new insight - my internal bodyguard

[Guest guest]

When I started to search to understand the positive benefits that I was getting

by being overweight. I initially felt a tremendous amount of resentment and

anger towards the fat part of myself. Not only did I not want to embrace it I

just wanted to cut it off of me and throw it in the garbage. Annihilate not

forgive and accept. As I continued to reflect I had this visulization of the fat

part of me as a scared little girl with a sword who would try to defend me

against anyone who would hurt me. I was suddenly filled with a rush of love and

gratitude for her - Jane - my middle name - My heart welled up and I embraced

her.

I realize that I don't need that anymore. I am more that capable at looking out

for myself and If I'm going to have an internal body guard, Jane is going to

grow up to be buff and wear black leather while doing kick ass backflips in slow

motion - she gets to keep the sword!

It's quite amazing - since this insight I have not really had any issues with

food. I have been focusing on eating when I am hungry and stopping when full. I

allow myself formerly forbidden (In reality guilt ridden 'cause I'd eat them

anyway) food as treats if I really want it. As long as I pay attention to my

hunger. I have this treat after I have eaten a healthy meal rather than as an

unhealthy meal like/size substitute. I'm finding I am satisfied with a

significantly smaller portion. It feels like inside out weight loss magic.

Thanks and take care Pamela. & Jane

[Guest guest]

Pam, I LOVE your story! And I totally love the image of Jane growing up to

be buff wearing black leather. I can see her in sunglasses and a grim yet

purposeful set to her mouth. Very cool.

I had a similar experience - my issues with food come from a place of

" party in my mouth " rather than protection or anything else. I learned that

my " Jane " was a little creature about the size of a cat but kinda looked

like Stitch from Lilo & Stitch - cute and all, but with a destructive

nature and just wanting to eat EVERYTHING. I did the same thing with it as

you did with Jane - I embraced it, and settled it down in an imaginary

cat-bed to go to sleep. It purrs when it's happy, but whines when it's

hungry. And it's not hungry when I'm hungry - it's hungry for the party in

my mouth, hungry for treats - so when there are treats around, I have to

make sure it's happy and content by giving it a mental scratch behind the

ears until it calms down. A great way to distract us both from the treats

in the office!

Thanks for sharing Pam! Here's to Jane and her black leather

(rrraaooooowww!)

Charlotte x

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> When I started to search to understand the positive benefits that I was

> getting by being overweight. I initially felt a tremendous amount of

> resentment and anger towards the fat part of myself. Not only did I not

> want to embrace it I just wanted to cut it off of me and throw it in the

> garbage. Annihilate not forgive and accept. As I continued to reflect I had

> this visulization of the fat part of me as a scared little girl with a

> sword who would try to defend me against anyone who would hurt me. I was

> suddenly filled with a rush of love and gratitude for her - Jane - my

> middle name - My heart welled up and I embraced her.

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> I realize that I don't need that anymore. I am more that capable at

> looking out for myself and If I'm going to have an internal body guard,

> Jane is going to grow up to be buff and wear black leather while doing kick

> ass backflips in slow motion - she gets to keep the sword!

>

> It's quite amazing - since this insight I have not really had any issues

> with food. I have been focusing on eating when I am hungry and stopping

> when full. I allow myself formerly forbidden (In reality guilt ridden

> 'cause I'd eat them anyway) food as treats if I really want it. As long as

> I pay attention to my hunger. I have this treat after I have eaten a

> healthy meal rather than as an unhealthy meal like/size substitute. I'm

> finding I am satisfied with a significantly smaller portion. It feels like

> inside out weight loss magic.

>

> Thanks and take care Pamela. & Jane

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[Guest guest]

That is an amazing realization! How powerful to read as I start my day!!

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> When I started to search to understand the positive benefits that I was

getting by being overweight. I initially felt a tremendous amount of resentment

and anger towards the fat part of myself. Not only did I not want to embrace it

I just wanted to cut it off of me and throw it in the garbage. Annihilate not

forgive and accept. As I continued to reflect I had this visulization of the fat

part of me as a scared little girl with a sword who would try to defend me

against anyone who would hurt me. I was suddenly filled with a rush of love and

gratitude for her - Jane - my middle name - My heart welled up and I embraced

her.

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> I realize that I don't need that anymore. I am more that capable at looking

out for myself and If I'm going to have an internal body guard, Jane is going to

grow up to be buff and wear black leather while doing kick ass backflips in slow

motion - she gets to keep the sword!

>

> It's quite amazing - since this insight I have not really had any issues with

food. I have been focusing on eating when I am hungry and stopping when full. I

allow myself formerly forbidden (In reality guilt ridden 'cause I'd eat them

anyway) food as treats if I really want it. As long as I pay attention to my

hunger. I have this treat after I have eaten a healthy meal rather than as an

unhealthy meal like/size substitute. I'm finding I am satisfied with a

significantly smaller portion. It feels like inside out weight loss magic.

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> Thanks and take care Pamela. & Jane

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