34 year old - life feels like its just beginning

[Guest guest]

I have been at the mercy of food since I was 6 years old, I am now 34! I have

secretively eaten for years, stealing food from the family pantry, then money

from my mums wallet to sneak down to the local shops to buy sweets (alot!) and

since I have earned money I have eaten in secret at will. Mostly when I am

lonely, run down, hung over, tired - they all seem to feed each other, so

sometimes I overeat and binge for weeks on end. Then have a couple of weeks of

eating well, exercising and socialising again - then repeat the same cycle.

A week and a half ago I discovered 's podcast - it was like she was

speaking only to me (obviously not from the amount of feedback she has had!). I

listen to 2 episodes a day. I have not binged, smoked, nor felt guilty around

food since I started her podcasts. I have enjoyed food shopping, food cooking,

food sharing and food indulging ( in public) This is the beginning (I can feel

it) to a lovely new relationship with food. More then that, 's podcasts are

about being true to who you are - I have responded to this by taking a second to

ponder situations as they arise and think a moment longer about my emotional

response, ie not to be as self focused and paranoid but to think more of the

people I am with. As a result the last week I have felt closer to people around

me (probably a result of me not being as grumpy and snappy as usual - because I

feel better in myself.

I feel so proud to have begun this new journey and look forward to supporting

and encouraging myself and all of you who are part of this journey too.

Just to add in the last week I have lost 1.5kg - I am carrying 13kg more then my

natural slender self should but at the moment I don't care as I KNOW this body

will emerge in the next year. I can't wait!!!!

Bye bye food as my enemy - time consuming - obsession. What is waiting for me

around the corner now I have all this extra time????....