Kim's comment, I'm not sure what I would do . . .

[Guest guest]

I can really relate to this.  Sometimes I even think, " If I'm not working

toward overcoming my overeating, what WILL I focus on? "  And this is so silly,

because I know I have LOTS of things that I want to work toward.  Or I think I

do, anyway.  That's when I can begin to see the fear that holds me back: that

maybe, if I achieve the changes I want to make with food, and I am free to work

toward what I THINK I want, and, dare I say it, maybe I even achieve some of

those goals, I might STILL be unsatisfied.  Oh, the what-ifs just seem to keep

me stuck.

I was working on my trigger food/trigger situation list this morning, and the

word that came to my mind as I explored my positive intentions with food was,

" protection. "  As a child, I was not adequately protected from the abuse and

neglect in my household, and food became a refuge for me.  It still is. I

protect myself from the " what-ifs " by distracting myself with eating AND by

perpetuating my own struggle with food.  The kind of freedom I might gain from

NOT battling my food issues is truly terrifying to me!

Today, I have some unexpected free time.  I hope to meditate on all this a bit,

and work toward embracing my food issues instead of battling them, and imagining

the exhilaration that freedom might bring.

Thank you so much, Kim, for posting your comments.  They were exactly what I

needed to hear this morning.  

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To: " insideoutweightloss " <insideoutweightloss >

Sent: Wednesday, February 29, 2012 5:21 PM

Subject: Re: Do cravings ever stop?

 

Our homework for the class yesterday was writing down our positive intents for

not doing what we should even though we think we want to. I think it's podcast 5

or 6. What are you trying to get from eating something that's just a craving;

comfort, a break or reward, etc. I realized that I've been on a diet forever and

I'm not sure what I would do if I wasn't on one. It's a way of life and has been

for over 30 yrs.

Good luck!

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To: insideoutweightloss

Sent: Wednesday, February 29, 2012 2:19 PM

Subject: Do cravings ever stop?

 

Oh my goodness! The cravings!

Waaaaaaaaah!

I am on a strict paleo challenge right now and so I am not hungry.. never

hungry.. in fact, because there are no sugar highs or sugar lows, I am

happy to not eat for hours..

But! the psychological cravings are still there.. it's been since Feb

6th! I even have what I want my first post-paleo challenge treat to be...

and it ain't healthy.. and neither is that thinking.

I miss the party in my mouth.

Corinna