Re: Re: IOWL Week 2 FF: Objections

January 25, 2012

I wonder if you could choose to take some of the time you do have alone to do

thingsÂ that you want to do.Â Not what needs to be done.Â I was struck by

this part of your note:

Â

" Even when I am alone, I have to be focused on them. I have to take

care of the house and cook meals and do the laundry and pick up my daughter

from the baby-sitter and go to the grocery store. "

Â

I am wondering if you could mindfully make a change and take some of the time

for something you want, even if it turns out thatÂ you want to do the laundry -

do it mindfully because you want to do it.Â Does that make any sense?

Â

Â Livingston

________________________________

To: insideoutweightloss

Sent: Wednesday, January 25, 2012 4:27 PM

Subject: Re: IOWL Week 2 FF: Objections

Â

I've been working through my Week 2 exercises, and I've come up with a few

objections. I sent other emails concerning my " What if I get everything I

want and I'm still not good enough? " objection, and my fear of change.

Those are things I can work on (even if it is with my therapist).

Another big one I came up with kind of has me stumped: When I think about

my dream life, it seems what I really want is alone time. I want peace and

quiet and free time to do what I want/need to do (part of which actually

includes work).

The problem is, I have a young daughter and a husband who wants more kids.

I don't get to be alone. My life isn't mine anymore--it belongs to my

family. Even when I am alone, I have to be focused on them. I have to take

care of the house and cook meals and do the laundry and pick up my daughter

from the baby-sitter and go to the grocery store.

I have never thought of myself as a giver--I've actually always considered

myself fairly selfish--but I see now that I give and give and give and have

nothing left over for myself, and I see that I've been doing it for a long

time, not just since I had my daughter.

It's like I can't accomplish anything unless I'm on my own, and I'm never

going to be on my own again. (Limiting belief!)

So perhaps the positive intent for my eating is having something just for

me (which doesn't even make sense, because I have a 3 year old who assumes

she is welcome to anything and everything I have, including my food).

I don't know how to overcome this one. Any thoughts?

Elisha

January 25, 2012

Wow that soundes familiar. When my kids were young I regularly got up at 5am

just to have some time to myself.

I am sooo looking forward to my empty nest.

Elisha Dew wrote:

>I've been working through my Week 2 exercises, and I've come up with a few

>objections. I sent other emails concerning my " What if I get everything I

>want and I'm still not good enough? " objection, and my fear of change.

>Those are things I can work on (even if it is with my therapist).

>

>Another big one I came up with kind of has me stumped: When I think about

>my dream life, it seems what I really want is alone time. I want peace and

>quiet and free time to do what I want/need to do (part of which actually

>includes work).

>

>The problem is, I have a young daughter and a husband who wants more kids.

>I don't get to be alone. My life isn't mine anymore--it belongs to my

>family. Even when I am alone, I have to be focused on them. I have to take

>care of the house and cook meals and do the laundry and pick up my daughter

>from the baby-sitter and go to the grocery store.

>

>I have never thought of myself as a giver--I've actually always considered

>myself fairly selfish--but I see now that I give and give and give and have

>nothing left over for myself, and I see that I've been doing it for a long

>time, not just since I had my daughter.

>

>It's like I can't accomplish anything unless I'm on my own, and I'm never

>going to be on my own again. (Limiting belief!)

>

>So perhaps the positive intent for my eating is having something just for

>me (which doesn't even make sense, because I have a 3 year old who assumes

>she is welcome to anything and everything I have, including my food).

>

>I don't know how to overcome this one. Any thoughts?

>

>Elisha

>

January 25, 2012

I am familiar with this too. It seems like the vast majority of my life is

wrapped around caring for my son. Sometimes it feels like it's just too

much for any human to deal with. I remember going to a wraparound meeting

for him and we were supposed to be saying positive things about every

member of the family. Here were mine:

" You're a great mom. "

" You're a great advocate for Elias. "

" You work so hard to help Elias. "

" You always fight so hard for your kids. "

It continued in this vein. I actually went home in tears. The exercise

didn't make me feel good. It made me feel like nobody could see *me *--

the me that existed before I became mom to a child with challenges. Was

this really all that I had become? Nobody mentioned a single thing that

anything to do with the real me. Just me as mom.

