Re: A New Away From Motivation

[Guest guest]

The loss of a job is stressful, especially in today's economy. Good for

you for not letting it completely bowl you over. It sounds like you're

handling it pretty well. Good luck to you and your husband!

And good job setting a new away/toward motivation. May I make one small

suggestion? You left a " not " in your toward motivation. How about:

I want to be able to walk through an airport comfortably and easily.

Hang in there, and I hope things get easier for you!

> **

>

>

> I've realized that I get stuck in my routine and don't realize what the

> lack of movement and the overeating does to me. I make small adjustments

> here and there.... I take breaks more when doing things around the house.

> I take elevators more often. I park a little closer at the grocery store.

> I don't need to walk much at my office. I take the elevator. I hadn't

> realized how out of shape I had gotten. Until yesterday. Walking through

> the airport. By the time I got from the shuttle, through security, to the

> gate, I was out of breath and sweating. And it wasn't that far! But

> lugging by suitcases.... even with rollers.... just killed me. Same thing

> when I got to my destination. Walked from the gate to the car rental

> desk. I think they thought I was going to drop of a heartache. I was a

> mess.

>

> The good news is, I fit in the seat comfortably. When I was at my

> heaviest, it wasn't very comfortable. I was squished in the seat. But

> when I was at my smallest... even a year ago, I could walk through the

> airport without breathing heard!!!

>

> Today I went to the office I'm working with this week. I was out of breath

> walking from one end to the other. And I was faced with stairs. I

> couldn't very well say " I don't do stairs " . So I did and tried not to show

> how hard I was breathing when we got to the top.

>

> So, today I resolved.... I am determined..... to stop this from happening!

> Add this to my Away From: Stop getting out of breath so quickly. Add this

> to my Toward Motivation: I want to be able to walk through an airport and

> not feel like dying when I'm done. I want to be able to walk up two

> flights of stairs without breaking a sweat. (three would be nice, but let's

> not push it).

>

> So, I'm feeling like crap.... I'm embarrassed..... and really fed up with

> myself. But determined to get better. Good right? My husband called. He

> just got laid off. I'm away from home..... so many questions.... so many

> " what ifs " ..... so many unkowns..... and I'm not there. That would usually

> send me to the nearest grocery store and load up on junk food and binge

> until I got sick. Well, I did go to a grocery store. God put the salad

> bar in my path. It looked good. So, I got a salad. (I also got some

> chocolate... oh well). And I forgot a fork, so I'm eating the salad with

> my fingers. Which actually works pretty well. I'm dipping the pieces in

> the dressing. I really don't want the chocolate. I had one piece and it

> didn't taste good. The salad is good!

>

> And 's job situation isn't as bad as it sounds..... just a bit of a

> shock. He had a work comp injury.... shoulder.... about a year ago. It's

> determined that it will never completely heal. He works in a

> warehouse. But his work didn't talk about that. They just made it sound

> like they were letting him go because he couldn't do the job! So, we have

> to talk to his case worker to find out about a settlement. I'm not sure

> how all that works. Out health insurance is with his work, so I have to

> talk to my HR about getting us on my plan (it costs more). This is the

> absolute wrong time for me to be traveling on business!! I can't take care

> of my personal business when I'm in meetings all day!!!

>

> So, all in all, it's been a pretty sucky day. Thanks for letting me vent.

>

> Patti

>

>

[Guest guest]

Oh, Patti! What a terrible day! You did take good care of yourself, food-wise,

though, so celebrate that small victory. Since you can't really do anything

about your situation, just sit and plan out as much as you can. You'll be ready

to get right to it when you get home.

Sending good vibes your way,

Marcia

________________________________

To: insideoutweightloss

Sent: Tuesday, January 10, 2012 7:43 PM

Subject: A New " Away From " Motivation

 

I've realized that I get stuck in my routine and don't realize what the

lack of movement and the overeating does to me. I make small adjustments

here and there.... I take breaks more when doing things around the house.

I take elevators more often. I park a little closer at the grocery store.

I don't need to walk much at my office. I take the elevator. I hadn't

realized how out of shape I had gotten. Until yesterday. Walking through

the airport. By the time I got from the shuttle, through security, to the

gate, I was out of breath and sweating. And it wasn't that far! But

lugging by suitcases.... even with rollers.... just killed me. Same thing

when I got to my destination. Walked from the gate to the car rental

desk. I think they thought I was going to drop of a heartache. I was a

mess.

The good news is, I fit in the seat comfortably. When I was at my

heaviest, it wasn't very comfortable. I was squished in the seat. But

when I was at my smallest... even a year ago, I could walk through the

airport without breathing heard!!!

Today I went to the office I'm working with this week. I was out of breath

walking from one end to the other. And I was faced with stairs. I

couldn't very well say " I don't do stairs " . So I did and tried not to show

how hard I was breathing when we got to the top.

So, today I resolved.... I am determined..... to stop this from happening!

Add this to my Away From: Stop getting out of breath so quickly. Add this

to my Toward Motivation: I want to be able to walk through an airport and

not feel like dying when I'm done. I want to be able to walk up two

flights of stairs without breaking a sweat. (three would be nice, but let's

not push it).

So, I'm feeling like crap.... I'm embarrassed..... and really fed up with

myself. But determined to get better. Good right? My husband called. He

just got laid off. I'm away from home..... so many questions.... so many

" what ifs " ..... so many unkowns..... and I'm not there. That would usually

send me to the nearest grocery store and load up on junk food and binge

until I got sick. Well, I did go to a grocery store. God put the salad

bar in my path. It looked good. So, I got a salad. (I also got some

chocolate... oh well). And I forgot a fork, so I'm eating the salad with

my fingers. Which actually works pretty well. I'm dipping the pieces in

the dressing. I really don't want the chocolate. I had one piece and it

didn't taste good. The salad is good!

And 's job situation isn't as bad as it sounds..... just a bit of a

shock. He had a work comp injury.... shoulder.... about a year ago. It's

determined that it will never completely heal. He works in a

warehouse. But his work didn't talk about that. They just made it sound

like they were letting him go because he couldn't do the job! So, we have

to talk to his case worker to find out about a settlement. I'm not sure

how all that works. Out health insurance is with his work, so I have to

talk to my HR about getting us on my plan (it costs more). This is the

absolute wrong time for me to be traveling on business!! I can't take care

of my personal business when I'm in meetings all day!!!

So, all in all, it's been a pretty sucky day. Thanks for letting me vent.

Patti

[Guest guest]

Wow,a horrible day to be sure, but there were successes in the midst. I know

what it feels like to go from total resolve to eating half a bag of chocolate

morsels in under 3 hours. A little stress can change your direction fast. I'm

beginning to learn to step away from the problem, but trade exercise, or a

meditation exercise, or sometimes just checking in to make sure that I'm

breathing deeply enough instead of going to the the food cabinet. You could

walk to the grocery store instead of driving, and take the moment to prequel the

food buying and consider other ways to quiet the anxiety that has built up. But

honestly, it sounds like you handled this situation well. The problems will

someday just be a bump in the road, make sure that your health is not left

behind as well. May your settlement be large!

Psawyer

Patti L wrote:

>I've realized that I get stuck in my routine and don't realize what the

>lack of movement and the overeating does to me. I make small adjustments

>here and there.... I take breaks more when doing things around the house.

>I take elevators more often. I park a little closer at the grocery store.

>I don't need to walk much at my office. I take the elevator. I hadn't

>realized how out of shape I had gotten. Until yesterday. Walking through

>the airport. By the time I got from the shuttle, through security, to the

>gate, I was out of breath and sweating. And it wasn't that far! But

>lugging by suitcases.... even with rollers.... just killed me. Same thing

>when I got to my destination. Walked from the gate to the car rental

>desk. I think they thought I was going to drop of a heartache. I was a

>mess.

>

>The good news is, I fit in the seat comfortably. When I was at my

>heaviest, it wasn't very comfortable. I was squished in the seat. But

>when I was at my smallest... even a year ago, I could walk through the

>airport without breathing heard!!!

>

>Today I went to the office I'm working with this week. I was out of breath

>walking from one end to the other. And I was faced with stairs. I

>couldn't very well say " I don't do stairs " . So I did and tried not to show

>how hard I was breathing when we got to the top.

>

>So, today I resolved.... I am determined..... to stop this from happening!

>Add this to my Away From: Stop getting out of breath so quickly. Add this

>to my Toward Motivation: I want to be able to walk through an airport and

>not feel like dying when I'm done. I want to be able to walk up two

>flights of stairs without breaking a sweat. (three would be nice, but let's

>not push it).

>

>So, I'm feeling like crap.... I'm embarrassed..... and really fed up with

>myself. But determined to get better. Good right? My husband called. He

>just got laid off. I'm away from home..... so many questions.... so many

> " what ifs " ..... so many unkowns..... and I'm not there. That would usually

>send me to the nearest grocery store and load up on junk food and binge

>until I got sick. Well, I did go to a grocery store. God put the salad

>bar in my path. It looked good. So, I got a salad. (I also got some

>chocolate... oh well). And I forgot a fork, so I'm eating the salad with

>my fingers. Which actually works pretty well. I'm dipping the pieces in

>the dressing. I really don't want the chocolate. I had one piece and it

>didn't taste good. The salad is good!

>

>And 's job situation isn't as bad as it sounds..... just a bit of a

>shock. He had a work comp injury.... shoulder.... about a year ago. It's

>determined that it will never completely heal. He works in a

>warehouse. But his work didn't talk about that. They just made it sound

>like they were letting him go because he couldn't do the job! So, we have

>to talk to his case worker to find out about a settlement. I'm not sure

>how all that works. Out health insurance is with his work, so I have to

>talk to my HR about getting us on my plan (it costs more). This is the

>absolute wrong time for me to be traveling on business!! I can't take care

>of my personal business when I'm in meetings all day!!!

>

>So, all in all, it's been a pretty sucky day. Thanks for letting me vent.

>

>Patti

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

The panic hit in the middle of the night. The main worry is short term

financially. It hit me like a rock. Major panic attack. I got up several

times in the night and ate the chocolate and wheat thins. Eating during

the night is a huge issue for me. You notice I can't stay at hotel without

some kind of food on hand. I panic if I don't have food nearby.

Anyway, add some major stress and anxiety, and I'm a major mess. I feel

like crawling back in bed and pulling the covers over my head. But I

can't. I have to go into this office and put on a face and act confident,

competent, and strong. The exact opposite of how I'm feeling.

I need help.

Patti

> **

>

>

> Wow,a horrible day to be sure, but there were successes in the midst. I

> know what it feels like to go from total resolve to eating half a bag of

> chocolate morsels in under 3 hours. A little stress can change your

> direction fast. I'm beginning to learn to step away from the problem, but

> trade exercise, or a meditation exercise, or sometimes just checking in to

> make sure that I'm breathing deeply enough instead of going to the the food

> cabinet. You could walk to the grocery store instead of driving, and take

> the moment to prequel the food buying and consider other ways to quiet the

> anxiety that has built up. But honestly, it sounds like you handled this

> situation well. The problems will someday just be a bump in the road, make

> sure that your health is not left behind as well. May your settlement be

> large!

> Psawyer

>

> Patti L wrote:

>

> >I've realized that I get stuck in my routine and don't realize what the

> >lack of movement and the overeating does to me. I make small adjustments

> >here and there.... I take breaks more when doing things around the house.

> >I take elevators more often. I park a little closer at the grocery store.

