Re: Re: I feel liek a terrible person.

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You've got it! What a powerful breakthrough!!

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> Thank you Amelia and Marcia for your support. I will do exactly as you

> have recommended. No wonder I wasn't getting anywhere, I literally hated

> thin people. How could I dream of myself becoming one. I read it and I

> almost can't believe it. This was my attitude towards thin people. Now that

> I think about it further, I was keeping myself from being friends with

> anyone who was thin! Wow! I love this. For months and months I kept going

> through the guided journey where I would dream of me being thin and I just

> couldn't come up with an image.

> I feel so much better now. Thank you!!

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> > Maki

> > Knowledge is power! You know yourself better today than yesterday!

> Celebrate that! Try to think of a thin person who embodies the qualities

> you admire, and tell yourself that you will be like THAT. If you are doing

> the FF book, you will envision your dream body. Use what you learned to

> dream up a body you will be proud to inhabit!

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> > I'm a terrible person, too. I was raised by a mother who taught us that

> fat people were lazy, ugly and stupid. Funny thing--she was at least 75

> lbs. overweight herself!! I swore I would never be like her and be

> judgemental and let myself gain too much weight, but guess what? I am 50

> lbs overweight and find myself harshly judging people who are also

> overweight. With 's help, I am getting better and hushing the little

> voice that echoes my mom's words. I know that I'm not ugly or stupid, but I

> do sooo have to work on the lazy part!

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> > Anyway, we all are " terrible " at times, but, as adults, we have to

> adjust our thought patterns to help us lead saner, healthier lives.

> > Marcia

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> > To: insideoutweightloss

> > Sent: Monday, January 23, 2012 12:24 PM

> > Subject: I feel liek a terrible person.

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> > I just realized something terrible about myself. I have a friend who is

> very skinny (not gorgeous, but she IS skinny, bubbly, flirty and a little

> easy) and every time I refer to her while talking to my husband or family I

> really talk bad about her. I don't exactly say bad things about HER per se,

> but I talk really horribly about " skinny, flirty, slutty girls " in

> general(but I know I am referring to her, even though I don't say her

> name).

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> > I am not like that. I study, I work, I'm fairly intelligent and what you

> would call a " good girl " . My husband like the " good girl " he sees in me a

> great future mother and he knows I'm a good wife. So when I was going

> through my objections I realized that I unconsciously related being slim to

> being like her and her friends. She doesn't go to school, even though she

> can; she has a mediocre job, she dresses inappropriately, is irresponsible

> and flirts with any guy she sees.

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> > I thought, if I were to become slim I would become her!

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> > I'm really sad now.

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[Guest guest]

Thank you Judy.

Some days I can look in the mirror and like what I see. I have a ways to go but

I am on a journey and if I had not started, I would not have moved this far. I

had some food today I don't feel good about eating, but they were at least the

more natural version of potato chips and I had one small bag, not a family pack

like I did in the bad old days. Tonight I will have a nice warm tea and go to

bed early and hopefully continue to recover from this horrible head and chest

cold. Learning to forgive myself is a process. Loving myself is part of that and

follows from it.

I have come to realize that I have a problem with wealth. Perhaps the reason I

have always struggled to make ends meet and have never been financially secure

is in my head. I have had a bad attitude towards wealthy people. How could I

become even modestly financially successful if I hate rich folks? Got some work

to do here on stuff I had not thought of before.

 

Carlton Larsen, Ba, Bgp

Freelance Musician

426 Pinehouse Drive

Saskatoon Sk

S7K4X5

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To: insideoutweightloss

Sent: Monday, January 23, 2012 2:03:14 PM

Subject: Re: I feel liek a terrible person.

 

Oh, and one more thing!!! NONE of us are terrible!! We are beautiful and

handsome (for Carlton) and perfect just the way we are! We may want to change

some things for the better, but we are wonderful!! All of us.... TODAY - NOW!

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