Guest guest Posted September 29, 2011 Report Share Posted September 29, 2011 First of all--congratulations! You've had some amazing accomplishments over the past year. Secondly--hope you're feeling better. (From the original causes, as well as moving back to self-correcting.) You know, the thought of eating just plain frosting took me waaaay back. I used to do that all the time--out of the container, if we had store-bought frosting around. Out of the bowl, if I was making it. (Funny, it took such a loooooooooooong time to make. I always had to taste it, then add a little more sugar. Then a little more milk. Then taste again. Then.....) Hmmm. Let's not forget eating it off the cake--sneaking into the kitchen, swiping some off, trying to redistribute the rest so it wasn't too obvious.... Really disgusting, when I think back on it. I don't understand how my parents didn't catch on. Or if they did, why they didn't say anything??? I mean, really. Eeeew. The point of all that? Eating frosting immediately conjures up for me an image of childhood. Of something I *enjoyed* in childhood. How are you feeling these days, finishing up one degree, and moving on to the next? On into yet another stage of adulthood? , Who has an Olympic gold medal in jumping to conclusions.... >________________________________ > >To: insideoutweightloss >Sent: Wednesday, September 28, 2011 9:54 PM >Subject: Been a While > > >Â >Hey, > >I've been away for a while, finishing up my dissertation and then got to go home for a bit before starting my PhD. > >Things have been good. Over the past year I've lost about 20 lbs. I still want to lose another 30 or so, but I'm pleased with my progress and increasingly with how I look. > >Today though, I wasn't feeling very well - physically and emotionally - and I ate some chocolate frosting. Not even cake or something, just the damn frosting. While I was eating it, it was making me feel sick, but I couldn't stop. And it was just such a stupid thing to gorge on. > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 29, 2011 Report Share Posted September 29, 2011 It's been a while from me too! Happy Jewish New Year to all! I have been doing well. . working on listening to hunger and fullness and also have been keeping my journal with me at night to remind me that writing IS an option! I have been working with a nutritionist and have also started taking anti-depressants, which have helped. Makes it easier to disobey binge thoughts. with love, Avie > ** > > > First of all--congratulations! You've had some amazing accomplishments over > the past year. > > Secondly--hope you're feeling better. (From the original causes, as well as > moving back to self-correcting.) > > You know, the thought of eating just plain frosting took me waaaay back. I > used to do that all the time--out of the container, if we had store-bought > frosting around. Out of the bowl, if I was making it. (Funny, it took such a > loooooooooooong time to make. I always had to taste it, then add a little > more sugar. Then a little more milk. Then taste again. Then.....) Hmmm. > Let's not forget eating it off the cake--sneaking into the kitchen, swiping > some off, trying to redistribute the rest so it wasn't too obvious.... > Really disgusting, when I think back on it. I don't understand how my > parents didn't catch on. Or if they did, why they didn't say anything??? I > mean, really. Eeeew. > > The point of all that? Eating frosting immediately conjures up for me an > image of childhood. Of something I *enjoyed* in childhood. > > How are you feeling these days, finishing up one degree, and moving on to > the next? On into yet another stage of adulthood? > > , > Who has an Olympic gold medal in jumping to conclusions.... > > >________________________________ > > > >To: insideoutweightloss > >Sent: Wednesday, September 28, 2011 9:54 PM > >Subject: Been a While > > > > > > > > >Hey, > > > >I've been away for a while, finishing up my dissertation and then got to > go home for a bit before starting my PhD. > > > >Things have been good. Over the past year I've lost about 20 lbs. I still > want to lose another 30 or so, but I'm pleased with my progress and > increasingly with how I look. > > > >Today though, I wasn't feeling very well - physically and emotionally - > and I ate some chocolate frosting. Not even cake or something, just the damn > frosting. While I was eating it, it was making me feel sick, but I couldn't > stop. And it was just such a stupid thing to gorge on. > > > > > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 29, 2011 Report Share Posted September 29, 2011 Glad to hear from you Avie and that you are doing well. Take care, Livingston ________________________________ To: insideoutweightloss Sent: Thursday, September 29, 2011 3:26 PM Subject: Re: Been a While It's been a while from me too! Happy Jewish New Year to all! I have been doing well. . working on listening to hunger and fullness and also have been keeping my journal with me at night to remind me that writing IS an option! I have been working with a nutritionist and have also started taking anti-depressants, which have helped. Makes it easier to disobey binge thoughts. with love, Avie > ** > > > First of all--congratulations! You've had some amazing accomplishments over > the past year. > > Secondly--hope you're feeling better. (From