> >I don't need to walk much at my office. I take the elevator. I hadn't

> >realized how out of shape I had gotten. Until yesterday. Walking through

> >the airport. By the time I got from the shuttle, through security, to the

> >gate, I was out of breath and sweating. And it wasn't that far! But

> >lugging by suitcases.... even with rollers.... just killed me. Same thing

> >when I got to my destination. Walked from the gate to the car rental

> >desk. I think they thought I was going to drop of a heartache. I was a

> >mess.

> >

> >The good news is, I fit in the seat comfortably. When I was at my

> >heaviest, it wasn't very comfortable. I was squished in the seat. But

> >when I was at my smallest... even a year ago, I could walk through the

> >airport without breathing heard!!!

> >

> >Today I went to the office I'm working with this week. I was out of breath

> >walking from one end to the other. And I was faced with stairs. I

> >couldn't very well say " I don't do stairs " . So I did and tried not to show

> >how hard I was breathing when we got to the top.

> >

> >So, today I resolved.... I am determined..... to stop this from happening!

> >Add this to my Away From: Stop getting out of breath so quickly. Add this

> >to my Toward Motivation: I want to be able to walk through an airport and

> >not feel like dying when I'm done. I want to be able to walk up two

> >flights of stairs without breaking a sweat. (three would be nice, but

> let's

> >not push it).

> >

> >So, I'm feeling like crap.... I'm embarrassed..... and really fed up with

> >myself. But determined to get better. Good right? My husband called. He

> >just got laid off. I'm away from home..... so many questions.... so many

> > " what ifs " ..... so many unkowns..... and I'm not there. That would usually

> >send me to the nearest grocery store and load up on junk food and binge

> >until I got sick. Well, I did go to a grocery store. God put the salad

> >bar in my path. It looked good. So, I got a salad. (I also got some

> >chocolate... oh well). And I forgot a fork, so I'm eating the salad with

> >my fingers. Which actually works pretty well. I'm dipping the pieces in

> >the dressing. I really don't want the chocolate. I had one piece and it

> >didn't taste good. The salad is good!

> >

> >And 's job situation isn't as bad as it sounds..... just a bit of a

> >shock. He had a work comp injury.... shoulder.... about a year ago. It's

> >determined that it will never completely heal. He works in a

> >warehouse. But his work didn't talk about that. They just made it sound

> >like they were letting him go because he couldn't do the job! So, we have

> >to talk to his case worker to find out about a settlement. I'm not sure

> >how all that works. Out health insurance is with his work, so I have to

> >talk to my HR about getting us on my plan (it costs more). This is the

> >absolute wrong time for me to be traveling on business!! I can't take care

> >of my personal business when I'm in meetings all day!!!

> >

> >So, all in all, it's been a pretty sucky day. Thanks for letting me vent.

> >

> >Patti

> >

> >

> >

[Guest guest]

Patti -

You are not alone. This group is all here for you and wishes the best for you.

Maybe you can do some EFT tapping to release this understandable stress... " Even

tho I am unsure of our financial future, I still love and accept myself " . Or,

" Even tho I eat during the night, I still love and accept myself " .

Hope you have a better day today.

b.

> >

> > >I've realized that I get stuck in my routine and don't realize what the

> > >lack of movement and the overeating does to me. I make small adjustments

> > >here and there.... I take breaks more when doing things around the house.

> > >I take elevators more often. I park a little closer at the grocery store.

> > >I don't need to walk much at my office. I take the elevator. I hadn't

> > >realized how out of shape I had gotten. Until yesterday. Walking through

> > >the airport. By the time I got from the shuttle, through security, to the

> > >gate, I was out of breath and sweating. And it wasn't that far! But

> > >lugging by suitcases.... even with rollers.... just killed me. Same thing

> > >when I got to my destination. Walked from the gate to the car rental

> > >desk. I think they thought I was going to drop of a heartache. I was a

> > >mess.

> > >

> > >The good news is, I fit in the seat comfortably. When I was at my

> > >heaviest, it wasn't very comfortable. I was squished in the seat. But

> > >when I was at my smallest... even a year ago, I could walk through the

> > >airport without breathing heard!!!

> > >

> > >Today I went to the office I'm working with this week. I was out of breath

> > >walking from one end to the other. And I was faced with stairs. I

> > >couldn't very well say " I don't do stairs " . So I did and tried not to show

> > >how hard I was breathing when we got to the top.

> > >

> > >So, today I resolved.... I am determined..... to stop this from happening!

> > >Add this to my Away From: Stop getting out of breath so quickly. Add this

> > >to my Toward Motivation: I want to be able to walk through an airport and

> > >not feel like dying when I'm done. I want to be able to walk up two

> > >flights of stairs without breaking a sweat. (three would be nice, but

> > let's

> > >not push it).

> > >

> > >So, I'm feeling like crap.... I'm embarrassed..... and really fed up with

> > >myself. But determined to get better. Good right? My husband called. He

> > >just got laid off. I'm away from home..... so many questions.... so many

> > > " what ifs " ..... so many unkowns..... and I'm not there. That would usually

> > >send me to the nearest grocery store and load up on junk food and binge

> > >until I got sick. Well, I did go to a grocery store. God put the salad

> > >bar in my path. It looked good. So, I got a salad. (I also got some

> > >chocolate... oh well). And I forgot a fork, so I'm eating the salad with

> > >my fingers. Which actually works pretty well. I'm dipping the pieces in

> > >the dressing. I really don't want the chocolate. I had one piece and it

> > >didn't taste good. The salad is good!

> > >

> > >And 's job situation isn't as bad as it sounds..... just a bit of a

> > >shock. He had a work comp injury.... shoulder.... about a year ago. It's

> > >determined that it will never completely heal. He works in a

> > >warehouse. But his work didn't talk about that. They just made it sound

> > >like they were letting him go because he couldn't do the job! So, we have

> > >to talk to his case worker to find out about a settlement. I'm not sure

> > >how all that works. Out health insurance is with his work, so I have to

> > >talk to my HR about getting us on my plan (it costs more). This is the

> > >absolute wrong time for me to be traveling on business!! I can't take care

> > >of my personal business when I'm in meetings all day!!!

> > >

> > >So, all in all, it's been a pretty sucky day. Thanks for letting me vent.

> > >

> > >Patti

> > >

> > >

> > >

[Guest guest]

Hang in there Patti, there are a lot of us thinking of you and sending you

positives. Saying a prayer for you for strength, clarity and whatever blessings

you need. Take GOOD care of yourself, you are worth it.

 

Carlton Larsen, Ba, Bgp

Freelance Musician

426 Pinehouse Drive

Saskatoon Sk

S7K4X5

________________________________

To: " insideoutweightloss " <insideoutweightloss >

Sent: Tuesday, January 10, 2012 7:01:54 PM

Subject: Re: A New " Away From " Motivation

 

Oh, Patti! What a terrible day! You did take good care of yourself, food-wise,

though, so celebrate that small victory. Since you can't really do anything

about your situation, just sit and plan out as much as you can. You'll be ready

to get right to it when you get home.

Sending good vibes your way,

Marcia

________________________________

To: insideoutweightloss

Sent: Tuesday, January 10, 2012 7:43 PM

Subject: A New " Away From " Motivation

 

I've realized that I get stuck in my routine and don't realize what the

lack of movement and the overeating does to me. I make small adjustments

here and there.... I take breaks more when doing things around the house.

I take elevators more often. I park a little closer at the grocery store.

I don't need to walk much at my office. I take the elevator. I hadn't

realized how out of shape I had gotten. Until yesterday. Walking through

the airport. By the time I got from the shuttle, through security, to the

gate, I was out of breath and sweating. And it wasn't that far! But

lugging by suitcases.... even with rollers.... just killed me. Same thing

when I got to my destination. Walked from the gate to the car rental

desk. I think they thought I was going to drop of a heartache. I was a

mess.

The good news is, I fit in the seat comfortably. When I was at my

heaviest, it wasn't very comfortable. I was squished in the seat. But

when I was at my smallest... even a year ago, I could walk through the

airport without breathing heard!!!

Today I went to the office I'm working with this week. I was out of breath

walking from one end to the other. And I was faced with stairs. I

couldn't very well say " I don't do stairs " . So I did and tried not to show

how hard I was breathing when we got to the top.

So, today I resolved.... I am determined..... to stop this from happening!

Add this to my Away From: Stop getting out of breath so quickly. Add this

to my Toward Motivation: I want to be able to walk through an airport and

not feel like dying when I'm done. I want to be able to walk up two

flights of stairs without breaking a sweat. (three would be nice, but let's

not push it).

So, I'm feeling like crap.... I'm embarrassed..... and really fed up with

myself. But determined to get better. Good right? My husband called. He

just got laid off. I'm away from home..... so many questions.... so many

" what ifs " ..... so many unkowns..... and I'm not there. That would usually

send me to the nearest grocery store and load up on junk food and binge

until I got sick. Well, I did go to a grocery store. God put the salad

bar in my path. It looked good. So, I got a salad. (I also got some

chocolate... oh well). And I forgot a fork, so I'm eating the salad with

my fingers. Which actually works pretty well. I'm dipping the pieces in

the dressing. I really don't want the chocolate. I had one piece and it

didn't taste good. The salad is good!

And 's job situation isn't as bad as it sounds..... just a bit of a

shock. He had a work comp injury.... shoulder.... about a year ago. It's

determined that it will never completely heal. He works in a

warehouse. But his work didn't talk about that. They just made it sound

like they were letting him go because he couldn't do the job! So, we have

to talk to his case worker to find out about a settlement. I'm not sure

how all that works. Out health insurance is with his work, so I have to

talk to my HR about getting us on my plan (it costs more). This is the

absolute wrong time for me to be traveling on business!! I can't take care

of my personal business when I'm in meetings all day!!!

So, all in all, it's been a pretty sucky day. Thanks for letting me vent.

Patti

[Guest guest]

Just take one little thing at a time. One foot in front of the other until you

can get to a place where you can actually DO something. I know how you are

feeling--been there, done that. And, when things pile up, try to take a few deep

breaths. Tell your self that at this second you are OK--you have a place to

sleep, food to eat and clothes to wear--and that you will find the resources to

solve your problems, but for now, you need to just do your job. Even if you

don't believe it--say this to yourself to prevent your subconscious from making

you panic. Tigers are not chasing you--you have problems that can be solved.

Even if you don't believe this at this time, keep saying it to keep yourself as

calm as possible.

I also panic if I don't know that there is food available. I tend to get

hypoglycemic, so I have food everywhere--in my purse, car, briefcase.

Unfortunately, I tend to eat it for other reasons, too.In your emergency

situation, you don't need to worry as much about the eating thing. I say, get

something for lunch, dinner, or even a snack that you REALLY LOVE and eat it

slowly, savoring every bite. You will send some calming, pleasure chemicals

through your system that will give you a break from your stress. It won't solve

anything, but it will give you a little respite. I sometimes find that after I

do this, or some other pleasurable thing like yoga, dancing, etc., I can think

more clearly and solve some problems.

I will keep you in my thoughts today--may the force be with you!

Marcia

________________________________

To: insideoutweightloss

Sent: Wednesday, January 11, 2012 7:07 AM

Subject: Re: A New " Away From " Motivation

The panic hit in the middle of the night.  The main worry is short term

financially.  It hit me like a rock.  Major panic attack.  I got up several

times in the night and ate the chocolate and wheat thins.  Eating during

the night is a huge issue for me.  You notice I can't stay at hotel without

some kind of food on hand.  I panic if I don't have food nearby.

Anyway, add some major stress and anxiety, and I'm a major mess.  I feel

like crawling back in bed and pulling the covers over my head.  But I

can't.  I have to go into this office and put on a face and act confident,

competent, and strong.  The exact opposite of how I'm feeling.

