I actually like overeating...

[Guest guest]

Is it bizarre that I like to feel SUPER full, not just full? I don't like eating

so there's still some room left in my stomach. I'd rather eat two small meals

early on in the day and one HUGE meal at the end of my day and feel so satiated

that I have to lean back and sit around for 20 minutes 'cause I'm so full and

cozy that I can't move. Eating passed the point of being full can feel good,

especially when you're eating healthy stuff. I like to use my last meal of the

day as my big treat where I gorge.

Today I ate a HUGE chicken salad and two servings of whole grain cereal.

I'm basking in the feeling right now. Granted, it's only 3:00 pm and I probably

won't eat anything else for the rest of the night...

but damn.

I like this feeling.

Anybody else thoroughly enjoy the feeling of relaxing and having your stomach

packed up?

- Krissy

[Guest guest]

I actually do not like the feeling of being super full (Full - yes). What I

really hate is feeling hungry. I hate that feeling. It is the clincher in

this journey that I can seem to get past. I eat very healthy, I just eat too

much of healthy.

I have been trying to reframe hunger. Still searching...

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> Is it bizarre that I like to feel SUPER full, not just full? I don't like

eating so there's still some room left in my stomach. I'd rather eat two small

meals early on in the day and one HUGE meal at the end of my day and feel so

satiated that I have to lean back and sit around for 20 minutes 'cause I'm so

full and cozy that I can't move. Eating passed the point of being full can feel

good, especially when you're eating healthy stuff. I like to use my last meal of

the day as my big treat where I gorge.

>

> Today I ate a HUGE chicken salad and two servings of whole grain cereal.

>

> I'm basking in the feeling right now. Granted, it's only 3:00 pm and I

probably won't eat anything else for the rest of the night...

>

> but damn.

>

> I like this feeling.

>

> Anybody else thoroughly enjoy the feeling of relaxing and having your stomach

packed up?

>

> - Krissy

>

[Guest guest]

Dear ,

It's amazing that you caught on that my pleasure was coming from a sense of

rebellion. I was actually thinking about this while listening to the podcasts

over the past couple weeks.

I kept in mind 's tapping technique, and I thought about locating what I

was really afraid of: I'm afraid of letting other people win when it comes to my

body. I work so hard to keep it fit and healthy most of the time, and yet I

still hear judgments from everyone. My legs and belly are basically like rock

muscle! But I still get ragged on about how " big " they are. Sometimes when I've

eaten, I've thought: " I'm going to eat this piece of cake, even if it's bad for

me, because I can do whatever I want. " Sometimes when it's over I may not feel

physically great, but mentally, I feel good because it's a small triumph.

I'm working on coming around to the idea that I'm letting the judgmental people

in my life win by eating that cake, or whatever food it is at the time. What I

do has nothing to do with their happiness, or getting back at them, or anything.

I'm actually keeping myself from getting the body I want because I'm holding a

grudge and holding onto fear.

Agh, that felt good to tell someone.

Anyway, it's amazing that you're so intuitive and could sense all that from my

previous message.

Sometimes I believe really is right: we're all connected.

Much love,

Krissy

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> >> Is it bizarre that I like to feel SUPER full, not just full? I don't like

eating so there's still some room left in my stomach. I'd rather eat two small

meals early on in the day and one HUGE meal at the end of my day and feel so

satiated that I have to lean back and sit around for 20 minutes 'cause I'm so

full and cozy that I can't move. Eating passed the point of being full can feel

good, especially when you're eating healthy stuff. I like to use my last meal of

the day as my big treat where I gorge.

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> >> Today I ate a HUGE chicken salad and two servings of whole grain cereal.

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> >> I'm basking in the feeling right now. Granted, it's only 3:00 pm and I

probably won't eat anything else for the rest of the night...

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> >> but damn.

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> >> I like this feeling.

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> >> Anybody else thoroughly enjoy the feeling of relaxing and having your

stomach packed up?

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> >> - Krissy

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