Sondra

[Guest guest]

thanks for all the nice words on me this day here. sometimes I to

wonder if my words are really helpful because often I to get so

frustrated because when typing my hands type out so fast to try to

keep up with my thinking and so often later when I to read find many

times I to not complete a complete thinking clearly at times and seem

to have huge skips to a differnet areas of my thinking because one

word triggered me to go to a very different place in my thinking and

so it seems like so much disconnected thinking. But if I to try to

fix it often it is of a process that often damages it more because

the process slows down so much so that my thinking cant slow this

level and be of to work itself out. But inside of me everything is

clear and uncluttered if you will in many aspects of my thinking, it

is when it tries to come out weather typing or speaking that causes a

breakdown, but typing frees up much and offers me more success in

being able to get it out quickly. my brain is like a DAM and it feels

like if I ot nto keep of the thinking flowing it will begin to jam up

and build and and clutter and so gets of stuck within me and that is

of just parts everyday of my world of words that I to have to work

through. sometimes no jams and things are clear and other times a few

logs clutter and jam up for a few minutes and causes a lag and other

times it is all congested and stuck and just does not come out.

But for me I to keep of trying because to me that is of just part of

the over all make up of being Sondra. But also just want to remind of

the people here that this list if valuable because of the others on

spectrum here too and because of the families here and this makes of

this list a good safe place to be in this life.

One mentioned that parts of my words reflect normal and yes the

things I to use to say often is autistic is being normal to the

extreme and among that, those with spectrum may lack the so called

hidden social boundaries to what is considered normal. I to often do

much of what others do I to just do it pervasively, so if others to

isolate I to may do it pervasively , and if others stuggle to anxiety

I to might reflect that pervasively and other things I to might not

do, and the not doing things I to might do them pervasively too. such

as sharing words verbally outside of my scripts, I to might not have

of any words at all to another because to me have none to share of

they are of outside of my scripts.

Sondra

[Guest guest]

Sondra-

I love your posts and I hope you write all the time. I am able to fully

understand everything you say as I am sure everyone else is. I think we all

have that issue with typing / writing and sometimes speaking the words come

out faster then we can manage and sometimes there are gaps. Don't worry

about it, I think I speak for everyone we love your posts!!!

T-

> thanks for all the nice words on me this day here. sometimes I to

> wonder if my words are really helpful because often I to get so

> frustrated because when typing my hands type out so fast to try to

> keep up with my thinking and so often later when I to read find many

> times I to not complete a complete thinking clearly at times and seem

> to have huge skips to a differnet areas of my thinking because one

> word triggered me to go to a very different place in my thinking and

> so it seems like so much disconnected thinking. But if I to try to

> fix it often it is of a process that often damages it more because

> the process slows down so much so that my thinking cant slow this

> level and be of to work itself out. But inside of me everything is

> clear and uncluttered if you will in many aspects of my thinking, it

> is when it tries to come out weather typing or speaking that causes a

> breakdown, but typing frees up much and offers me more success in

> being able to get it out quickly. my brain is like a DAM and it feels

> like if I ot nto keep of the thinking flowing it will begin to jam up

> and build and and clutter and so gets of stuck within me and that is

> of just parts everyday of my world of words that I to have to work

> through. sometimes no jams and things are clear and other times a few

> logs clutter and jam up for a few minutes and causes a lag and other

> times it is all congested and stuck and just does not come out.

>

> But for me I to keep of trying because to me that is of just part of

> the over all make up of being Sondra. But also just want to remind of

> the people here that this list if valuable because of the others on

> spectrum here too and because of the families here and this makes of

> this list a good safe place to be in this life.

>

> One mentioned that parts of my words reflect normal and yes the

> things I to use to say often is autistic is being normal to the

> extreme and among that, those with spectrum may lack the so called

> hidden social boundaries to what is considered normal. I to often do

> much of what others do I to just do it pervasively, so if others to

> isolate I to may do it pervasively , and if others stuggle to anxiety

> I to might reflect that pervasively and other things I to might not

> do, and the not doing things I to might do them pervasively too. such

> as sharing words verbally outside of my scripts, I to might not have

> of any words at all to another because to me have none to share of

> they are of outside of my scripts.

> Sondra

>

>

>

[Guest guest]

Sondra,

What you post is very understandable & helpful to me, so please always feel

free to type however it comes out. It's always great to hear from the

perspective of someone on the spectrum.

I admire you for how you persevere in spite of some of the difficulties you

have navigating the social world.

--

Marie A. (mom to Kim, 16 on 2-29-92 & Becky, a senior & gets the best

sibling award)