I need help.

Patti

> **

>

>

> Wow,a horrible day to be sure, but there were successes in the midst. I

> know what it feels like to go from total resolve to eating half a bag of

> chocolate morsels in under 3 hours. A little stress can change your

> direction fast. I'm beginning to learn to step away from the problem, but

> trade exercise, or a meditation exercise, or sometimes just checking in to

> make sure that I'm breathing deeply enough instead of going to the the food

> cabinet. You could walk to the grocery store instead of driving, and take

> the moment to prequel the food buying and consider other ways to quiet the

> anxiety that has built up. But honestly, it sounds like you handled this

> situation well. The problems will someday just be a bump in the road, make

> sure that your health is not left behind as well. May your settlement be

> large!

> Psawyer

>

> Patti L wrote:

>

> >I've realized that I get stuck in my routine and don't realize what the

> >lack of movement and the overeating does to me. I make small adjustments

> >here and there.... I take breaks more when doing things around the house.

> >I take elevators more often. I park a little closer at the grocery store.

> >I don't need to walk much at my office. I take the elevator. I hadn't

> >realized how out of shape I had gotten. Until yesterday. Walking through

> >the airport. By the time I got from the shuttle, through security, to the

> >gate, I was out of breath and sweating. And it wasn't that far! But

> >lugging by suitcases.... even with rollers.... just killed me. Same thing

> >when I got to my destination. Walked from the gate to the car rental

> >desk. I think they thought I was going to drop of a heartache. I was a

> >mess.

> >

> >The good news is, I fit in the seat comfortably. When I was at my

> >heaviest, it wasn't very comfortable. I was squished in the seat. But

> >when I was at my smallest... even a year ago, I could walk through the

> >airport without breathing heard!!!

> >

> >Today I went to the office I'm working with this week. I was out of breath

> >walking from one end to the other. And I was faced with stairs. I

> >couldn't very well say " I don't do stairs " . So I did and tried not to show

> >how hard I was breathing when we got to the top.

> >

> >So, today I resolved.... I am determined..... to stop this from happening!

> >Add this to my Away From: Stop getting out of breath so quickly. Add this

> >to my Toward Motivation: I want to be able to walk through an airport and

> >not feel like dying when I'm done. I want to be able to walk up two

> >flights of stairs without breaking a sweat. (three would be nice, but

> let's

> >not push it).

> >

> >So, I'm feeling like crap.... I'm embarrassed..... and really fed up with

> >myself. But determined to get better. Good right? My husband called. He

> >just got laid off. I'm away from home..... so many questions.... so many

> > " what ifs " ..... so many unkowns..... and I'm not there. That would usually

> >send me to the nearest grocery store and load up on junk food and binge

> >until I got sick. Well, I did go to a grocery store. God put the salad

> >bar in my path. It looked good. So, I got a salad. (I also got some

> >chocolate... oh well). And I forgot a fork, so I'm eating the salad with

> >my fingers. Which actually works pretty well. I'm dipping the pieces in

> >the dressing. I really don't want the chocolate. I had one piece and it

> >didn't taste good. The salad is good!

> >

> >And 's job situation isn't as bad as it sounds..... just a bit of a

> >shock. He had a work comp injury.... shoulder.... about a year ago. It's

> >determined that it will never completely heal. He works in a

> >warehouse. But his work didn't talk about that. They just made it sound

> >like they were letting him go because he couldn't do the job! So, we have

> >to talk to his case worker to find out about a settlement. I'm not sure

> >how all that works. Out health insurance is with his work, so I have to

> >talk to my HR about getting us on my plan (it costs more). This is the

> >absolute wrong time for me to be traveling on business!! I can't take care

> >of my personal business when I'm in meetings all day!!!

> >

> >So, all in all, it's been a pretty sucky day. Thanks for letting me vent.

> >

> >Patti

> >

> >

> >

[Guest guest]

Good morning Patti! You sure are going through a lot. Be kind to

yourself and STAY IN THE NOW!! Whenever thoughts of the future come

up, cancel/delete!! Remember, they are only thoughts. You can change

your thoughts.

When I get overwhelmed, I try to focus solely on what I can do in this

moment. EFT is SUPER helpful for these kind of situations. Tap, tap,

tap until you are calm. " Even though I am feeling completely stressed

out, I choose to feel, calm, confident and strong! "

Many soothing hugs to you!

> The panic hit in the middle of the night. The main worry is short

> term

> financially. It hit me like a rock. Major panic attack. I got up

> several

> times in the night and ate the chocolate and wheat thins. Eating

> during

> the night is a huge issue for me. You notice I can't stay at hotel

> without

> some kind of food on hand. I panic if I don't have food nearby.

>

> Anyway, add some major stress and anxiety, and I'm a major mess. I

> feel

> like crawling back in bed and pulling the covers over my head. But I

> can't. I have to go into this office and put on a face and act

> confident,

> competent, and strong. The exact opposite of how I'm feeling.

>

> I need help.

>

> Patti

> On Jan 10, 2012 10:51 PM, " a Sawyer "

> wrote:

>

>> **

>>

>>

>> Wow,a horrible day to be sure, but there were successes in the

>> midst. I

>> know what it feels like to go from total resolve to eating half a

>> bag of

>> chocolate morsels in under 3 hours. A little stress can change your

>> direction fast. I'm beginning to learn to step away from the

>> problem, but

>> trade exercise, or a meditation exercise, or sometimes just

>> checking in to

>> make sure that I'm breathing deeply enough instead of going to the

>> the food

>> cabinet. You could walk to the grocery store instead of driving,

>> and take

>> the moment to prequel the food buying and consider other ways to

>> quiet the

>> anxiety that has built up. But honestly, it sounds like you handled

>> this

>> situation well. The problems will someday just be a bump in the

>> road, make

>> sure that your health is not left behind as well. May your

>> settlement be

>> large!

>> Psawyer

>>

>> Patti L wrote:

>>

>>> I've realized that I get stuck in my routine and don't realize

>>> what the

>>> lack of movement and the overeating does to me. I make small

>>> adjustments

>>> here and there.... I take breaks more when doing things around the

>>> house.

>>> I take elevators more often. I park a little closer at the grocery

>>> store.

>>> I don't need to walk much at my office. I take the elevator. I

>>> hadn't

>>> realized how out of shape I had gotten. Until yesterday. Walking

>>> through

>>> the airport. By the time I got from the shuttle, through security,

>>> to the

>>> gate, I was out of breath and sweating. And it wasn't that far! But

>>> lugging by suitcases.... even with rollers.... just killed me.

>>> Same thing

>>> when I got to my destination. Walked from the gate to the car rental

>>> desk. I think they thought I was going to drop of a heartache. I

>>> was a

>>> mess.

>>>

>>> The good news is, I fit in the seat comfortably. When I was at my

>>> heaviest, it wasn't very comfortable. I was squished in the seat.

>>> But

>>> when I was at my smallest... even a year ago, I could walk through

>>> the

>>> airport without breathing heard!!!

>>>

>>> Today I went to the office I'm working with this week. I was out

>>> of breath

>>> walking from one end to the other. And I was faced with stairs. I

>>> couldn't very well say " I don't do stairs " . So I did and tried not

>>> to show

>>> how hard I was breathing when we got to the top.

>>>

>>> So, today I resolved.... I am determined..... to stop this from

>>> happening!

>>> Add this to my Away From: Stop getting out of breath so quickly.

>>> Add this

>>> to my Toward Motivation: I want to be able to walk through an

>>> airport and

>>> not feel like dying when I'm done. I want to be able to walk up two

>>> flights of stairs without breaking a sweat. (three would be nice,

>>> but

>> let's

>>> not push it).

>>>

>>> So, I'm feeling like crap.... I'm embarrassed..... and really fed

>>> up with

>>> myself. But determined to get better. Good right? My husband

>>> called. He

>>> just got laid off. I'm away from home..... so many questions....

>>> so many

>>> " what ifs " ..... so many unkowns..... and I'm not there. That would

>>> usually

>>> send me to the nearest grocery store and load up on junk food and

>>> binge

>>> until I got sick. Well, I did go to a grocery store. God put the

>>> salad

>>> bar in my path. It looked good. So, I got a salad. (I also got some

>>> chocolate... oh well). And I forgot a fork, so I'm eating the

>>> salad with

>>> my fingers. Which actually works pretty well. I'm dipping the

>>> pieces in

>>> the dressing. I really don't want the chocolate. I had one piece

>>> and it

>>> didn't taste good. The salad is good!

>>>

>>> And 's job situation isn't as bad as it sounds..... just a bit

>>> of a

>>> shock. He had a work comp injury.... shoulder.... about a year

>>> ago. It's

>>> determined that it will never completely heal. He works in a

>>> warehouse. But his work didn't talk about that. They just made it

>>> sound

>>> like they were letting him go because he couldn't do the job! So,

>>> we have

>>> to talk to his case worker to find out about a settlement. I'm not

>>> sure

>>> how all that works. Out health insurance is with his work, so I

>>> have to

>>> talk to my HR about getting us on my plan (it costs more). This is

>>> the

>>> absolute wrong time for me to be traveling on business!! I can't

>>> take care

>>> of my personal business when I'm in meetings all day!!!

>>>

>>> So, all in all, it's been a pretty sucky day. Thanks for letting

>>> me vent.

>>>

>>> Patti

>>>

>>>

>>>

[Guest guest]

Don't judge yourself for how you dealt with your fear in the middle of the

night, Patti. Of course you're scared, and it's made worse by the fact that you

are away from home and cannot give or get comfort from your husband, who is

probably also worried and sad.

Get through this business trip any way you can until you get home. I might

suggest that you write about your feelings. The answer (or some relief) may come

to you if you just let it all out. You might find that the exercise helped

purged a little of the fear. If you're a fast typist do it in an online doc, so

your fingers can keep up with your thoughts. Don't correct typos--just get it

all out there. Then re-read it and think about it. You're both alive, you're

both healthy ... now start to make a gratitude list. Think of all the good in

your life, no matter how small.

When one door closes another one opens. Sometimes one that leads to something

better.

x Chloe

________________________________

To: insideoutweightloss

Sent: Wednesday, January 11, 2012 7:07 AM

Subject: Re: A New " Away From " Motivation

The panic hit in the middle of the night.  The main worry is short term

financially.  It hit me like a rock.  Major panic attack.  I got up several

times in the night and ate the chocolate and wheat thins.  Eating during

the night is a huge issue for me.  You notice I can't stay at hotel without

some kind of food on hand.  I panic if I don't have food nearby.

Anyway, add some major stress and anxiety, and I'm a major mess.  I feel

like crawling back in bed and pulling the covers over my head.  But I

can't.  I have to go into this office and put on a face and act confident,

competent, and strong.  The exact opposite of how I'm feeling.

I need help.

Patti

> **

>

>

> Wow,a horrible day to be sure, but there were successes in the midst. I

> know what it feels like to go from total resolve to eating half a bag of

> chocolate morsels in under 3 hours. A little stress can change your

> direction fast. I'm beginning to learn to step away from the problem, but

> trade exercise, or a meditation exercise, or sometimes just checking in to

> make sure that I'm breathing deeply enough instead of going to the the food

> cabinet. You could walk to the grocery store instead of driving, and take

> the moment to prequel the food buying and consider other ways to quiet the

> anxiety that has built up. But honestly, it sounds like you handled this

> situation well. The problems will someday just be a bump in the road, make

> sure that your health is not left behind as well. May your settlement be

> large!