I stay up really late every night because this is about the only time I get

for myself. I game, I do logic puzzles, I write, I read. That's my quiet

and renewal time. Although dumping my daughter in the kid zone while my

son is at school so I can do classes at the Y is becoming a close second.

> **

>

> Wow that soundes familiar. When my kids were young I regularly got up at

> 5am just to have some time to myself.

> I am sooo looking forward to my empty nest.

>

> Elisha Dew wrote:

>

> >I've been working through my Week 2 exercises, and I've come up with a few

> >objections. I sent other emails concerning my " What if I get everything I

> >want and I'm still not good enough? " objection, and my fear of change.

> >Those are things I can work on (even if it is with my therapist).

> >

> >Another big one I came up with kind of has me stumped: When I think about

> >my dream life, it seems what I really want is alone time. I want peace and

> >quiet and free time to do what I want/need to do (part of which actually

> >includes work).

> >

> >The problem is, I have a young daughter and a husband who wants more kids.

> >I don't get to be alone. My life isn't mine anymore--it belongs to my

> >family. Even when I am alone, I have to be focused on them. I have to take

> >care of the house and cook meals and do the laundry and pick up my

> daughter

> >from the baby-sitter and go to the grocery store.

> >

> >I have never thought of myself as a giver--I've actually always considered

> >myself fairly selfish--but I see now that I give and give and give and

> have

> >nothing left over for myself, and I see that I've been doing it for a long

> >time, not just since I had my daughter.

> >

> >It's like I can't accomplish anything unless I'm on my own, and I'm never

> >going to be on my own again. (Limiting belief!)

> >

> >So perhaps the positive intent for my eating is having something just for

> >me (which doesn't even make sense, because I have a 3 year old who assumes

> >she is welcome to anything and everything I have, including my food).

> >

> >I don't know how to overcome this one. Any thoughts?

> >

> >Elisha

> >

January 26, 2012

Elisha:

There's some big words in this statement: " It's like I can't accomplish anything

unless I'm on my own, and I'm never

going to be on my own again. " - ANYTHING and NEVER.

Maybe you could make the statement a little smaller, and more positive - " I can

accomplish something, even with my family around me " .

And then take a look at this part of the statement - " I'm never going to be on

my own again " . Is that what you really want - to be on your own again, or do you

just want to be more comfortable in your role as mother and wife?

Maybe you can arrange for your husband and daughter to have a Daddy / Daughter

bonding time, outside the house,Â like one evening a week or on Saturday

morning.

Or, you can leave the house one evening a week or Saturday morning and go do

what you want to do.

b.

________________________________

To: insideoutweightloss

Sent: Wed, January 25, 2012 4:27:58 PM

Subject: Re: IOWL Week 2 FF: Objections

Â

I've been working through my Week 2 exercises, and I've come up with a few

objections. I sent other emails concerning my " What if I get everything I

want and I'm still not good enough? " objection, and my fear of change.

Those are things I can work on (even if it is with my therapist).

Another big one I came up with kind of has me stumped: When I think about

my dream life, it seems what I really want is alone time. I want peace and

quiet and free time to do what I want/need to do (part of which actually

includes work).

The problem is, I have a young daughter and a husband who wants more kids.

I don't get to be alone. My life isn't mine anymore--it belongs to my

family. Even when I am alone, I have to be focused on them. I have to take

care of the house and cook meals and do the laundry and pick up my daughter

from the baby-sitter and go to the grocery store.

I have never thought of myself as a giver--I've actually always considered

myself fairly selfish--but I see now that I give and give and give and have

nothing left over for myself, and I see that I've been doing it for a long

time, not just since I had my daughter.

It's like I can't accomplish anything unless I'm on my own, and I'm never

going to be on my own again. (Limiting belief!)

So perhaps the positive intent for my eating is having something just for

me (which doesn't even make sense, because I have a 3 year old who assumes

she is welcome to anything and everything I have, including my food).

I don't know how to overcome this one. Any thoughts?

Elisha

January 26, 2012

Remember that as your daughter becomes a teen, her relationship with her father

is of great importance to her self esteem, and her behavior when under pressure

by her peers. Make your husband more aware of this and encourage him to take

her on outings. The biggest problem will most likely be your own jealousy that

you are not being invited, and are not in the middle of their relationship. Be

careful what you ask for, be clear in your own mind and heart why you are doing

this.

a

IOWLG00dD4y wrote:

>Elisha:

>There's some big words in this statement: " It's like I can't accomplish

anything

>unless I'm on my own, and I'm never

>going to be on my own again. " - ANYTHING and NEVER.

