Knight in ------- armor.

[Guest guest]

LOL Eldrid!

The knight in greasy armor is back from the mall and the broken van is in the

driveway ready to have its inner dragon slain. My sword is frozen in the sheath

though so I have to wait until tomorrow to start on it. It is -25 outside today

with the wind chill making it -42 celsius. That is about -45 in the old

Farenheit scale. I don't twist wrenches when it is quite that cool. Might snap a

finger off once it freezes. Tomorrow I will crawl under and get dripped on then

go on a quest for parts. Life is full of adventure. 

Weight loss? I am going to come back to that. First, I am coping with some

stresses. I have the opportunity to let go of things today. I am being given a

lot to work with so I must have some resources. My faith tradition assures me

that my Higher Power will not give me more than I can handle. Knowing myself, I

am sharing my burden with a few select people so that I don't have to do it

alone. This works for me.

I am doing well today. My son is out with his " friend " who buys him lunch then

swindles him out of his rent and care payment money. Perhaps one day he will

start to learn (I hope before his 22nd birthday this Valentines) who his real

friends are. Last time my son took this guy on a trip somewhere they were

returning a 16 year old girl to her home in the next province on the " advice " of

the federal police force. Some friend.

So that is added to the mix. I can not make his choices and until he is ready to

hear my advice or better yet, asks for it, I am better off just reminding him

who cares for him and that he needs to stand up for himself. I had a brisk 1

hour walk this morning in the -45 to deliver my youngest son's newspapers (the

doctor said to keep him out of the wind until his cough eases). I had another

walk to get the van just before lunch. It was warmer, but the wind chill is more

extreme. We know how to dress for this here so that was a nice walk. This

afternoon I have a job follow up call to make. I expect to have an interview

today or tomorrow. 

I am working at releasing the frustration and the fears for my son in as

non-destructively as I can. I know I sound angry so I am trying to let go and

accept what is and what I can not change. My son must make decisions and I can

be here for him and encourage him but I can not take responsibility for those

decisions, good or bad. My wife has her own struggles and her perceptions and I

can not take charge of those either. I can only be the best " me " I can be and

work on my own recovery and my own healing. I will keep working at getting

another source of income and at confronting each crisis as it arises in as calm

a way as I can manage. I will not do any of this perfectly. I will do a pretty

damned good job though because I know I can. I will do my best. That will have

to be enough for me. It is enough for my Higher Power so it should be enough for

me.

Now to get that call made and get to work on coding and uploading some new songs

for sale on this music website. Something good has GOT to happen sooner or

later. I just have to keep plugging away at it and doing my level best.

 

Carlton Larsen, Ba, Bgp

Freelance Musician

426 Pinehouse Drive

Saskatoon Sk

S7K4X5

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To: insideoutweightloss

Sent: Thursday, January 19, 2012 10:17:00 AM

Subject: Re: Eldred's Insight

 

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> Hi Corinna.

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> Hell know, she knows she is hot. She is tall, dark blonde, 53 and foxy. She

knows she is attractive and young looking. People have always mistaken her for

at least 10 years younger than she is, since she was 35. She knows I find her

attractive. She is just of the opinion that I am not all that attractive. I

thought we kind of matched, that we looked good together, but I have never been

the more attractive one. Anyway, gotta go rescue her and the van from the

grocery store. Power steering problems I will have to fix. 

>

Knight in shining armor...<g>

Eldred