> Psawyer

>

> Patti L wrote:

>

> >I've realized that I get stuck in my routine and don't realize what the

> >lack of movement and the overeating does to me. I make small adjustments

> >here and there.... I take breaks more when doing things around the house.

> >I take elevators more often. I park a little closer at the grocery store.

> >I don't need to walk much at my office. I take the elevator. I hadn't

> >realized how out of shape I had gotten. Until yesterday. Walking through

> >the airport. By the time I got from the shuttle, through security, to the

> >gate, I was out of breath and sweating. And it wasn't that far! But

> >lugging by suitcases.... even with rollers.... just killed me. Same thing

> >when I got to my destination. Walked from the gate to the car rental

> >desk. I think they thought I was going to drop of a heartache. I was a

> >mess.

> >

> >The good news is, I fit in the seat comfortably. When I was at my

> >heaviest, it wasn't very comfortable. I was squished in the seat. But

> >when I was at my smallest... even a year ago, I could walk through the

> >airport without breathing heard!!!

> >

> >Today I went to the office I'm working with this week. I was out of breath

> >walking from one end to the other. And I was faced with stairs. I

> >couldn't very well say " I don't do stairs " . So I did and tried not to show

> >how hard I was breathing when we got to the top.

> >

> >So, today I resolved.... I am determined..... to stop this from happening!

> >Add this to my Away From: Stop getting out of breath so quickly. Add this

> >to my Toward Motivation: I want to be able to walk through an airport and

> >not feel like dying when I'm done. I want to be able to walk up two

> >flights of stairs without breaking a sweat. (three would be nice, but

> let's

> >not push it).

> >

> >So, I'm feeling like crap.... I'm embarrassed..... and really fed up with

> >myself. But determined to get better. Good right? My husband called. He

> >just got laid off. I'm away from home..... so many questions.... so many

> > " what ifs " ..... so many unkowns..... and I'm not there. That would usually

> >send me to the nearest grocery store and load up on junk food and binge

> >until I got sick. Well, I did go to a grocery store. God put the salad

> >bar in my path. It looked good. So, I got a salad. (I also got some

> >chocolate... oh well). And I forgot a fork, so I'm eating the salad with

> >my fingers. Which actually works pretty well. I'm dipping the pieces in

> >the dressing. I really don't want the chocolate. I had one piece and it

> >didn't taste good. The salad is good!

> >

> >And 's job situation isn't as bad as it sounds..... just a bit of a

> >shock. He had a work comp injury.... shoulder.... about a year ago. It's

> >determined that it will never completely heal. He works in a

> >warehouse. But his work didn't talk about that. They just made it sound

> >like they were letting him go because he couldn't do the job! So, we have

> >to talk to his case worker to find out about a settlement. I'm not sure

> >how all that works. Out health insurance is with his work, so I have to

> >talk to my HR about getting us on my plan (it costs more). This is the

> >absolute wrong time for me to be traveling on business!! I can't take care

> >of my personal business when I'm in meetings all day!!!

> >

> >So, all in all, it's been a pretty sucky day. Thanks for letting me vent.

> >

> >Patti

> >

> >

> >

[Guest guest]

Thanks. I forgot about EFT. It's funny we forget our tools when we are

stuck in the moment. I'll do that when I find a free minute. Maybe I'll go

to the bathroom.

Patti

> **

>

>

> Good morning Patti! You sure are going through a lot. Be kind to

> yourself and STAY IN THE NOW!! Whenever thoughts of the future come

> up, cancel/delete!! Remember, they are only thoughts. You can change

> your thoughts.

>

> When I get overwhelmed, I try to focus solely on what I can do in this

> moment. EFT is SUPER helpful for these kind of situations. Tap, tap,

> tap until you are calm. " Even though I am feeling completely stressed

> out, I choose to feel, calm, confident and strong! "

>

> Many soothing hugs to you!

>

>

>

>

> > The panic hit in the middle of the night. The main worry is short

> > term

> > financially. It hit me like a rock. Major panic attack. I got up

> > several

> > times in the night and ate the chocolate and wheat thins. Eating

> > during

> > the night is a huge issue for me. You notice I can't stay at hotel

> > without

> > some kind of food on hand. I panic if I don't have food nearby.

> >

> > Anyway, add some major stress and anxiety, and I'm a major mess. I

> > feel

> > like crawling back in bed and pulling the covers over my head. But I

> > can't. I have to go into this office and put on a face and act

> > confident,

> > competent, and strong. The exact opposite of how I'm feeling.

> >

> > I need help.

> >

> > Patti

> > On Jan 10, 2012 10:51 PM, " a Sawyer "

> > wrote:

> >

> >> **

> >>

> >>

> >> Wow,a horrible day to be sure, but there were successes in the

> >> midst. I

> >> know what it feels like to go from total resolve to eating half a

> >> bag of

> >> chocolate morsels in under 3 hours. A little stress can change your

> >> direction fast. I'm beginning to learn to step away from the

> >> problem, but

> >> trade exercise, or a meditation exercise, or sometimes just

> >> checking in to

> >> make sure that I'm breathing deeply enough instead of going to the

> >> the food

> >> cabinet. You could walk to the grocery store instead of driving,

> >> and take

> >> the moment to prequel the food buying and consider other ways to

> >> quiet the

> >> anxiety that has built up. But honestly, it sounds like you handled

> >> this

> >> situation well. The problems will someday just be a bump in the

> >> road, make

> >> sure that your health is not left behind as well. May your

> >> settlement be

> >> large!

> >> Psawyer

> >>

> >> Patti L wrote:

> >>

> >>> I've realized that I get stuck in my routine and don't realize

> >>> what the

> >>> lack of movement and the overeating does to me. I make small

> >>> adjustments

> >>> here and there.... I take breaks more when doing things around the

> >>> house.

> >>> I take elevators more often. I park a little closer at the grocery

> >>> store.

> >>> I don't need to walk much at my office. I take the elevator. I

> >>> hadn't

> >>> realized how out of shape I had gotten. Until yesterday. Walking

> >>> through

> >>> the airport. By the time I got from the shuttle, through security,

> >>> to the

> >>> gate, I was out of breath and sweating. And it wasn't that far! But

> >>> lugging by suitcases.... even with rollers.... just killed me.

> >>> Same thing

> >>> when I got to my destination. Walked from the gate to the car rental

> >>> desk. I think they thought I was going to drop of a heartache. I

> >>> was a

> >>> mess.

> >>>

> >>> The good news is, I fit in the seat comfortably. When I was at my

> >>> heaviest, it wasn't very comfortable. I was squished in the seat.

> >>> But

> >>> when I was at my smallest... even a year ago, I could walk through

> >>> the

> >>> airport without breathing heard!!!

> >>>

> >>> Today I went to the office I'm working with this week. I was out

> >>> of breath

> >>> walking from one end to the other. And I was faced with stairs. I

> >>> couldn't very well say " I don't do stairs " . So I did and tried not

> >>> to show

> >>> how hard I was breathing when we got to the top.

> >>>

> >>> So, today I resolved.... I am determined..... to stop this from

> >>> happening!

> >>> Add this to my Away From: Stop getting out of breath so quickly.

> >>> Add this

> >>> to my Toward Motivation: I want to be able to walk through an

> >>> airport and

> >>> not feel like dying when I'm done. I want to be able to walk up two

> >>> flights of stairs without breaking a sweat. (three would be nice,

> >>> but

> >> let's

> >>> not push it).

> >>>

> >>> So, I'm feeling like crap.... I'm embarrassed..... and really fed

> >>> up with

> >>> myself. But determined to get better. Good right? My husband

> >>> called. He

> >>> just got laid off. I'm away from home..... so many questions....

> >>> so many

> >>> " what ifs " ..... so many unkowns..... and I'm not there. That would

> >>> usually

> >>> send me to the nearest grocery store and load up on junk food and

> >>> binge

> >>> until I got sick. Well, I did go to a grocery store. God put the

> >>> salad

> >>> bar in my path. It looked good. So, I got a salad. (I also got some

> >>> chocolate... oh well). And I forgot a fork, so I'm eating the

> >>> salad with

> >>> my fingers. Which actually works pretty well. I'm dipping the

> >>> pieces in

> >>> the dressing. I really don't want the chocolate. I had one piece

> >>> and it

> >>> didn't taste good. The salad is good!

> >>>

> >>> And 's job situation isn't as bad as it sounds..... just a bit

> >>> of a

> >>> shock. He had a work comp injury.... shoulder.... about a year

> >>> ago. It's

> >>> determined that it will never completely heal. He works in a

> >>> warehouse. But his work didn't talk about that. They just made it

> >>> sound

> >>> like they were letting him go because he couldn't do the job! So,

> >>> we have

> >>> to talk to his case worker to find out about a settlement. I'm not

> >>> sure

> >>> how all that works. Out health insurance is with his work, so I

> >>> have to

> >>> talk to my HR about getting us on my plan (it costs more). This is

> >>> the

> >>> absolute wrong time for me to be traveling on business!! I can't

> >>> take care

> >>> of my personal business when I'm in meetings all day!!!

> >>>

> >>> So, all in all, it's been a pretty sucky day. Thanks for letting

> >>> me vent.

> >>>

> >>> Patti

> >>>

> >>>

> >>>

[Guest guest]

As others said..hang in there. I have a saying posted in my cubicle that I try

to focus on when things feel out of control or I am in pain. " No problem lasts

forever. No matter how permanently fixed in the center of my life it may seem,

whatever I am experiencing in this ever changing life is sure to pass. Even

pain. "

I then change the last 2 words to whatever is going on. Example:....Even

grief.....Even Inventory...Even the loss of my husband's job (yes we went

through that too......Even shame....Even guilt.......Even anxiety...Even

panic... No matter what, it will surely pass because it always has.

Another tool I use when my mind won't shut off and I'm trying to sleep is to do

a gratitude list in my mind via the alphabet. I also put certain restrictions

on it to make it more difficult. The two I like to do the most are " things I

take for granted " and " things that aren't material " .

So for the " take for granted my examples are:

I am grateful for AIR

I am grateful for BREATHING

I am grateful for CHEWING

My favorite one in this list is the letter " G " . I am grateful for GRAVITY.

Imagine what life would be like if there wasn't any gravity. We might weigh

nothing but it sure would make it hard to do anything. Driving would probably

be out of the question and going to the bathroom would be a real catastrophe.

LOL Which brings me to another favorite...I am grateful for LAUGHTER. It's

hard to laugh and feel bad at the same time. :-)

Ford CPhT

340B Coordinator

Mercy St. 's

Pharmacy Services

Springfield, MO.  65804

Ph#

linda.ford@...

" Sometimes God allows us to see the miracle. Sometimes God allows us to BE the

miracle. "

St. 's.... One of the Nation's Top Integrated Health Systems

Re: A New " Away From " Motivation

The panic hit in the middle of the night. The main worry is short term

financially. It hit me like a rock. Major panic attack. I got up several

times in the night and ate the chocolate and wheat thins. Eating during

the night is a huge issue for me. You notice I can't stay at hotel without

some kind of food on hand. I panic if I don't have food nearby.

Anyway, add some major stress and anxiety, and I'm a major mess. I feel

like crawling back in bed and pulling the covers over my head. But I

can't. I have to go into this office and put on a face and act confident,

competent, and strong. The exact opposite of how I'm feeling.

I need help.

Patti

> **

>

>

> Wow,a horrible day to be sure, but there were successes in the midst. I

> know what it feels like to go from total resolve to eating half a bag of

> chocolate morsels in under 3 hours. A little stress can change your

> direction fast. I'm beginning to learn to step away from the problem, but

> trade exercise, or a meditation exercise, or sometimes just checking in to

> make sure that I'm breathing deeply enough instead of going to the the food

> cabinet. You could walk to the grocery store instead of driving, and take

> the moment to prequel the food buying and consider other ways to quiet the

> anxiety that has built up. But honestly, it sounds like you handled this

> situation well. The problems will someday just be a bump in the road, make

> sure that your health is not left behind as well. May your settlement be

> large!

