who I am as a person.. I

did it to honour the Hell my friend and her family went through in 2010. A

half-marathon would not have honoured that.

I have this deep sense that I don't measure up. I am intelligent yet I'm

lower level job. I am strong yet injured and fat. I know a lot about

food, yet am fat.

We're struggling for money. My dog needs a $5000 surgery and we can't

afford it. I need a new (to me) car.. again, no money.

The company I work for has endless possibilities.. if you have a degree..

This is the first time I have ever been held back because I don't have a

degree, but it's also a company with benefits you just don't find anymore.

Other people get degrees at night, etc.. but I seem to lack something to

get 'er done.

I'm feeling less than..

Also allergy season for me.. sinus issues, which make me feel like I have

been crying.. also not able to sleep..

Blah.

I usually don't do much to acknowledge that deep feeling I have.. but

it's always there and I guess this week it's at the surface.

Don't feel like running.. or anything that brings me joy right now.. sick

of being injured.. but not sure how to find the strength and flexibility

balance I lack.

(A ray of sunshine am I, eh?)

Corinna