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To: " insideoutweightloss " <insideoutweightloss >

Sent: Tuesday, September 27, 2011 2:55 PM

Subject: Question

My name is , I've been with the group for awhile. My intention is to

share my story and invite feedback and evolution to myself and those who read.

My intention is to bring ease and joy to my fast weightloss journey and bring

fullness to the rest of my life. 

I'm confused. I'm going through the 's manual tracking my three year weight

loss journey.

When I started, I weighed 158 lbs. I ate compulsively, binged, and didn't

exercise regularly, and ate processed foods frequently including drive through.

Internally, I was a bitch to myself. 

Then, in the summers, I've lost 11 lbs. each summer down to 147, then gained

them back quickly. Maybe this is the point of clearing I need to work on.   At

one point 3 years ago, I weighed 132 and look fantastic, but didn't see myself

properly because I wanted to weight 128. And I was still a bitch to myself. 

So now

 I have completed my 200 hr. yoga certification, I practice qui gong, tai chi,

and kung fe 3-4 times a week, run and walk regularly. I meditate 3 days a week,

and eat mostly organic foods. I feel better than I ever have, and daily I deepen

my sense of self-appreciation and love. I live in a community dedicated to

growth and we practice our craft of clearing techniques daily and have a very

strong supportive community. I feel very frustrated. I had a a one-on-one

session with . I feel close to my inward goals and it's just frustrating to

see that my weight has barley changed, though my body has made a lot of

progress; i'm more flexible, more energetic, better concentration, and in

general kinder to myself. I don't remember the last time I had a major blow out,

and when I did, I self-corrected in about a week, which the self-correcting is

continuing to become easier. Now, I flux between 158- 160. I have an immediate

adverse reaction to the numbers

on the scale, I feel hopeless, frustrated and confused. So there is that to

clear.  Yet when I look in the mirror and see pictures of myself I look

beautiful. Sexy, I might even say! 

 Can you see anything I'm over-looking? How is this even possible that I have

gained more weight? I know that inside out weight loss the key. What am I

missing? Support? Feedback? Sharing your story? Help. 

Yesterday, I was re-reading my intentions for my journey and noticed I talked a

lot about " I'll do what it takes " and they all sounded very hard. I reworked my

intention to this;

I now make it my intent to experience ease and joy in my weight-loss journey as

I experience fullness in the rest of my life. I make it my intent for my

weight-loss to be fun and easy with the least amount of hardships. I now find

joy and happiness in the process of my weight-loss and being naturally slender

beginning now and continuing always. I make it my intent for the journey to be

as easy and simple as breathing. 

Maybe changing my intention will help the weight slide right off. 

Love you all