Re: Is there anyone with similar issues ??

January 26, 2012

It is similar to mine. The problem isn't really so much the weight as my

self-sabotage. There have been times when I was 50 over weight and with great

pride took that under control and kept it under control for years. But, this

time I just keep sabbotaging myself daily. Why?

paula

bettykate65 wrote:

>I've just started reading Full-filled.

>I'm in my mid 40's , full time job, busy life , children animals husband ...

>I was a fat child in the 1970's when most children weren't fat . I have

realised over the years how this has impacted on my whole being. I was teased at

school (mostly by teachers!) I used to skip meals from as young an age as 8 or 9

in the hopes of losing weight . It worked eventually, I became anorexic by aged

14 , and I remained struggling with eating disorders until my mid 20's with

binge eating , starving etc.

>So here I am now , I'm lucky I don't fixate on food any more ( i.e. don't think

about food except when it is on my plate) , and I exercise regularly. I'd like

to think I'm quite fit , I run 20-30km a week , horse ride , do pilates etc.

However I am about 10kg overweight BMI about 26 . Not huge I know but I cannot

tell you how self conscious it makes me. Probably a kick back from being a fat

child . Yet I sabotage most nights my chances of dropping weight , eating

third portions of dinner and drinking 1/2 bottle wine... even when I don't want

either. I find it a bit overwhelming to have only one portion (whats that all

about !!!) and I eat so fast almost like I don't want to even taste the food ...

>Compared to many my weight issue is minor , but I really really want to conquer

it

>

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