Bulimia as a limiting belief

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Hello list,

I have been revisiting 's talks on limiting beliefs and had a

revalation that I would very much appreciate feedback on. I binge, horribly,

painfully and manically. Not all the time and more during stressful periods.

In the past I have popped appetite suppresors that made me feel weird,

fasted and exercised, now I have no desire to take them even though a little

bit of me would like help in fasting as I've put on a few pounds of the 30

or so I've released this year. I fit all the diagnostic criteria for

atypical bulimia nervosa and have been building myself up to ask for help

with this.

However, while investigating EDs and realising that this is a label that

could apply to myself I started binging again and suspect that labelling

myself gives me permision and a reason to binge.

Now, even if I have an ED, its not for ever, and it doesn't even effect me

all the time so I feel it is not healthy to say I have an ED. It is better

for me to say that I have tendencies that way and that I am learning better

ways of dealing with stress.

And .. like many people here I've had severe stress - a baby that died some

years ago that I've still got issues around, a husband struggling with

alcohol addiction before his real problem of being bi-polar was addressed, a

boy with difficulties who has been in hospital for months due to extreme

anxiety, now diagnosed as being on the Autistic Spectrum, a teenage daughter

with whom I have had some problems now mostly past - I could go on.

The stressors have lessened a lot as my son has been improving, my husband

has got help - so why binge again?

My point though is that saying I have an ED holds me back, it is more

helpful to make positive affirmations about my recovery. Can anyone point me

to specific episodes that might be particularly helpful to me?

Thanks for reading

Jenna