> Psawyer

>

> Patti L wrote:

>

> >I've realized that I get stuck in my routine and don't realize what the

> >lack of movement and the overeating does to me. I make small adjustments

> >here and there.... I take breaks more when doing things around the house.

> >I take elevators more often. I park a little closer at the grocery store.

> >I don't need to walk much at my office. I take the elevator. I hadn't

> >realized how out of shape I had gotten. Until yesterday. Walking through

> >the airport. By the time I got from the shuttle, through security, to the

> >gate, I was out of breath and sweating. And it wasn't that far! But

> >lugging by suitcases.... even with rollers.... just killed me. Same thing

> >when I got to my destination. Walked from the gate to the car rental

> >desk. I think they thought I was going to drop of a heartache. I was a

> >mess.

> >

> >The good news is, I fit in the seat comfortably. When I was at my

> >heaviest, it wasn't very comfortable. I was squished in the seat. But

> >when I was at my smallest... even a year ago, I could walk through the

> >airport without breathing heard!!!

> >

> >Today I went to the office I'm working with this week. I was out of breath

> >walking from one end to the other. And I was faced with stairs. I

> >couldn't very well say " I don't do stairs " . So I did and tried not to show

> >how hard I was breathing when we got to the top.

> >

> >So, today I resolved.... I am determined..... to stop this from happening!

> >Add this to my Away From: Stop getting out of breath so quickly. Add this

> >to my Toward Motivation: I want to be able to walk through an airport and

> >not feel like dying when I'm done. I want to be able to walk up two

> >flights of stairs without breaking a sweat. (three would be nice, but

> let's

> >not push it).

> >

> >So, I'm feeling like crap.... I'm embarrassed..... and really fed up with

> >myself. But determined to get better. Good right? My husband called. He

> >just got laid off. I'm away from home..... so many questions.... so many

> > " what ifs " ..... so many unkowns..... and I'm not there. That would usually

> >send me to the nearest grocery store and load up on junk food and binge

> >until I got sick. Well, I did go to a grocery store. God put the salad

> >bar in my path. It looked good. So, I got a salad. (I also got some

> >chocolate... oh well). And I forgot a fork, so I'm eating the salad with

> >my fingers. Which actually works pretty well. I'm dipping the pieces in

> >the dressing. I really don't want the chocolate. I had one piece and it

> >didn't taste good. The salad is good!

> >

> >And 's job situation isn't as bad as it sounds..... just a bit of a

> >shock. He had a work comp injury.... shoulder.... about a year ago. It's

> >determined that it will never completely heal. He works in a

> >warehouse. But his work didn't talk about that. They just made it sound

> >like they were letting him go because he couldn't do the job! So, we have

> >to talk to his case worker to find out about a settlement. I'm not sure

> >how all that works. Out health insurance is with his work, so I have to

> >talk to my HR about getting us on my plan (it costs more). This is the

> >absolute wrong time for me to be traveling on business!! I can't take care

> >of my personal business when I'm in meetings all day!!!

> >

> >So, all in all, it's been a pretty sucky day. Thanks for letting me vent.

> >

> >Patti

> >

> >

> >

[Guest guest]

Patti,

My prayers and positive energy goes out to you. It sounds like you have had

many opportunities to make the wrong decision and you have made the right, so

stay in the mindset you have and all will work out!

-h

> Thanks. I forgot about EFT. It's funny we forget our tools when we are

> stuck in the moment. I'll do that when I find a free minute. Maybe I'll go

> to the bathroom.

>

> Patti

>

>

>> **

>>

>>

>> Good morning Patti! You sure are going through a lot. Be kind to

>> yourself and STAY IN THE NOW!! Whenever thoughts of the future come

>> up, cancel/delete!! Remember, they are only thoughts. You can change

>> your thoughts.

>>

>> When I get overwhelmed, I try to focus solely on what I can do in this

>> moment. EFT is SUPER helpful for these kind of situations. Tap, tap,

>> tap until you are calm. " Even though I am feeling completely stressed

>> out, I choose to feel, calm, confident and strong! "

>>

>> Many soothing hugs to you!

>>

>>

>>

>>

>>> The panic hit in the middle of the night. The main worry is short

>>> term

>>> financially. It hit me like a rock. Major panic attack. I got up

>>> several

>>> times in the night and ate the chocolate and wheat thins. Eating

>>> during

>>> the night is a huge issue for me. You notice I can't stay at hotel

>>> without

>>> some kind of food on hand. I panic if I don't have food nearby.

>>>

>>> Anyway, add some major stress and anxiety, and I'm a major mess. I

>>> feel

>>> like crawling back in bed and pulling the covers over my head. But I

>>> can't. I have to go into this office and put on a face and act

>>> confident,

>>> competent, and strong. The exact opposite of how I'm feeling.

>>>

>>> I need help.

>>>

>>> Patti

>>> On Jan 10, 2012 10:51 PM, " a Sawyer "

>>> wrote:

>>>

>>>> **

>>>>

>>>>

>>>> Wow,a horrible day to be sure, but there were successes in the

>>>> midst. I

>>>> know what it feels like to go from total resolve to eating half a

>>>> bag of

>>>> chocolate morsels in under 3 hours. A little stress can change your

>>>> direction fast. I'm beginning to learn to step away from the

>>>> problem, but

>>>> trade exercise, or a meditation exercise, or sometimes just

>>>> checking in to

>>>> make sure that I'm breathing deeply enough instead of going to the

>>>> the food

>>>> cabinet. You could walk to the grocery store instead of driving,

>>>> and take

>>>> the moment to prequel the food buying and consider other ways to

>>>> quiet the

>>>> anxiety that has built up. But honestly, it sounds like you handled

>>>> this

>>>> situation well. The problems will someday just be a bump in the

>>>> road, make

>>>> sure that your health is not left behind as well. May your

>>>> settlement be

>>>> large!

>>>> Psawyer

>>>>

>>>> Patti L wrote:

>>>>

>>>>> I've realized that I get stuck in my routine and don't realize

>>>>> what the

>>>>> lack of movement and the overeating does to me. I make small

>>>>> adjustments

>>>>> here and there.... I take breaks more when doing things around the

>>>>> house.

>>>>> I take elevators more often. I park a little closer at the grocery

>>>>> store.

>>>>> I don't need to walk much at my office. I take the elevator. I

>>>>> hadn't

>>>>> realized how out of shape I had gotten. Until yesterday. Walking

>>>>> through

>>>>> the airport. By the time I got from the shuttle, through security,

>>>>> to the

>>>>> gate, I was out of breath and sweating. And it wasn't that far! But

>>>>> lugging by suitcases.... even with rollers.... just killed me.

>>>>> Same thing

>>>>> when I got to my destination. Walked from the gate to the car rental

>>>>> desk. I think they thought I was going to drop of a heartache. I

>>>>> was a

>>>>> mess.

>>>>>

>>>>> The good news is, I fit in the seat comfortably. When I was at my

>>>>> heaviest, it wasn't very comfortable. I was squished in the seat.

>>>>> But

>>>>> when I was at my smallest... even a year ago, I could walk through

>>>>> the

>>>>> airport without breathing heard!!!

>>>>>

>>>>> Today I went to the office I'm working with this week. I was out

>>>>> of breath

>>>>> walking from one end to the other. And I was faced with stairs. I

>>>>> couldn't very well say " I don't do stairs " . So I did and tried not

>>>>> to show

>>>>> how hard I was breathing when we got to the top.

>>>>>

>>>>> So, today I resolved.... I am determined..... to stop this from

>>>>> happening!

>>>>> Add this to my Away From: Stop getting out of breath so quickly.

>>>>> Add this

>>>>> to my Toward Motivation: I want to be able to walk through an

>>>>> airport and

>>>>> not feel like dying when I'm done. I want to be able to walk up two

>>>>> flights of stairs without breaking a sweat. (three would be nice,

>>>>> but

>>>> let's

>>>>> not push it).

>>>>>

>>>>> So, I'm feeling like crap.... I'm embarrassed..... and really fed

>>>>> up with

>>>>> myself. But determined to get better. Good right? My husband

>>>>> called. He

>>>>> just got laid off. I'm away from home..... so many questions....

>>>>> so many

>>>>> " what ifs " ..... so many unkowns..... and I'm not there. That would

>>>>> usually

>>>>> send me to the nearest grocery store and load up on junk food and

>>>>> binge

>>>>> until I got sick. Well, I did go to a grocery store. God put the

>>>>> salad

>>>>> bar in my path. It looked good. So, I got a salad. (I also got some

>>>>> chocolate... oh well). And I forgot a fork, so I'm eating the

>>>>> salad with

>>>>> my fingers. Which actually works pretty well. I'm dipping the

>>>>> pieces in

>>>>> the dressing. I really don't want the chocolate. I had one piece

>>>>> and it

>>>>> didn't taste good. The salad is good!

>>>>>

>>>>> And 's job situation isn't as bad as it sounds..... just a bit

>>>>> of a

>>>>> shock. He had a work comp injury.... shoulder.... about a year

>>>>> ago. It's

>>>>> determined that it will never completely heal. He works in a

>>>>> warehouse. But his work didn't talk about that. They just made it

>>>>> sound

>>>>> like they were letting him go because he couldn't do the job! So,

>>>>> we have

>>>>> to talk to his case worker to find out about a settlement. I'm not

>>>>> sure

>>>>> how all that works. Out health insurance is with his work, so I

>>>>> have to

>>>>> talk to my HR about getting us on my plan (it costs more). This is

>>>>> the

>>>>> absolute wrong time for me to be traveling on business!! I can't

>>>>> take care

>>>>> of my personal business when I'm in meetings all day!!!

>>>>>

>>>>> So, all in all, it's been a pretty sucky day. Thanks for letting

>>>>> me vent.

>>>>>

>>>>> Patti

>>>>>

>>>>>

>>>>>

[Guest guest]

You've gotten some great wisdom here. I have nothing to add other than I am

rooting for you and I believe in you.

Amelia

On Wed, Jan 11, 2012 at 8:05 AM, h Zahnter wrote:

> **

>

>

> Patti,

> My prayers and positive energy goes out to you. It sounds like you have

> had many opportunities to make the wrong decision and you have made the

> right, so stay in the mindset you have and all will work out!

>

> -h

>

>

> > Thanks. I forgot about EFT. It's funny we forget our tools when we are

> > stuck in the moment. I'll do that when I find a free minute. Maybe I'll

> go

> > to the bathroom.

> >

> > Patti

> >

> >

> >> **

> >>

> >>

> >> Good morning Patti! You sure are going through a lot. Be kind to

> >> yourself and STAY IN THE NOW!! Whenever thoughts of the future come

> >> up, cancel/delete!! Remember, they are only thoughts. You can change

> >> your thoughts.

> >>

> >> When I get overwhelmed, I try to focus solely on what I can do in this

> >> moment. EFT is SUPER helpful for these kind of situations. Tap, tap,

> >> tap until you are calm. " Even though I am feeling completely stressed

> >> out, I choose to feel, calm, confident and strong! "

> >>

> >> Many soothing hugs to you!