the original causes, as well as > moving back to self-correcting.) > > You know, the thought of eating just plain frosting took me waaaay back. I > used to do that all the time--out of the container, if we had store-bought > frosting around. Out of the bowl, if I was making it. (Funny, it took such a > loooooooooooong time to make. I always had to taste it, then add a little > more sugar. Then a little more milk. Then taste again. Then.....) Hmmm. > Let's not forget eating it off the cake--sneaking into the kitchen, swiping > some off, trying to redistribute the rest so it wasn't too obvious.... > Really disgusting, when I think back on it. I don't understand how my > parents didn't catch on. Or if they did, why they didn't say anything??? I > mean, really. Eeeew. > > The point of all that? Eating frosting immediately conjures up for me an > image of childhood. Of something I *enjoyed* in childhood. > > How are you feeling these days, finishing up one degree, and moving on to > the next? On into yet another stage of adulthood? > > , > Who has an Olympic gold medal in jumping to conclusions.... > > >________________________________ > > > >To: insideoutweightloss > >Sent: Wednesday, September 28, 2011 9:54 PM > >Subject: Been a While > > > > > > > > >Hey, > > > >I've been away for a while, finishing up my dissertation and then got to > go home for a bit before starting my PhD. > > > >Things have been good. Over the past year I've lost about 20 lbs. I still > want to lose another 30 or so, but I'm pleased with my progress and > increasingly with how I look. > > > >Today though, I wasn't feeling very well - physically and emotionally - > and I ate some chocolate frosting. Not even cake or something, just the damn > frosting. While I was eating it, it was making me feel sick, but I couldn't > stop. And it was just such a stupid thing to gorge on. > > > > > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 30, 2011 Report Share Posted September 30, 2011 Thank you . When I feel like it's slow going I keep trying to remind myself that I've done a lot this year - both for my health and my education and I should try to stay focused on those things. I have managed to self correct fairly well. Overwhelmingly, I've been eating quite healthfully. I do have an unfortunate habit though, when I'm doing well, of berating myself for not having been doing this all along. I just keep thinking 'imagine if you'd been doing this for a whole year, or a the past 5 or 10 years - imagine how much better off you'd be now.' Which of course is not a productive way to think. Your thoughts on connecting the frosting to childhood and possible anxiety over moving on to a new stage of adulthood are quite interesting. I've got to admit, I've been missing home and my mother quite a lot in the past week. And I certainly tend to use food for comfort. I'd say your observation was pretty spot on. ________________________________ To: " insideoutweightloss " <insideoutweightloss > Sent: Thursday, September 29, 2011 4:02 PM Subject: Re: Been a While  First of all--congratulations! You've had some amazing accomplishments over the past year. Secondly--hope you're feeling better. (From the original causes, as well as moving back to self-correcting.) You know, the thought of eating just plain frosting took me waaaay back. I used to do that all the time--out of the container, if we had store-bought frosting around. Out of the bowl, if I was making it. (Funny, it took such a loooooooooooong time to make. I always had to taste it, then add a little more sugar. Then a little more milk. Then taste again. Then.....) Hmmm. Let's not forget eating it off the cake--sneaking into the kitchen, swiping some off, trying to redistribute the rest so it wasn't too obvious.... Really disgusting, when I think back on it. I don't understand how my parents didn't catch on. Or if they did, why they didn't say anything??? I mean, really. Eeeew. The point of all that? Eating frosting immediately conjures up for me an image of childhood. Of something I *enjoyed* in childhood. How are you feeling these days, finishing up one degree, and moving on to the next? On into yet another stage of adulthood? , Who has an Olympic gold medal in jumping to conclusions.... >________________________________ > >To: insideoutweightloss >Sent: Wednesday, September 28, 2011 9:54 PM >Subject: Been a While > > > >Hey, > >I've been away for a while, finishing up my dissertation and then got to go home for a bit before starting my PhD. > >Things have been good. Over the past year I've lost about 20 lbs. I still want to lose another 30 or so, but I'm pleased with my progress and increasingly with how I look. > >Today though, I wasn't feeling very well - physically and emotionally - and I ate some chocolate frosting. Not even cake or something, just the damn frosting. While I was eating it, it was making me feel sick, but I couldn't stop. And it was just such a stupid thing to gorge on. > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 30, 2011 Report Share Posted September 30, 2011 the moment i say im doing well, i get major urges to binge. i am happy to say that i did NOT binge tonight and, i am grateful for first lines of defense. avie On Fri, Sep 30, 2011 at 10:18 AM, Soliman < sarahsimone_soliman@...