Re: I'm Somebody/expressing self existance

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sharisa for me I to see things more like monet up close where there

are no clear defined lines for me to see where to begin or end of

self in this life. but other days things are too strong like the

strokes of Van gogh were everythings is of overly defined and this

causes me to to be too rigid to stay within that boundary and every

one shouts come out and go to the hidden gray areas, but for me if in

moent or van gogh there is no gray areas for me to see so cant know

or understand where that mass of gray is at.

Poetry is of like a key for me to open the inside world of me in a

way verbal words cannot, it is of an outlet and lack how or what

opened it but it does exist at one of hte keys to my own being that

lets me express my humaness to this world too. I to be of one who

cannot create poetry simply because one asks of me , or if my brain

says lets create of one it does not work, it is of the strong

overloading emotions that seem to get trapped with no real name to

them within me that causes the door to open up and let the words of

music flow out.

While artist flow with brush, I to flow in dancing words, others flow

with dance or music but some how many of us find that outlet and use

it as a way of life for us.

For me I to think poetry has always been , but it became stronger and

stronger over the years of institutional settings because if one is

of isolated away enough or is of strapped with leathers to a bed for

days one finds other ways to still exist even if they do not feel as

though they physically do among this life. so for me because of that

with no outside stimulation of learning for me my brain shifted to

the dancing words within me and they becamed of my only comfort back

then. even when real of words could not flow from my lips the words

cannot be taken away from me within my thinking.

Anyways feeling some better and so posting some today. been fighting

a flu like virus that is of strong and then seems to fade to only

come back again off and on all through the day, for a couple days

now. My Missy is of complaining of the same. I to get of so cold that

it seems my body will never find warm and even within the home of me

the hands feet and nose are as if I to been outside in the snow with

no shoes or mittens or coat. but not having a fever. I to be of to

get severe waves of nausea and then migraines but then it passes to

only come back again.

Sondra