> >>

> >>

> >>

> >>

> >>> The panic hit in the middle of the night. The main worry is short

> >>> term

> >>> financially. It hit me like a rock. Major panic attack. I got up

> >>> several

> >>> times in the night and ate the chocolate and wheat thins. Eating

> >>> during

> >>> the night is a huge issue for me. You notice I can't stay at hotel

> >>> without

> >>> some kind of food on hand. I panic if I don't have food nearby.

> >>>

> >>> Anyway, add some major stress and anxiety, and I'm a major mess. I

> >>> feel

> >>> like crawling back in bed and pulling the covers over my head. But I

> >>> can't. I have to go into this office and put on a face and act

> >>> confident,

> >>> competent, and strong. The exact opposite of how I'm feeling.

> >>>

> >>> I need help.

> >>>

> >>> Patti

> >>> On Jan 10, 2012 10:51 PM, " a Sawyer "

> >>> wrote:

> >>>

> >>>> **

> >>>>

> >>>>

> >>>> Wow,a horrible day to be sure, but there were successes in the

> >>>> midst. I

> >>>> know what it feels like to go from total resolve to eating half a

> >>>> bag of

> >>>> chocolate morsels in under 3 hours. A little stress can change your

> >>>> direction fast. I'm beginning to learn to step away from the

> >>>> problem, but

> >>>> trade exercise, or a meditation exercise, or sometimes just

> >>>> checking in to

> >>>> make sure that I'm breathing deeply enough instead of going to the

> >>>> the food

> >>>> cabinet. You could walk to the grocery store instead of driving,

> >>>> and take

> >>>> the moment to prequel the food buying and consider other ways to

> >>>> quiet the

> >>>> anxiety that has built up. But honestly, it sounds like you handled

> >>>> this

> >>>> situation well. The problems will someday just be a bump in the

> >>>> road, make

> >>>> sure that your health is not left behind as well. May your

> >>>> settlement be

> >>>> large!

> >>>> Psawyer

> >>>>

> >>>> Patti L wrote:

> >>>>

> >>>>> I've realized that I get stuck in my routine and don't realize

> >>>>> what the

> >>>>> lack of movement and the overeating does to me. I make small

> >>>>> adjustments

> >>>>> here and there.... I take breaks more when doing things around the

> >>>>> house.

> >>>>> I take elevators more often. I park a little closer at the grocery

> >>>>> store.

> >>>>> I don't need to walk much at my office. I take the elevator. I

> >>>>> hadn't

> >>>>> realized how out of shape I had gotten. Until yesterday. Walking

> >>>>> through

> >>>>> the airport. By the time I got from the shuttle, through security,

> >>>>> to the

> >>>>> gate, I was out of breath and sweating. And it wasn't that far! But

> >>>>> lugging by suitcases.... even with rollers.... just killed me.

> >>>>> Same thing

> >>>>> when I got to my destination. Walked from the gate to the car rental

> >>>>> desk. I think they thought I was going to drop of a heartache. I

> >>>>> was a

> >>>>> mess.

> >>>>>

> >>>>> The good news is, I fit in the seat comfortably. When I was at my

> >>>>> heaviest, it wasn't very comfortable. I was squished in the seat.

> >>>>> But

> >>>>> when I was at my smallest... even a year ago, I could walk through

> >>>>> the

> >>>>> airport without breathing heard!!!

> >>>>>

> >>>>> Today I went to the office I'm working with this week. I was out

> >>>>> of breath

> >>>>> walking from one end to the other. And I was faced with stairs. I

> >>>>> couldn't very well say " I don't do stairs " . So I did and tried not

> >>>>> to show

> >>>>> how hard I was breathing when we got to the top.

> >>>>>

> >>>>> So, today I resolved.... I am determined..... to stop this from

> >>>>> happening!

> >>>>> Add this to my Away From: Stop getting out of breath so quickly.

> >>>>> Add this

> >>>>> to my Toward Motivation: I want to be able to walk through an

> >>>>> airport and

> >>>>> not feel like dying when I'm done. I want to be able to walk up two

> >>>>> flights of stairs without breaking a sweat. (three would be nice,

> >>>>> but

> >>>> let's

> >>>>> not push it).

> >>>>>

> >>>>> So, I'm feeling like crap.... I'm embarrassed..... and really fed

> >>>>> up with

> >>>>> myself. But determined to get better. Good right? My husband

> >>>>> called. He

> >>>>> just got laid off. I'm away from home..... so many questions....

> >>>>> so many

> >>>>> " what ifs " ..... so many unkowns..... and I'm not there. That would

> >>>>> usually

> >>>>> send me to the nearest grocery store and load up on junk food and

> >>>>> binge

> >>>>> until I got sick. Well, I did go to a grocery store. God put the

> >>>>> salad

> >>>>> bar in my path. It looked good. So, I got a salad. (I also got some

> >>>>> chocolate... oh well). And I forgot a fork, so I'm eating the

> >>>>> salad with

> >>>>> my fingers. Which actually works pretty well. I'm dipping the

> >>>>> pieces in

> >>>>> the dressing. I really don't want the chocolate. I had one piece

> >>>>> and it

> >>>>> didn't taste good. The salad is good!

> >>>>>

> >>>>> And 's job situation isn't as bad as it sounds..... just a bit

> >>>>> of a

> >>>>> shock. He had a work comp injury.... shoulder.... about a year

> >>>>> ago. It's

> >>>>> determined that it will never completely heal. He works in a

> >>>>> warehouse. But his work didn't talk about that. They just made it

> >>>>> sound

> >>>>> like they were letting him go because he couldn't do the job! So,

> >>>>> we have

> >>>>> to talk to his case worker to find out about a settlement. I'm not

> >>>>> sure

> >>>>> how all that works. Out health insurance is with his work, so I

> >>>>> have to

> >>>>> talk to my HR about getting us on my plan (it costs more). This is

> >>>>> the

> >>>>> absolute wrong time for me to be traveling on business!! I can't

> >>>>> take care

> >>>>> of my personal business when I'm in meetings all day!!!

> >>>>>

> >>>>> So, all in all, it's been a pretty sucky day. Thanks for letting

> >>>>> me vent.

> >>>>>

> >>>>> Patti

> >>>>>

> >>>>>

> >>>>>

[Guest guest]

Wow Patti...

Breathe...

There is not a thing you can do till you get back so concentrate on your job and

the problems will still be there waiting when you get home (unfortunately).

You did a great job and if wheat thins and chocolate were a comfort in the

night..so be it.

Today is a new day... :-)

Hugs..

________________________________

To: insideoutweightloss

Sent: Wednesday, January 11, 2012 3:47 PM

Subject: Re: A New " Away From " Motivation

 

Good morning Patti! You sure are going through a lot. Be kind to

yourself and STAY IN THE NOW!! Whenever thoughts of the future come

up, cancel/delete!! Remember, they are only thoughts. You can change

your thoughts.

When I get overwhelmed, I try to focus solely on what I can do in this

moment. EFT is SUPER helpful for these kind of situations. Tap, tap,

tap until you are calm. " Even though I am feeling completely stressed

out, I choose to feel, calm, confident and strong! "

Many soothing hugs to you!

> The panic hit in the middle of the night. The main worry is short

> term

> financially. It hit me like a rock. Major panic attack. I got up

> several

> times in the night and ate the chocolate and wheat thins. Eating

> during

> the night is a huge issue for me. You notice I can't stay at hotel

> without

> some kind of food on hand. I panic if I don't have food nearby.

>

> Anyway, add some major stress and anxiety, and I'm a major mess. I

> feel

> like crawling back in bed and pulling the covers over my head. But I

> can't. I have to go into this office and put on a face and act

> confident,

> competent, and strong. The exact opposite of how I'm feeling.

>

> I need help.

>

> Patti

> On Jan 10, 2012 10:51 PM, " a Sawyer "

> wrote:

>

>> **

>>

>>

>> Wow,a horrible day to be sure, but there were successes in the

>> midst. I

>> know what it feels like to go from total resolve to eating half a

>> bag of

>> chocolate morsels in under 3 hours. A little stress can change your

>> direction fast. I'm beginning to learn to step away from the

>> problem, but

>> trade exercise, or a meditation exercise, or sometimes just

>> checking in to

>> make sure that I'm breathing deeply enough instead of going to the

>> the food

>> cabinet. You could walk to the grocery store instead of driving,

>> and take

>> the moment to prequel the food buying and consider other ways to

>> quiet the

>> anxiety that has built up. But honestly, it sounds like you handled

>> this

>> situation well. The problems will someday just be a bump in the

>> road, make

>> sure that your health is not left behind as well. May your

>> settlement be

>> large!

>> Psawyer

>>

>> Patti L wrote:

>>

>>> I've realized that I get stuck in my routine and don't realize

>>> what the

>>> lack of movement and the overeating does to me. I make small

>>> adjustments

>>> here and there.... I take breaks more when doing things around the

>>> house.

>>> I take elevators more often. I park a little closer at the grocery

>>> store.

>>> I don't need to walk much at my office. I take the elevator. I

>>> hadn't

>>> realized how out of shape I had gotten. Until yesterday. Walking

>>> through

>>> the airport. By the time I got from the shuttle, through security,

>>> to the

>>> gate, I was out of breath and sweating. And it wasn't that far! But

>>> lugging by suitcases.... even with rollers.... just killed me.

>>> Same thing

>>> when I got to my destination. Walked from the gate to the car rental

>>> desk. I think they thought I was going to drop of a heartache. I

>>> was a

>>> mess.

>>>

>>> The good news is, I fit in the seat comfortably. When I was at my

>>> heaviest, it wasn't very comfortable. I was squished in the seat.

>>> But

>>> when I was at my smallest... even a year ago, I could walk through

>>> the

>>> airport without breathing heard!!!

>>>

>>> Today I went to the office I'm working with this week. I was out

>>> of breath

>>> walking from one end to the other. And I was faced with stairs. I

>>> couldn't very well say " I don't do stairs " . So I did and tried not

>>> to show

>>> how hard I was breathing when we got to the top.

>>>

>>> So, today I resolved.... I am determined..... to stop this from

>>> happening!

>>> Add this to my Away From: Stop getting out of breath so quickly.

>>> Add this

>>> to my Toward Motivation: I want to be able to walk through an

>>> airport and

>>> not feel like dying when I'm done. I want to be able to walk up two

>>> flights of stairs without breaking a sweat. (three would be nice,

>>> but

>> let's

>>> not push it).

>>>

>>> So, I'm feeling like crap.... I'm embarrassed..... and really fed

>>> up with

>>> myself. But determined to get better. Good right? My husband

>>> called. He

>>> just got laid off. I'm away from home..... so many questions....

>>> so many

>>> " what ifs " ..... so many unkowns..... and I'm not there. That would

>>> usually

>>> send me to the nearest grocery store and load up on junk food and

>>> binge

>>> until I got sick. Well, I did go to a grocery store. God put the

>>> salad

>>> bar in my path. It looked good. So, I got a salad. (I also got some

>>> chocolate... oh well). And I forgot a fork, so I'm eating the

>>> salad with

>>> my fingers. Which actually works pretty well. I'm dipping the

>>> pieces in

>>> the dressing. I really don't want the chocolate. I had one piece

>>> and it

>>> didn't taste good. The salad is good!

>>>

>>> And 's job situation isn't as bad as it sounds..... just a bit

>>> of a

>>> shock. He had a work comp injury.... shoulder.... about a year

>>> ago. It's

>>> determined that it will never completely heal. He works in a

>>> warehouse. But his work didn't talk about that. They just made it

>>> sound

>>> like they were letting him go because he couldn't do the job! So,

>>> we have

>>> to talk to his case worker to find out about a settlement. I'm not

>>> sure

>>> how all that works. Out health insurance is with his work, so I

>>> have to

>>> talk to my HR about getting us on my plan (it costs more). This is

>>> the

>>> absolute wrong time for me to be traveling on business!! I can't

>>> take care

>>> of my personal business when I'm in meetings all day!!!

