Cravings

[Guest guest]

I recently put on a few pounds because I've been eating junk like there's

no tomorrow. Why? I had this allergic reaction to something--I'm not

sure what, because I've since eaten everything I ate before i reacted,

without having a problem... maybe it was a combination of factors?

Anyway, whatever I ingested made me feel like I'd taken antibiotics. I

itched all over, had some patches of rash/red skin, had trouble breathing

and was just miserable. So I went on benadryl, prescription prednisone

cream for the rash and used my asthma inhaler for the breathing... and

just ate because I was miserable and couldn't breathe (if I get winded

walking up 1/2 a flight of stairs, I can't de-stress in the normal way by

walking a couple miles either.)

It's abating slowly (I'm not audibly gasping or exhibiting a rash but I

itch and still am not breathing completely 100% yet) but I'm strangely

okay with having been emotionally eating for several days and some weight

gain... I did cope with a pretty frightening experience. I know I won't

keep eating like this, and I know the weight will come off so I'm okay. I

don't even feel like I need to forgive myself--I see what I did as self

care in probably not the best way, but it was....

I was listening to a teleseminar podcast yesterday and was struck by this

clearing on a woman with weight issues who felt like she was punishing

herself with eating too much (sound familiar, anyone?) I've been doing it

as it really " zinged " true for me. Please clear on this if it is true for

you too... " What contribution is punishing me and my body, to my life, my

living, and my reality? Everything that brings up, please destroy and

uncreate it... "

Have a nice Labor Day weekend.

Sue

[Guest guest]

> I was listening to a teleseminar podcast yesterday and was struck by this

> clearing on a woman with weight issues who felt like she was punishing

> herself with eating too much (sound familiar, anyone?)  I've been doing it

> as it really " zinged " true for me.  Please clear on this if it is true for

> you too... " What contribution is punishing me and my body, to my life, my

> living, and my reality?  Everything that brings up, please destroy and

> uncreate it... "

>

I'm not sure I understand the question. I don't see my behavior as

'punishing' myself, but I still can't figure out the reason for it.

Eldred

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Life isn't a tennis match, where one person must lose in order for

another to win...  There's more than enough success to go around!