>

>Maybe you could make the statement a little smaller, and more positive - " I can

>accomplish something, even with my family around me " .

>And then take a look at this part of the statement - " I'm never going to be on

>my own again " . Is that what you really want - to be on your own again, or do

you

>just want to be more comfortable in your role as mother and wife?

>

>Maybe you can arrange for your husband and daughter to have a Daddy / Daughter

>bonding time, outside the house,Â like one evening a week or on Saturday

morning.

>

>Or, you can leave the house one evening a week or Saturday morning and go do

>what you want to do.

>

>b.

>

>________________________________

>

>To: insideoutweightloss

>Sent: Wed, January 25, 2012 4:27:58 PM

>Subject: Re: IOWL Week 2 FF: Objections

>

>Â

>I've been working through my Week 2 exercises, and I've come up with a few

>objections. I sent other emails concerning my " What if I get everything I

>want and I'm still not good enough? " objection, and my fear of change.

>Those are things I can work on (even if it is with my therapist).

>

>Another big one I came up with kind of has me stumped: When I think about

>my dream life, it seems what I really want is alone time. I want peace and

>quiet and free time to do what I want/need to do (part of which actually

>includes work).

>

>The problem is, I have a young daughter and a husband who wants more kids.

>I don't get to be alone. My life isn't mine anymore--it belongs to my

>family. Even when I am alone, I have to be focused on them. I have to take

>care of the house and cook meals and do the laundry and pick up my daughter

>from the baby-sitter and go to the grocery store.

>

>I have never thought of myself as a giver--I've actually always considered

>myself fairly selfish--but I see now that I give and give and give and have

>nothing left over for myself, and I see that I've been doing it for a long

>time, not just since I had my daughter.

>

>It's like I can't accomplish anything unless I'm on my own, and I'm never

>going to be on my own again. (Limiting belief!)

>

>So perhaps the positive intent for my eating is having something just for

>me (which doesn't even make sense, because I have a 3 year old who assumes

>she is welcome to anything and everything I have, including my food).

>

>I don't know how to overcome this one. Any thoughts?

>

>Elisha

>

January 26, 2012

or hire a baby sitter for a few hours so someone else was attending to your

child or some planned activity (day care?) so you could work around the house

without having to check in every few minutes ... or hiring someone to do

somethng around your house every now and then (a house cleaner once a month?) so

you had that time free ...

________________________________

To: insideoutweightloss

Sent: Thursday, January 26, 2012 2:34 AM

Subject: Re: Re: IOWL Week 2 FF: Objections

Â

Elisha:

There's some big words in this statement: " It's like I can't accomplish anything

unless I'm on my own, and I'm never

going to be on my own again. " - ANYTHING and NEVER.

Maybe you could make the statement a little smaller, and more positive - " I can

accomplish something, even with my family around me " .

And then take a look at this part of the statement - " I'm never going to be on

my own again " . Is that what you really want - to be on your own again, or do you

just want to be more comfortable in your role as mother and wife?

Maybe you can arrange for your husband and daughter to have a Daddy / Daughter

bonding time, outside the house,Â like one evening a week or on Saturday

morning.

Or, you can leave the house one evening a week or Saturday morning and go do

what you want to do.

b.

________________________________

To: insideoutweightloss

Sent: Wed, January 25, 2012 4:27:58 PM

Subject: Re: IOWL Week 2 FF: Objections

Â

I've been working through my Week 2 exercises, and I've come up with a few

objections. I sent other emails concerning my " What if I get everything I

want and I'm still not good enough? " objection, and my fear of change.

Those are things I can work on (even if it is with my therapist).

Another big one I came up with kind of has me stumped: When I think about

my dream life, it seems what I really want is alone time. I want peace and

quiet and free time to do what I want/need to do (part of which actually

includes work).

The problem is, I have a young daughter and a husband who wants more kids.

I don't get to be alone. My life isn't mine anymore--it belongs to my

family. Even when I am alone, I have to be focused on them. I have to take

care of the house and cook meals and do the laundry and pick up my daughter

from the baby-sitter and go to the grocery store.

I have never thought of myself as a giver--I've actually always considered

myself fairly selfish--but I see now that I give and give and give and have

nothing left over for myself, and I see that I've been doing it for a long

time, not just since I had my daughter.