>>>

>>> So, all in all, it's been a pretty sucky day. Thanks for letting

>>> me vent.

>>>

>>> Patti

>>>

>>>

>>>

[Guest guest]

I'm not so grateful for gravity since " the girls " started heading south..

Just sayin'..

*sigh*

[Guest guest]

LOL!

Ford CPhT

340B Coordinator

Mercy Sisters of Mercy Health Systems

Pharmacy Services

Springfield, MO. 65804

Ph#

linda.ford@...

" Sometimes God allows us to see the miracle. Sometimes God allows us to BE the

miracle. "

St. 's.... One of the Nation's Top Integrated Health Systems

From: insideoutweightloss

[mailto:insideoutweightloss ] On Behalf Of Corinna L Mulligan

Sent: Wednesday, January 11, 2012 2:23 PM

To: insideoutweightloss

Subject: Re: A New " Away From " Motivation

I'm not so grateful for gravity since " the girls " started heading south..

Just sayin'..

*sigh*

[Guest guest]

When I'm feeling really overwhelmed in any situation, I like to think of a

phrase that I have on a magnet: " Everything will be ok in the end.  If it's not

ok, it's not the end. "

Another thing that helps me let go is to listen to inspirational/uplifting

music.  One song that is sticking out in my mind right now is " This Too Shall

Pass " by OK GO.  It's pretty good!

-

>

> >I've realized that I get stuck in my routine and don't realize what the

> >lack of movement and the overeating does to me. I make small adjustments

> >here and there.... I take breaks more when doing things around the house.

> >I take elevators more often. I park a little closer at the grocery store.

> >I don't need to walk much at my office. I take the elevator. I hadn't

> >realized how out of shape I had gotten. Until yesterday. Walking through

> >the airport. By the time I got from the shuttle, through security, to the

> >gate, I was out of breath and sweating. And it wasn't that far! But

> >lugging by suitcases.... even with rollers.... just killed me. Same thing

> >when I got to my destination. Walked from the gate to the car rental

> >desk. I think they thought I was going to drop of a heartache. I was a

> >mess.

> >

> >The good news is, I fit in the seat comfortably. When I was at my

> >heaviest, it wasn't very comfortable. I was squished in the seat. But

> >when I was at my smallest... even a year ago, I could walk through the

> >airport without breathing heard!!!

> >

> >Today I went to the office I'm working with this week. I was out of breath

> >walking from one end to the other. And I was faced with stairs. I

> >couldn't very well say " I don't do stairs " . So I did and tried not to show

> >how hard I was breathing when we got to the top.

> >

> >So, today I resolved.... I am determined..... to stop this from happening!

> >Add this to my Away From: Stop getting out of breath so quickly. Add this

> >to my Toward Motivation: I want to be able to walk through an airport and

> >not feel like dying when I'm done. I want to be able to walk up two

> >flights of stairs without breaking a sweat. (three would be nice, but

> let's

> >not push it).

> >

> >So, I'm feeling like crap.... I'm embarrassed..... and really fed up with

> >myself. But determined to get better. Good right? My husband called. He

> >just got laid off. I'm away from home..... so many questions.... so many

> > " what ifs " ..... so many unkowns..... and I'm not there. That would usually

> >send me to the nearest grocery store and load up on junk food and binge

> >until I got sick. Well, I did go to a grocery store. God put the salad

> >bar in my path. It looked good. So, I got a salad. (I also got some

> >chocolate... oh well). And I forgot a fork, so I'm eating the salad with

> >my fingers. Which actually works pretty well. I'm dipping the pieces in

> >the dressing. I really don't want the chocolate. I had one piece and it

> >didn't taste good. The salad is good!

> >

> >And 's job situation isn't as bad as it sounds..... just a bit of a

> >shock. He had a work comp injury.... shoulder.... about a year ago. It's

> >determined that it will never completely heal. He works in a

> >warehouse. But his work didn't talk about that. They just made it sound

> >like they were letting him go because he couldn't do the job! So, we have

> >to talk to his case worker to find out about a settlement. I'm not sure

> >how all that works. Out health insurance is with his work, so I have to

> >talk to my HR about getting us on my plan (it costs more). This is the

> >absolute wrong time for me to be traveling on business!! I can't take care

> >of my personal business when I'm in meetings all day!!!

> >

> >So, all in all, it's been a pretty sucky day. Thanks for letting me vent.

> >

> >Patti

> >

> >

> >

[Guest guest]

,

 

I am going to post the same thing at my desk.

 

Thanks.

  Livingston

________________________________

To: " insideoutweightloss " <insideoutweightloss >

Sent: Wednesday, January 11, 2012 8:54 AM

Subject: RE: A New " Away From " Motivation

 

As others said..hang in there. I have a saying posted in my cubicle that I try

to focus on when things feel out of control or I am in pain. " No problem lasts

forever. No matter how permanently fixed in the center of my life it may seem,

whatever I am experiencing in this ever changing life is sure to pass. Even

pain. "

I then change the last 2 words to whatever is going on. Example:....Even

grief.....Even Inventory...Even the loss of my husband's job (yes we went

through that too......Even shame....Even guilt.......Even anxiety...Even

panic... No matter what, it will surely pass because it always has.

Another tool I use when my mind won't shut off and I'm trying to sleep is to do

a gratitude list in my mind via the alphabet. I also put certain restrictions on

it to make it more difficult. The two I like to do the most are " things I take

for granted " and " things that aren't material " .

So for the " take for granted my examples are:

I am grateful for AIR

I am grateful for BREATHING

I am grateful for CHEWING

My favorite one in this list is the letter " G " . I am grateful for GRAVITY.

Imagine what life would be like if there wasn't any gravity. We might weigh

nothing but it sure would make it hard to do anything. Driving would probably be

out of the question and going to the bathroom would be a real catastrophe. LOL

Which brings me to another favorite...I am grateful for LAUGHTER. It's hard to

laugh and feel bad at the same time. :-)

Ford CPhT

340B Coordinator

Mercy St. 's

Pharmacy Services

Springfield, MO.  65804

Ph#

linda.ford@...

" Sometimes God allows us to see the miracle. Sometimes God allows us to BE the

miracle. "

St. 's.... One of the Nation's Top Integrated Health Systems

Re: A New " Away From " Motivation

The panic hit in the middle of the night. The main worry is short term

financially. It hit me like a rock. Major panic attack. I got up several

times in the night and ate the chocolate and wheat thins. Eating during

the night is a huge issue for me. You notice I can't stay at hotel without

some kind of food on hand. I panic if I don't have food nearby.

Anyway, add some major stress and anxiety, and I'm a major mess. I feel

like crawling back in bed and pulling the covers over my head. But I

can't. I have to go into this office and put on a face and act confident,

competent, and strong. The exact opposite of how I'm feeling.

I need help.

Patti

> **

>

>

> Wow,a horrible day to be sure, but there were successes in the midst. I

> know what it feels like to go from total resolve to eating half a bag of

> chocolate morsels in under 3 hours. A little stress can change your

> direction fast. I'm beginning to learn to step away from the problem, but

> trade exercise, or a meditation exercise, or sometimes just checking in to

> make sure that I'm breathing deeply enough instead of going to the the food

> cabinet. You could walk to the grocery store instead of driving, and take

> the moment to prequel the food buying and consider other ways to quiet the

> anxiety that has built up. But honestly, it sounds like you handled this

> situation well. The problems will someday just be a bump in the road, make

> sure that your health is not left behind as well. May your settlement be

> large!

> Psawyer

>

> Patti L wrote:

>

> >I've realized that I get stuck in my routine and don't realize what the

> >lack of movement and the overeating does to me. I make small adjustments

> >here and there.... I take breaks more when doing things around the house.

> >I take elevators more often. I park a little closer at the grocery store.

> >I don't need to walk much at my office. I take the elevator. I hadn't

> >realized how out of shape I had gotten. Until yesterday. Walking through

> >the airport. By the time I got from the shuttle, through security, to the

> >gate, I was out of breath and sweating. And it wasn't that far! But

> >lugging by suitcases.... even with rollers.... just killed me. Same thing

> >when I got to my destination. Walked from the gate to the car rental

> >desk. I think they thought I was going to drop of a heartache. I was a

> >mess.

> >

> >The good news is, I fit in the seat comfortably. When I was at my

> >heaviest, it wasn't very comfortable. I was squished in the seat. But

> >when I was at my smallest... even a year ago, I could walk through the

> >airport without breathing heard!!!

> >

> >Today I went to the office I'm working with this week. I was out of breath

> >walking from one end to the other. And I was faced with stairs. I

> >couldn't very well say " I don't do stairs " . So I did and tried not to show

> >how hard I was breathing when we got to the top.

> >

> >So, today I resolved.... I am determined..... to stop this from happening!

> >Add this to my Away From: Stop getting out of breath so quickly. Add this

> >to my Toward Motivation: I want to be able to walk through an airport and

> >not feel like dying when I'm done. I want to be able to walk up two

> >flights of stairs without breaking a sweat. (three would be nice, but

> let's

> >not push it).

> >

> >So, I'm feeling like crap.... I'm embarrassed..... and really fed up with

> >myself. But determined to get better. Good right? My husband called. He

> >just got laid off. I'm away from home..... so many questions.... so many

> > " what ifs " ..... so many unkowns..... and I'm not there. That would usually

> >send me to the nearest grocery store and load up on junk food and binge

> >until I got sick. Well, I did go to a grocery store. God put the salad

> >bar in my path. It looked good. So, I got a salad. (I also got some

> >chocolate... oh well). And I forgot a fork, so I'm eating the salad with

> >my fingers. Which actually works pretty well. I'm dipping the pieces in

> >the dressing. I really don't want the chocolate. I had one piece and it

> >didn't taste good. The salad is good!

> >

> >And 's job situation isn't as bad as it sounds..... just a bit of a

> >shock. He had a work comp injury.... shoulder.... about a year ago. It's

> >determined that it will never completely heal. He works in a

> >warehouse. But his work didn't talk about that. They just made it sound

> >like they were letting him go because he couldn't do the job! So, we have

> >to talk to his case worker to find out about a settlement. I'm not sure

> >how all that works. Out health insurance is with his work, so I have to

> >talk to my HR about getting us on my plan (it costs more). This is the

> >absolute wrong time for me to be traveling on business!! I can't take care

> >of my personal business when I'm in meetings all day!!!

> >

> >So, all in all, it's been a pretty sucky day. Thanks for letting me vent.

> >

> >Patti

> >

> >

> >

[Guest guest]

Thanks everyone! I like the alphabetical gratitude. I have a problem with

the whole gratitude thing. I get stuck on all the things that are wrong.

I like the idea of just thinking about little things that are right. Even

if it's just little things like air and gravity.... although I'm not so

sure about the gravity thing, either.

Thank you all for the great ideas. I really appreciate the kindness.

Patti

On Wed, Jan 11, 2012 at 12:24 PM, Ford, S wrote:

> **

>

>

> LOL!

>

>

> Ford CPhT

> 340B Coordinator

> Mercy Sisters of Mercy Health Systems

>

> Pharmacy Services

> Springfield, MO. 65804

> Ph#

> linda.ford@...

>

> " Sometimes God allows us to see the miracle. Sometimes God allows us to BE

> the miracle. "

> St. 's.... One of the Nation's Top Integrated Health Systems

>

> From: insideoutweightloss [mailto:

> insideoutweightloss ] On Behalf Of Corinna L Mulligan

> Sent: Wednesday, January 11, 2012 2:23 PM

> To: insideoutweightloss

> Subject: Re: A New " Away From " Motivation

>

>

> I'm not so grateful for gravity since " the girls " started heading south..

