I Remember and trapped

[Guest guest]

Where can we get the " I Remember ME " video? I am hoping that it will

perhaps help my husband to understand.

I have a friend with CFS and Lupus. She has been on morophine for

eight years, and nods off or loses track of even the simplist

conversations, spends days and weeks in bed, etc.

My doctor, while shaking his head over the morophine addiction (for

that's what it is now, and is not effective for her any longer but is

a crutch), has TOLD my husband about Fibro, ME, CFS, Lupus.

I get out of bed every day, even on those days when all I can do is

sit outside and soak sun because even books are too much. Most every

day, I do at least SOMETHING around the house or to aid him in his

business endeavors (never enough, though). And then he rants,

screaming, when I forget something at the checkout and " hold up the

line " to go grab it ... though I'm always back with " it " before he

checks out.

Yes, I do still love him. No, I would not still be with him were it

not an economic necessity. I am on disability and receive 485 cash and

640 food stamps. I cannot care for three children and myself on that

without his help. Nor have I any savings to get moved into a place ...

deposits and utility deposits.

If this video does not work (no, I'm not holding my breath), I don't

know what I can do. But I MUST do SOMETHING. For the sake of myself

AND the children.

N.