Merry Christmas - I'll Reserve Judgement

[Guest guest]

Well thank god this day is almost

over, I’ve had it up to my nostrils, next year I am not even going to

bother with it, I may go away on Christmas Eve and return when all the crap is over...

The morning was great, spent that

with my mate, it was the only decent thing of the day. My cousin had asked me

several times to go to her place for lunch, so at the insistence of my mate

this morning I agreed to join her. Well after leaving his place, I drove to her

place, she had told me she would not be going anywhere, it would be just the

two of us. So she said get there about 11am, so I did, only to find her place

locked and her car gone, so I waited and waited and waited, in the end I gave

up, came home and spent the rest of the day with me. I had been asked by our

lovely Marina and Mazz to join them, but thought I should be with family..............

What a wasted thought that was, so I had for my Christmas lunch the 6 prawns I’d

saved from our dinner of last night, and had them on a slice of soy and linseed

bread, I could not have cared less... So I went outside and cleaned the pool,

sprayed some weeds, vacuumed the house and then watched Notting Hill on

DVD...... How festive can one old man get......

I made the stupid mistake of

wishing my son a Merry Christmas this morning also sending him a gift as I

always do, only to be ignored for the 5th time, you think I would

learn, but I cannot get it out of my head that I am actually this man’s

father. So I’ve lost faith in and respect for my family, I now know I am

on my own now, so I will stick to myself where they are concerned from now on,

the upset this causes me is indescribable. I’ve spent most of today in

tears. Later in the day, my doorbell rang, only to have my cousin at the door,

she now knows I am not happy with her, she went elsewhere for dinner at a

moment’s notice, I HAVE A MOBILE......JUDY..... she did come

bearing the gift of a big bowl of Non Alcoholic Trifle, after she left, ALL

very apologetic when here. I soon remedied the trifle status, I added my own

sherry.......... Much improved................... So my Christmas Tea was a

bowl of doctored trifle, and I’ve just finished off the other half of the

bowl, my mate phoned tonight, to see if I was OK, I think he has worked out my

day was Not Too Crash Hot...... his call made me happier........... we are going

to the beach tomorrow, so I will take revenge out on the world by showing my

bum to the local pervs who get there, that should make them puke their lunch of

today.......... Suffer..........

Sorry to vent, I’m just sitting

here ranting and raving, writing out my feelings of hurt and frustration, if I

could find something to HIT I would and I’m not a violent man, but god I

could make an exception tonight.

I can now understand why people

feel so unwanted at this time of the year, maybe I am being selfish, expecting

my son, to actually acknowledge his father with something as simple as Merry Christmas

in a 25c SMS or log onto the computer and send me an e mail, something,

anything.... would be better than the continuous nothing. I’m not looking

for sympathy, so no need to reply, way passed that point now, I’m venting

as I am so pissed off, I cannot begin to tell you how I feel.

Oh well!!!

Venting now over, I will head to

bed, I am not proud of my behaviour and what I have said, but I need to say it,

I’ve bottled this up all day and I’ve had enough

Well in closing, I do hope some of

you had a better day than I did, my only regret now with the Events of the day

is........... THERE IS NO MORE TRIFLE LEFT.... BUGGER IT........ So much for

being a good Bandster....................... far from it

today...................

Cheers

Rob