> wrote: > ** > > > Thank you . When I feel like it's slow going I keep trying to remind > myself that I've done a lot this year - both for my health and my education > and I should try to stay focused on those things. > > I have managed to self correct fairly well. Overwhelmingly, I've been > eating quite healthfully. I do have an unfortunate habit though, when I'm > doing well, of berating myself for not having been doing this all along. I > just keep thinking 'imagine if you'd been doing this for a whole year, or a > the past 5 or 10 years - imagine how much better off you'd be now.' Which of > course is not a productive way to think. > > Your thoughts on connecting the frosting to childhood and possible anxiety > over moving on to a new stage of adulthood are quite interesting. I've got > to admit, I've been missing home and my mother quite a lot in the past week. > And I certainly tend to use food for comfort. I'd say your observation was > pretty spot on. > > ________________________________ > > To: " insideoutweightloss " < > insideoutweightloss > > Sent: Thursday, September 29, 2011 4:02 PM > Subject: Re: Been a While > > > First of all--congratulations! You've had some amazing accomplishments over > the past year. > > Secondly--hope you're feeling better. (From the original causes, as well as > moving back to self-correcting.) > > You know, the thought of eating just plain frosting took me waaaay back. I > used to do that all the time--out of the container, if we had store-bought > frosting around. Out of the bowl, if I was making it. (Funny, it took such a > loooooooooooong time to make. I always had to taste it, then add a little > more sugar. Then a little more milk. Then taste again. Then.....) Hmmm. > Let's not forget eating it off the cake--sneaking into the kitchen, swiping > some off, trying to redistribute the rest so it wasn't too obvious.... > Really disgusting, when I think back on it. I don't understand how my > parents didn't catch on. Or if they did, why they didn't say anything??? I > mean, really. Eeeew. > > The point of all that? Eating frosting immediately conjures up for me an > image of childhood. Of something I *enjoyed* in childhood. > > How are you feeling these days, finishing up one degree, and moving on to > the next? On into yet another stage of adulthood? > > , > Who has an Olympic gold medal in jumping to conclusions.... > > >________________________________ > > > >To: insideoutweightloss > >Sent: Wednesday, September 28, 2011 9:54 PM > >Subject: Been a While > > > > > > > >Hey, > > > >I've been away for a while, finishing up my dissertation and then got to > go home for a bit before starting my PhD. > > > >Things have been good. Over the past year I've lost about 20 lbs. I still > want to lose another 30 or so, but I'm pleased with my progress and > increasingly with how I look. > > > >Today though, I wasn't feeling very well - physically and emotionally - > and I ate some chocolate frosting. Not even cake or something, just the damn > frosting. While I was eating it, it was making me feel sick, but I couldn't > stop. And it was just such a stupid thing to gorge on. > > > > > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted September 30, 2011 Report Share Posted September 30, 2011 Go you! So impressive. You've got to right that in you success journal. I bought dome lollies the other day and had some, decided they didn't actually taste that nice and threw them away. Yeah! Now if I could just do that with the kids brownies!. Been a While > > > > > > > >Hey, > > > >I've been away for a while, finishing up my dissertation and then got to > go home for a bit before starting my PhD. > > > >Things have been good. Over the past year I've lost about 20 lbs. I still > want to lose another 30 or so, but I'm pleased with my progress and > increasingly with how I look. > > > >Today though, I wasn't feeling very well - physically and emotionally - > and I ate some chocolate frosting. Not even cake or something, just the damn > frosting. While I was eating it, it was making me feel sick, but I couldn't > stop. And it was just such a stupid thing to gorge on. > > > > > > > > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted October 1, 2011 Report Share Posted October 1, 2011 , glad I might have been able to help point you in the right direction. I find that as soon as I can identify one of those buried triggers, it's easier to actually address it. (Actually, half the time just naming it is enough to drive away the urge to eat.) Avie, so glad to hear you're taking care of yourself!!! >________________________________ > >To: insideoutweightloss >Sent: Saturday, October 1, 2011 6:34 AM >Subject: Re: Been a While > >the moment i say im doing well, i get major urges to binge. i am happy to >say that i did NOT binge tonight and, i am grateful for first lines of >defense. > >avie > >On Fri, Sep 30, 2011 at 10:18 AM, Soliman < >sarahsimone_soliman@...> wrote: > >> ** >> >> Your thoughts on connecting the frosting to childhood and possible anxiety >> over moving on to a new stage of adulthood are quite interesting. I've got >> to admit, I've been missing home and my mother quite a lot in the past week. >> And I certainly tend to use food for comfort. I'd say your observation was >> pretty spot on. >> > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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