It's like I can't accomplish anything unless I'm on my own, and I'm never

going to be on my own again. (Limiting belief!)

So perhaps the positive intent for my eating is having something just for

me (which doesn't even make sense, because I have a 3 year old who assumes

she is welcome to anything and everything I have, including my food).

I don't know how to overcome this one. Any thoughts?

Elisha

January 27, 2012

Elisha,

I can completely relate to your need for alone time.Â

My children are grown now, but I often felt the way you feel when they were

young, only I didn't identify my need until they were much older. I just got mad

at my husband instead (NOT an effective way to handle MY problem.)Â I only

began to set some boundaries for myself when I absolutely had to, when my

daughters were in the 5-10 year old range, and I was back in school in the midst

of a career change.Â I HAD to have time to work on my school stuff, and began

to learn to be ok with them doing their thing while I did mine.Â At first, just

a few minutes of me NOT paying attention to them felt like withdrawal for me

(they hardly even noticed), but eventually it became a bit of relief.Â (I would

learn much later that it was actually a relief for them, too!Â AND for my

husband.Â My backing away made way for him to increase involvement with our

kids.)

Anyway, I know your child is much younger that mine were at the time I began to

" steal " a little time for myself, but I am now watching with amazement as my

daughter practices small moments of this same kind of boundary-setting with her

developmentally delayed 3-year-old.Â She will set her up with her crayons and

papers, or her dollhouse and dolls, then retreat to a chair with her book for

ten minutes of renewal.Â She sometimes has to say, " Not now, sweetie, Mommy is

reading " but the message is clear: this is important, SHE is important, and, by

sending this message, she is setting the example for her daughter to see herself

as important, too. And my daughter juggles a crazy work schedule, a partner who

is often on the road for work, and a 4 month old baby at home.Â And she doesn't

have food issues.Â How did that happen??

Anyway, you will certainly figure out what works best for you.Â Small steps . .

..

________________________________

To: insideoutweightloss

Sent: Wednesday, January 25, 2012 5:27 PM

Subject: Re: IOWL Week 2 FF: Objections

Â

I've been working through my Week 2 exercises, and I've come up with a few

objections. I sent other emails concerning my " What if I get everything I

want and I'm still not good enough? " objection, and my fear of change.

Those are things I can work on (even if it is with my therapist).

Another big one I came up with kind of has me stumped: When I think about

my dream life, it seems what I really want is alone time. I want peace and

quiet and free time to do what I want/need to do (part of which actually

includes work).

The problem is, I have a young daughter and a husband who wants more kids.

I don't get to be alone. My life isn't mine anymore--it belongs to my

family. Even when I am alone, I have to be focused on them. I have to take

care of the house and cook meals and do the laundry and pick up my daughter

from the baby-sitter and go to the grocery store.

I have never thought of myself as a giver--I've actually always considered

myself fairly selfish--but I see now that I give and give and give and have

nothing left over for myself, and I see that I've been doing it for a long

time, not just since I had my daughter.

It's like I can't accomplish anything unless I'm on my own, and I'm never

going to be on my own again. (Limiting belief!)

So perhaps the positive intent for my eating is having something just for

me (which doesn't even make sense, because I have a 3 year old who assumes

she is welcome to anything and everything I have, including my food).

I don't know how to overcome this one. Any thoughts?

Elisha

January 28, 2012

Thank you, everyone for your responses. I have been thinking about what all

of you have said, and I'm still not sure I'm ready not move past this

objection.

Part of it has to do with my relationship with my husband. We're not

exactly at our most cooperative, and about 99% of the time I feel

frustrated by his lack of involvement. He withdrawals from the family, and

then I get mad and want to withdrawal, and then he gets mad at me for

withdrawing, and it's a vicious cycle. My daughter seems perfectly fine

playing on her own for a bit--the problem is more with the adults in the

house.

I do try to do things for myself, like exercising or writing or crafting or

reading or even cooking, last week I even went shopping, and it just makes

me feel guilty, and then even more frustrated when it's over because I've

just " wasted " all that time when I could have been doing something

productive.

I feel like my husband and I are both trying to escape our

family/responsibility, only he escapes first and I'm left doing everything.