> Just sayin'..

>

> *sigh*

>

>

[Guest guest]

Like you said, when one door closes, another opens. And that door can lead

somewhere better. But be good to yourself and careful on the journey because it

sure can be hell in the hallway.

[Guest guest]

About 5 years or so ago, I posted a piece of paper on the refrigerator with 26

spots for one item I was grateful for that I took for granted. For the next 26

days, I focused on one of the letters and decided on one thing to put beside

that letter by the end of the day that I was grateful for (but took for

granted). By the end of the 26 days, I had a nice little gratitude list of

items I normally wouldn't have thought about as being grateful for. I still

have that little post it note on the fridge with my 26 things. I got so much

out of doing it that I " assigned " it to the 4 people I sponsored in Al-Anon to

do the same. One girl I sponsored got her husband and teenage son to do it

also. Therefore they had three lists on their refrigerator.

Another " A " item is my appetite. I often wish my appetite wasn't so good until

I get sick and have to " force " myself to eat something. Then I become grateful

that I do have a healthy appetite. Two of the signs (for me) that I take

something " for granted " is when I abuse it or I miss it when it's suddenly gone.

I have certainly abused my appetite at times....

Ford CPhT

340B Coordinator

Mercy Sisters of Mercy Health Systems

Pharmacy Services

Springfield, MO.  65804

Ph#

linda.ford@...

" Sometimes God allows us to see the miracle. Sometimes God allows us to BE the

miracle. "

St. 's.... One of the Nation's Top Integrated Health Systems

Re: A New " Away From " Motivation

>

>

> I'm not so grateful for gravity since " the girls " started heading south..

> Just sayin'..

>

> *sigh*

>

>

[Guest guest]

That's an interesting statement. I've never thought of it that way --

abusing my appetite.

> **

>

>

> About 5 years or so ago, I posted a piece of paper on the refrigerator

> with 26 spots for one item I was grateful for that I took for granted. For

> the next 26 days, I focused on one of the letters and decided on one thing

> to put beside that letter by the end of the day that I was grateful for

> (but took for granted). By the end of the 26 days, I had a nice little

> gratitude list of items I normally wouldn't have thought about as being

> grateful for. I still have that little post it note on the fridge with my

> 26 things. I got so much out of doing it that I " assigned " it to the 4

> people I sponsored in Al-Anon to do the same. One girl I sponsored got her

> husband and teenage son to do it also. Therefore they had three lists on

> their refrigerator.

>

> Another " A " item is my appetite. I often wish my appetite wasn't so good

> until I get sick and have to " force " myself to eat something. Then I become

> grateful that I do have a healthy appetite. Two of the signs (for me) that

> I take something " for granted " is when I abuse it or I miss it when it's

> suddenly gone. I have certainly abused my appetite at times....

>

> Ford CPhT

> 340B Coordinator

> Mercy Sisters of Mercy Health Systems

> Pharmacy Services

> Springfield, MO. 65804

> Ph#

> linda.ford@...

> " Sometimes God allows us to see the miracle. Sometimes God allows us to BE

> the miracle. "

> St. 's.... One of the Nation's Top Integrated Health Systems

>

> Re: A New " Away From " Motivation

> >

> >

> > I'm not so grateful for gravity since " the girls " started heading south..

> > Just sayin'..

> >

> > *sigh*

>

> >

> >

[Guest guest]

Bacon's pretty incredible though:)

How about beaches?

Patti L wrote:

>I tried the alphabetical gratitude thing as I was drifting off to sleep.

>The only B I could thing of was bacon. That led to candy for C. Then I

>couldn't think of a D. Told you I had trouble with the gratitude thing.

>

>Patti

>

>

>> **

>>

>>

>> About 5 years or so ago, I posted a piece of paper on the refrigerator

>> with 26 spots for one item I was grateful for that I took for granted. For

>> the next 26 days, I focused on one of the letters and decided on one thing

>> to put beside that letter by the end of the day that I was grateful for

>> (but took for granted). By the end of the 26 days, I had a nice little

>> gratitude list of items I normally wouldn't have thought about as being

>> grateful for. I still have that little post it note on the fridge with my

>> 26 things. I got so much out of doing it that I " assigned " it to the 4

>> people I sponsored in Al-Anon to do the same. One girl I sponsored got her

>> husband and teenage son to do it also. Therefore they had three lists on

>> their refrigerator.

>>

>> Another " A " item is my appetite. I often wish my appetite wasn't so good

>> until I get sick and have to " force " myself to eat something. Then I become

>> grateful that I do have a healthy appetite. Two of the signs (for me) that

>> I take something " for granted " is when I abuse it or I miss it when it's

>> suddenly gone. I have certainly abused my appetite at times....

>>

>> Ford CPhT

>> 340B Coordinator

>> Mercy Sisters of Mercy Health Systems

>> Pharmacy Services

>> Springfield, MO. 65804

>> Ph#

>> linda.ford@...

>> " Sometimes God allows us to see the miracle. Sometimes God allows us to BE

>> the miracle. "

>> St. 's.... One of the Nation's Top Integrated Health Systems

>>

>> Re: A New " Away From " Motivation

>> >

>> >

>> > I'm not so grateful for gravity since " the girls " started heading south..

>> > Just sayin'..

>> >

>> > *sigh*

>> >

>> >

[Guest guest]

D: dill pickles

E: Endive

F: FRENCH FRIES!!

G: Gee I am hungry. 

Thanks. Time for a snack! Something else to be thankful for. I just ate a

handfull of peanuts and that is my snack. 

My oldest son, who has been struggling with launching out on his own, at 21,

just lost his job. He has a big stack of traffic fines to pay and he really

didn't need this. I was hoping that this would be a good start and that he would

be in his own place by the end of this month. Things change. Today I drove him

to a couple of things. I picked him up this morning from his now former

workplace. I am going to try to find lots of things I can do to take care of

myself that do not involve high fructose corn syrup.

 

Carlton Larsen, Ba, Bgp

Freelance Musician

426 Pinehouse Drive

Saskatoon Sk

S7K4X5

________________________________

To: insideoutweightloss

Sent: Thursday, January 12, 2012 8:24:47 PM

Subject: RE: Re: A New " Away From " Motivation

 

Bacon's pretty incredible though:)

How about beaches?

Patti L wrote:

>I tried the alphabetical gratitude thing as I was drifting off to sleep.

>The only B I could thing of was bacon. That led to candy for C. Then I

>couldn't think of a D. Told you I had trouble with the gratitude thing.

>

>Patti

>

>

>> **

>>

>>

>> About 5 years or so ago, I posted a piece of paper on the refrigerator

>> with 26 spots for one item I was grateful for that I took for granted. For

>> the next 26 days, I focused on one of the letters and decided on one thing

>> to put beside that letter by the end of the day that I was grateful for

>> (but took for granted). By the end of the 26 days, I had a nice little

>> gratitude list of items I normally wouldn't have thought about as being

>> grateful for. I still have that little post it note on the fridge with my

>> 26 things. I got so much out of doing it that I " assigned " it to the 4

>> people I sponsored in Al-Anon to do the same. One girl I sponsored got her

>> husband and teenage son to do it also. Therefore they had three lists on

>> their refrigerator.

>>

>> Another " A " item is my appetite. I often wish my appetite wasn't so good

>> until I get sick and have to " force " myself to eat something. Then I become

>> grateful that I do have a healthy appetite. Two of the signs (for me) that

>> I take something " for granted " is when I abuse it or I miss it when it's

>> suddenly gone. I have certainly abused my appetite at times....

>>

>> Ford CPhT

>> 340B Coordinator

>> Mercy Sisters of Mercy Health Systems

>> Pharmacy Services

>> Springfield, MO. 65804

>> Ph#

>> linda.ford@...

>> " Sometimes God allows us to see the miracle. Sometimes God allows us to BE

>> the miracle. "

>> St. 's.... One of the Nation's Top Integrated Health Systems

>>

>> Re: A New " Away From " Motivation

>> >

>> >

>> > I'm not so grateful for gravity since " the girls " started heading south..

>> > Just sayin'..

>> >

>> > *sigh*

>> >

>> >

[Guest guest]

Ouch, that's hard Hopefully he can find something else soon!

On Fri, Jan 13, 2012 at 9:28 AM, Carlton Larsen wrote:

> **

>

>

> D: dill pickles

> E: Endive

> F: FRENCH FRIES!!

> G: Gee I am hungry.

>

> Thanks. Time for a snack! Something else to be thankful for. I just ate a

> handfull of peanuts and that is my snack.

>

> My oldest son, who has been struggling with launching out on his own, at

> 21, just lost his job. He has a big stack of traffic fines to pay and he

> really didn't need this. I was hoping that this would be a good start and

> that he would be in his own place by the end of this month. Things change.

> Today I drove him to a couple of things. I picked him up this morning from

> his now former workplace. I am going to try to find lots of things I can do

> to take care of myself that do not involve high fructose corn syrup.

>

>

> Carlton Larsen, Ba, Bgp

> Freelance Musician

> 426 Pinehouse Drive

> Saskatoon Sk

> S7K4X5

>

> ________________________________

>

> To: insideoutweightloss

> Sent: Thursday, January 12, 2012 8:24:47 PM

> Subject: RE: Re: A New " Away From " Motivation

>

>

>

>

> Bacon's pretty incredible though:)

> How about beaches?

>

> Patti L wrote:

>

> >I tried the alphabetical gratitude thing as I was drifting off to sleep.

> >The only B I could thing of was bacon. That led to candy for C. Then I

> >couldn't think of a D. Told you I had trouble with the gratitude thing.

> >

> >Patti

> >

> >

> >> **

> >>

> >>

> >> About 5 years or so ago, I posted a piece of paper on the refrigerator

> >> with 26 spots for one item I was grateful for that I took for granted.

> For

> >> the next 26 days, I focused on one of the letters and decided on one

> thing

> >> to put beside that letter by the end of the day that I was grateful for

> >> (but took for granted). By the end of the 26 days, I had a nice little

> >> gratitude list of items I normally wouldn't have thought about as being

> >> grateful for. I still have that little post it note on the fridge with

> my

> >> 26 things. I got so much out of doing it that I " assigned " it to the 4

> >> people I sponsored in Al-Anon to do the same. One girl I sponsored got

> her

> >> husband and teenage son to do it also. Therefore they had three lists on

> >> their refrigerator.

> >>

> >> Another " A " item is my appetite. I often wish my appetite wasn't so good

> >> until I get sick and have to " force " myself to eat something. Then I

> become

> >> grateful that I do have a healthy appetite. Two of the signs (for me)

> that

> >> I take something " for granted " is when I abuse it or I miss it when it's

> >> suddenly gone. I have certainly abused my appetite at times....

> >>

> >> Ford CPhT

> >> 340B Coordinator

> >> Mercy Sisters of Mercy Health Systems

> >> Pharmacy Services

> >> Springfield, MO. 65804

> >> Ph#

> >> linda.ford@...

> >> " Sometimes God allows us to see the miracle. Sometimes God allows us to

> BE

> >> the miracle. "

> >> St. 's.... One of the Nation's Top Integrated Health Systems

> >>

> >> Re: A New " Away From " Motivation

> >> >

> >> >

> >> > I'm not so grateful for gravity since " the girls " started heading

> south..

> >> > Just sayin'..

> >> >

> >> > *sigh*

> >> >

> >> >