Guest guest Posted July 6, 2001 Report Share Posted July 6, 2001 The people on this list seem so supportive and helpful. Reading these posts helps me to be grateful. Sometimes that gratitude shifts and I feel ashamed about talking about the sensations I feel, I sound like I'm complaining. I am ambulatory. My daily experience is nothing like the level I read about here (hecnce, the gratitude). I got a good scare in Feb. as I needed to use a cane for a combination of an extreme FMS flare-up and (new) sciatica down my right leg all the way into my foot from my low back disk herniations. I never want to experience that pain and disability again. My fear is that I will. In spite of being clear about that, I have not been eating well (which _clearly_ contributes to my pain, as does being overweight) and I have not been moving. I'm currently having a problem with my foot which is keeping my off my daily hour-long walk. I could however, stretch and do yoga. I'm not doing that. I have an emotional block against feeling joy, taking in the good. Who am I if I don't have complaints or pain? Can I speak that truth without feeling pitiful? pathetic? I have this coping mechanism for a reason. In my emotionally absent/neglectful family, being ill in some way got me the only attention possible. I always question the measure of the pain I feel. How real, important, devastating, ... is it? And if I could answer that accurately, definitively, what would that do for me? I made an appointment with my therapist. *sigh* peace, trustinit __________________________________________________ Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest guest Posted July 9, 2001 Report Share Posted July 9, 2001 The newest thing my DH says is that I complain a lot. Even if I am pointing out I have a zit. lol I would not feel bad about posting anything on this site. Eveyone here has been in your shoes, and nobody complains here. > The people on this list seem so supportive and > helpful. Reading these posts helps me to be grateful. > > Sometimes that gratitude shifts and I feel ashamed > about talking about the sensations I feel, I sound > like I'm complaining. I am ambulatory. My daily > experience is nothing like the level I read about here > (hecnce, the gratitude). I got a good scare in Feb. as > I needed to use a cane for a combination of an extreme > FMS flare-up and (new) sciatica down my right leg all > the way into my foot from my low back disk > herniations. I never want to experience that pain and > disability again. My fear is that I will. > > In spite of being clear about that, I have not been > eating well (which _clearly_ contributes to my pain, > as does being overweight) and I have not been moving. > I'm currently having a problem with my foot which is > keeping my off my daily hour-long walk. I could > however, stretch and do yoga. I'm not doing that. > > I have an emotional block against feeling joy, taking > in the good. Who am I if I don't have complaints or > pain? Can I speak that truth without feeling pitiful? > pathetic? I have this coping mechanism for a reason. > In my emotionally absent/neglectful family, being ill > in some way got me the only attention possible. > > I always question the measure of the pain I feel. How > real, important, devastating, ... is it? And if I > could answer that accurately, definitively, what would > that do for me? > > I made an appointment with my therapist. *sigh* > peace, > trustinit > > > __________________________________________________ > Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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