Hello, I'm new

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Hello, my name is Ingrid and I'm new. I found 's podcasts a couple of

weeks ago while searching itunes for ANY sort of podcast to help ameliorate my

body-despair. How lucky am I to have found IOWL? I've been listening almost

non-stop, absorbing as much as I can. It's been interesting and I've been

feeling more relaxed and a lot less desperate, which has been such a relief. My

thighs aren't rubbing together quite so much either - another relief, LOL.

However, and this is the reason I'm writing (other than to take the plunge and

introduce myself), since I've been paying attention to how my stomach feels

around mealtimes (what might I want, what do I feel like eating, what would it

feel like later in/to my body, etc.) I've been having a lot of stomach pain.

And when I resolve something - for example, just the other day my husband and I

resolved a long standing feud that neither of us realized we were in - the pain

goes away and I can eat and digest again (it was the horrible pain and the

sensation of wanting to vomit every time I ate something that clued me in to

there being something wrong to begin with). But then the pain and nausea comes

back.

I'm thinking that I've been paying so little attention to my body, really (I

mean I've been caring for it, but over caring - too much exercise, too little

love, too little food or too much) that now it's screaming at me. It's

screaming really loud, too. If I feel in pain this time next month I'll go to

the doctor. In the meantime, I suppose I'll just wait it out. I'm feeling

pretty clear about it being a message as opposed to an ulcer or something like

that (though I suppose an ulcer could be a message). Does anyone have a similar

experience or thoughts about listening to a long-silent and suffering body? I'd

love to hear them. I'm feeling sort of terrible and guilty.

Thank you!