Guest guest Posted June 3, 2011 Report Share Posted June 3, 2011 UGH! i binged again last night.. big time.. from about 9:30 to 11 at NIGHT (great idea, right?!) i wish it was a dream, but it wasnt. i went about ten days (or more) without a binge, but i was counting calories the whole time.. i guess a binge is what i get for thinking that i was doing something " good " . i am so angry because i feel like all the physical progress i made has been reversed. i'm upset and feel lost and angry. thanks for reading. i hate everything right now. Avie -- Avie Linden University of Michigan - Anthropology Program in the Environment, History of Art Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 3, 2011 Report Share Posted June 3, 2011 In tha same zone, Avie. ((HUGS)). You are not alone. I enjoyed 3 weeks of loss (not necessarily binge-free, but controlled and resulted in loss). Felt sooooo good. Then, started bingeing last week and haven't stopped. Feel disgusting and disgusted. I almost think that feeling full leads to hate and the more I hate, the more I eat. Now to break the cycle...but when? Try to love yourself anyway. T Sent on the Sprint® Now Network from my BlackBerry® IOWL UGH! i binged again last night.. big time.. from about 9:30 to 11 at NIGHT (great idea, right?!) i wish it was a dream, but it wasnt. i went about ten days (or more) without a binge, but i was counting calories the whole time.. i guess a binge is what i get for thinking that i was doing something " good " . i am so angry because i feel like all the physical progress i made has been reversed. i'm upset and feel lost and angry. thanks for reading. i hate everything right now. Avie -- Avie Linden University of Michigan - Anthropology Program in the Environment, History of Art Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 3, 2011 Report Share Posted June 3, 2011 This happens to me a lot. I binge and then hate and feel disgusted with myself. This is why I joined the IOWL group and listen to 's podcast. I'm trying to let go of the self-hate. We were not born feeling this way about ourselves. It's something we learned and now need to un-learn. I think when we truly care about and nurture ourselves then a healthier lifestyle follows. When someone we love complains about themselves we love and nurture them and point out all their good qualities. Why wouldn't we do the same with the person we spend the most time with - ourself? Sorry about the rambling, but it's something I'm trying to comprehend at this time. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 3, 2011 Report Share Posted June 3, 2011 Loving myself is not something that comes naturally. I do find that I am making a more conscious effort now to shut up the nasty little voices that want to make me feel bad. This morning as I was walking down a hallway I saw a reflection of myself in the window. The first thought that came to my head? " Good lord these pants make my ass look HUGE!! " And you know what? I told myself to shut the hell up. I look fine. And my top is really cute. It was really difficult to do. And I actually had to do the mental equivalent of sticking my fingers in my ears and going " Lalalalalala I'm not listening!! " when the voice tried to argue back. I was considering doing it for real but people might have started to wonder. A'mee On Fri, Jun 3, 2011 at 7:17 AM, wrote: > > > Please, ramble away. You really struck a chord within me. There is no > reason > to not love ourselves. > > I guess that could be stated in the positive, too; there are countless > reasons to love ourselves. > > That's something I'm still trying to do, and I look forward to the day when > it comes naturally. > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 3, 2011 Report Share Posted June 3, 2011 Hello darling, Have you done ho'oponopono? It is a Hawaiian self-forgiveness technique. Have you found the positive intention for binging? What can you do today to self-correct with love? O Namaste, Sent from my iPhone > > This happens to me a lot. I binge and then hate and feel disgusted with myself. This is why I joined the IOWL group and listen to 's podcast. I'm trying to let go of the self-hate. We were not born feeling this way about ourselves. It's something we learned and now need to un-learn. I think when we truly care about and nurture ourselves then a healthier lifestyle follows. When someone we love complains about themselves we love and nurture them and point out all their good qualities. Why wouldn't we do the same with the person we spend the most time with - ourself? > > Sorry about the rambling, but it's something I'm trying to comprehend at this time. > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 3, 2011 Report Share Posted June 3, 2011 I just started a book that promises to be very good. It came recommended to me by my counselor. It is about recognizing those parts of ourselves that are sad, forgotten, attention getting, childish, ect... that often push our compulsions forward, and giving them compassionate attention. Much of what I am reading reminds me of and her approach. The book is called " Self Therapy " by Jay Earley Jen ________________________________ To: insideoutweightloss Sent: Fri, June 3, 2011 8:17:38 AM Subject: Re: IOWL  Please, ramble away. You really struck a chord within me. There is no reason to not love ourselves. I guess that could be stated in the positive, too; there are countless reasons to love ourselves. That's something I'm still trying to do, and I look forward to the day when it comes naturally. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 3, 2011 Report Share Posted June 3, 2011 ahh bingeing again by 11:15AM! not eating now.. this, too, shall pass.. just hope everyone i see doesnt pick up on what's going on inside my head.. thanks, Avie > > > Thanks for this title. Will check it out. > Sent on the Sprint® Now Network from my BlackBerry® > > Re: IOWL > > > Please, ramble away. You really struck a chord within me. There is no > reason > to not love ourselves. > > I guess that could be stated in the positive, too; there are countless > reasons to love ourselves. > > That's something I'm still trying to do, and I look forward to the day when > > it comes naturally. > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 3, 2011 Report Share Posted June 3, 2011 I don't think they will, Avie. It's do easy to get paranoid about that sort of thing though- I do it countless times a day. Wish I knew of a surefire way to soothe that anxiety. We are all here for you, just remember that. > ahh bingeing again by 11:15AM! not eating now.. this, too, shall pass.. > just hope everyone i see doesnt pick up on what's going on inside my head.. > > thanks, > Avie > > > >> >> >> Thanks for this title. Will check it out. >> Sent on the Sprint® Now Network from my BlackBerry® >> >> Re: IOWL >> >> >> Please, ramble away. You really struck a chord within me. There is no >> reason >> to not love ourselves. >> >> I guess that could be stated in the positive, too; there are countless >> reasons to love ourselves. >> >> That's something I'm still trying to do, and I look forward to the day when >> >> it comes naturally. >> >> >> >> Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 4, 2011 Report Share Posted June 4, 2011 Congratulations, A'mee. It's a really big first step--being able to recognize that negative self talk and replace it with something positive. Can I suggest a second step? Instead of telling that negative part of you to shut the hell up--instead of refusing to listen--sometimes it's worth taking a moment to see what that part of you is *really* trying to say. Assume there's a positive intent. Assume that this negative voice is not really trying to make you feel horrible about yourself. Maybe it's trying to protect you? Keep you from being laughed at, keep *other* people from making comments? Maybe there's a feeling of unworthiness underlying it--that you don't deserve to wear something that might catch someone's eye? Maybe there's a wish to help you improve--If it points out flaws, you can work to fix them? Podcast 4 might be a good place to start.... ________________________________ To: insideoutweightloss Sent: Fri, June 3, 2011 6:08:33 PM Subject: Re: Re: IOWL Loving myself is not something that comes naturally. I do find that I am making a more conscious effort now to shut up the nasty little voices that want to make me feel bad. This morning as I was walking down a hallway I saw a reflection of myself in the window. The first thought that came to my head? " Good lord these pants make my ass look HUGE!! " And you know what? I told myself to shut the hell up. I look fine. And my top is really cute. It was really difficult to do. And I actually had to do the mental equivalent of sticking my fingers in my ears and going " Lalalalalala I'm not listening!! " when the voice tried to argue back. I was considering doing it for real but people might have started to wonder. A'mee On Fri, Jun 3, 2011 at 7:17 AM, wrote: > > > Please, ramble away. You really struck a chord within me. There is no > reason > to not love ourselves. > > I guess that could be stated in the positive, too; there are countless > reasons to love ourselves. > > That's something I'm still trying to do, and I look forward to the day when > it comes naturally. > > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 20, 2011 Report Share Posted June 20, 2011 Hmm... I will have to check that out! > > I just started a book that promises to be very good. It came recommended to me > by my counselor. It is about recognizing those parts of ourselves that are sad, > forgotten, attention getting, childish, ect... that often push our compulsions > forward, and giving them compassionate attention. Much of what I am reading > reminds me of and her approach. > > The book is called " Self Therapy " by Jay Earley > > Jen > > > > > ________________________________ > > To: insideoutweightloss > Sent: Fri, June 3, 2011 8:17:38 AM > Subject: Re: IOWL > >  > Please, ramble away. You really struck a chord within me. There is no reason > to not love ourselves. > > I guess that could be stated in the positive, too; there are countless > reasons to love ourselves. > > That's something I'm still trying to do, and I look forward to the day when > it comes naturally. > > > > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted June 20, 2011 Report Share Posted June 20, 2011 Awesome I will have to check that out. I am just finishing a wonderful book called " Nourishing Wisdom " by Marc . Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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