what a day!

[Guest guest]

I just have to vent. First I tried to schedule our follow-up with Dr.

Geier, evidently labcorp had Allie's FORTY-NINE VIALS WORTH of blood

work entered wrong, they could not find any trace of it. After feeling

like attacking Labcorp I finally tracked it down.

Then tonight was 's fifth grade graduation thing. Well, Allie

is sick again with respiratory stuff and was sleeping, Craig called to

tell me to hurry it was starting, I tried waking up Allie, knowing

what was coming. She was screaming and stuff. I started crying from

the frustration of it all, every time we have an event for

Allie is sick or screaming, usually screaming from being sick. That

poor Jess hasn't had a special event yet without her sister having a

major problem, which totally is not Allie's fault, but it just seems

to unfair to Jess.

So we get to the school after I had carried Allie to the van then to

the school. I pull her out of the van and sit her in the grass, asking

her if we can give it a try. She yells out, " I am ugly! I am ugly! "

Then I'm crying again rubbing her head telling her how beautiful she

is, then she says, " I'm so tired of this...I hate this. I'm sick of

this. " I know what she was talking about, she was talking about alway

feeling so bad. Well, of course, that made me cry more.

She did let me carry her inside and did get to doing better. About

half way through Craig took her and our 5 yr old out to the playground

while I watched the rest, then Allie was much happier, though still sick.

Some days are so tiresome. And of course this was after being told by

a mom that during a second grade party that I was not informed of that

Allie sat on the edge of the playground while all the other kids ate a

special meal served. No one ever bothered to ask her if she wanted

any, try to engage, etc, until a parent felt so bad about her being

ignored that she tried to engage her. Of course, crap like this has

been going on all year. I try to ignore it, thinking if they'll just

babysit her until I get through college I can pull her out, but I'm in

a mamma-rage mode right now over this crappy, crappy school my kids

are zoned for.

<sigh>

Thanks for listening if you made it this far!

Debi