I have tried chore charts to counter his excuse that he doesn't know what

needs done, I have tried just not doing things, but then we end up with

three weeks of trash waiting to be taken out and no clean socks. How do you

let go of being the responsible one if you know no one else is going to

pick up the slack?

(In case anyone is wondering, yes, we are in marriage counseling, for this

and other reasons.)

I've long thought that part of my overeating is about control; the rest of

my life is very responsible, very controlled, and food is the one area

where I can let my guard down, where I can do whatever I want (which is

ridiculous, because I always ask what OTHER people want to eat before I

start cooking!). Eating is my opportunity to relax and not worry about

being responsible, which explains why I can't even follow a diet for a

single day.

January 28, 2012

I totally know where you're coming from Elisha. It is incredibly

frustrating. For me, it often feels like I'm the only person who cares.

I'm glad you're in marriage counseling, but are you in counseling for

yourself as well?

Try making this one small change. Instead of asking other people what they

want, set up a meal plan for the week based on what YOU want to eat. The

hell with them. If they don't like it, they can cook their own food. It

might make you feel better and give you a little bit of that sense of

freedom and rebellion that you are seeking by overeating.

> **

>

> Thank you, everyone for your responses. I have been thinking about what all

> of you have said, and I'm still not sure I'm ready not move past this

> objection.

>

> Part of it has to do with my relationship with my husband. We're not

> exactly at our most cooperative, and about 99% of the time I feel

> frustrated by his lack of involvement. He withdrawals from the family, and

> then I get mad and want to withdrawal, and then he gets mad at me for

> withdrawing, and it's a vicious cycle. My daughter seems perfectly fine

> playing on her own for a bit--the problem is more with the adults in the

> house.

>

> I do try to do things for myself, like exercising or writing or crafting or

> reading or even cooking, last week I even went shopping, and it just makes

> me feel guilty, and then even more frustrated when it's over because I've

> just " wasted " all that time when I could have been doing something

> productive.

>

> I feel like my husband and I are both trying to escape our

> family/responsibility, only he escapes first and I'm left doing everything.

> I have tried chore charts to counter his excuse that he doesn't know what

> needs done, I have tried just not doing things, but then we end up with

> three weeks of trash waiting to be taken out and no clean socks. How do you

> let go of being the responsible one if you know no one else is going to

> pick up the slack?

>

> (In case anyone is wondering, yes, we are in marriage counseling, for this

> and other reasons.)

>

> I've long thought that part of my overeating is about control; the rest of

> my life is very responsible, very controlled, and food is the one area

> where I can let my guard down, where I can do whatever I want (which is

> ridiculous, because I always ask what OTHER people want to eat before I

> start cooking!). Eating is my opportunity to relax and not worry about

> being responsible, which explains why I can't even follow a diet for a

> single day.

>

January 31, 2012

Hi Everyone!

I'm in Week 2 of Full-Filled, and I've found that the objections exercises are

ones I struggle with. I haven't been able to understand why or what part of me

objects to losing more weight. I've been at a plateau for months and months and

haven't quite figured out what it's teaching me.

But, today I think I began to understand my objections. My coach (who's also my

dad) went off on me today about losing more weight. He was asking me question

after question about how much I currently weigh and what types of foods I'm

eating and how much bread (that is whole wheat that I baked myself...it

literally has whole wheat flour, yeast, water, and salt in it...that's it) I'm

eating and do I need to see a specialist about what specifically I should eat at

exactly what times in the day and how can I not know how important it is to get

this " issue " under control and don't I understand that I'll be much better in

the racewalk if I lose the excess weight and would I like to carry around a

10-lb weight for a day to understand just how much of a difference that makes

and on and on and on and ON!!!! He and I have had a history of this

problem/battle: I developed bulimia the summer after my freshman year of college

when he harped on me non-stop to

lose weight. That summer I struggled immensely to get to 120 lbs (I'm 5'5 " ),

and that wasn't good enough for him...I needed to be 110 lbs.

Anyway, I think part of me is objecting to his philosophy and way of achieving

weight loss. He sees it as an " issue " that needs to be " controlled " (literally

the words that came out of his mouth) and that something is wrong with me

because I don't weigh 110 lbs. I'm at 125-127 lbs right now, and I want to

throw a big " F* & % YOU!! YOU CAN'T CONTROL ME!! HAHA!! " in his face. And

another part of me becomes afraid of losing more weight, because the last time I

did lose a lot, I was INSANE. I obsessed all the time about losing more and

more. I weighed and measured everything I put in my mouth. I was bulimic. I

weighed myself multiple times a day. I ran 70-80 miles a week and ate 1000

cals/day. I was completely miserable and obsessed with food and what I could

and couldn't eat. I think these are the parts of me that are objecting to

losing more weight. He's absolutely right that carrying less weight will help

me go faster. But I'm

afraid of losing myself to the obsession again. And a limiting belief I have

is that there's no way I can weigh 110 lbs, because the last time I did, I was

14 years old...and hadn't gone through puberty yet...and looked like a little

boy with no boobs and hips. I like looking like a woman, and part of me is

afraid of losing that too.

Wow, that felt really good to get it all out there. If anyone has any

suggestions on how to get past these, I'd love to hear them. Thanks for reading

y'all...if you made it this far

Take care of yourselves!

Love,

February 1, 2012

Thanks .

, be the weight you love. Love the weight you are, love yourself. How much

do YOU want to weigh? What do YOU want yourself to feel like and look like?

Anybody else's opinion is irrelevant. It is not THEIR body it is YOUR body. Love

it and care for it because like says, it is the only body you have and it

cares for you very well. Care for it well. Be good to yourself, all of yourself.

Maybe you are right at the weight where you feel your best.

Â

Carlton Larsen, Ba, Bgp

Freelance Musician

426 Pinehouse Drive

Saskatoon Sk

S7K4X5

________________________________

To: insideoutweightloss

Sent: Tuesday, January 31, 2012 11:38:47 PM

Subject: Re: Re: IOWL Week 2 FF: Objections

Â

Hi Everyone!

I'm in Week 2 of Full-Filled, and I've found that the objections exercises are

ones I struggle with.Â I haven't been able to understand why or what part of me

objects to losing more weight.Â I've been at a plateau for months and months

and haven't quite figured out what it's teaching me.

But, today I think I began to understand my objections.Â My coach (who's also

my dad) went off on me today about losing more weight.Â He was asking me

question after question about how much I currently weigh and what types of foods

I'm eating and how much bread (that is whole wheat that I baked myself...it

literally has whole wheat flour, yeast, water, and salt in it...that's it) I'm

eating and do I need to see a specialist about what specifically I should eat at

exactly what times in the day and how can I not know how important it is to get

this " issue " under control and don't I understand that I'll be much better in

the racewalk if I lose the excess weight and would I like to carry around a

10-lb weight for a day to understand just how much of a difference that makes

and on and on and on and ON!!!!Â He and I have had a history of this

problem/battle: I developed bulimia the summer after my freshman year of college

when he harped on me non-stop to

lose weight.Â That summer I struggled immensely to get to 120 lbs (I'm 5'5 " ),

and that wasn't good enough for him...I needed to be 110 lbs.Â

Anyway, I think part of me is objecting to his philosophy and way of achieving

weight loss.Â He sees it as an " issue " that needs to be " controlled " (literally

the words that came out of his mouth) and that something is wrong with me

because I don't weigh 110 lbs.Â I'm at 125-127 lbs right now, and I want to

throw a big " F* & % YOU!!Â YOU CAN'T CONTROL ME!! HAHA!! " in his face.Â And

another part of me becomes afraid of losing more weight, because the last time I

did lose a lot, I was INSANE.Â I obsessed all the time about losing more and

more.Â I weighed and measured everything I put in my mouth.Â I was bulimic.Â

I weighed myself multiple times a day.Â I ran 70-80 miles a week and ate 1000

cals/day.Â I was completely miserable and obsessed with food and what I could

and couldn't eat.Â I think these are the parts of me that are objecting to

losing more weight.Â He's absolutely right that carrying less weight will help

me go faster.Â But I'm

afraid of losing myself to the obsession again.Â And a limiting belief I have

is that there's no way I can weigh 110 lbs, because the last time I did, I was

14 years old...and hadn't gone through puberty yet...and looked like a little

boy with no boobs and hips.Â I like looking like a woman, and part of me is

afraid of losing that too.

Wow, that felt really good to get it all out there.Â If anyone has any

suggestions on how to get past these, I'd love to hear them.Â Thanks for

reading y'all...if you made it this far

Take care of yourselves!

Love,

Â

February 1, 2012

I think your dad sounds crazy!

Â

Trust your gut.

Â Livingston

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