OT: Herx reactions (was) Re: OT: MMS irritating the bladder...or annoying the spirochetes in

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Hi Barb,

Withdrawal is the pits! And you've been going through it for a long time now.

I'm so glad you can see light at the end of the tunnel.

Sorry I haven't been around much lately. I'm overcommitted and overwhelmed, as

usual. Getting all new windows tomorrow and we've been moving furniture ...

It's a long time since we moved furniture, so now we have a terrible mess to

clean up! But we'll probably finish in the morning--we're both beat!

Khaya

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> jodie,

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> jan just commented on the mag also. and i do think it helps. i will also

> try the one you mentioned. i have all the stuff but the flakes. can i use

> the oil or will the flakes go farther? can order them.

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> as i explained to jan, today is not as good. however, 2 nights ago i

> reduced/tapered my valium. so last night, i was talking to god again about

> dying. he just replies, 'trust me'. so i think i am dieing but it will be

> ok. feeling inside like i am imploding, sick, physically/mentally hurting.

> it just sneaks up on me and i don't realize it--also the affects of the

> withdrawal.

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> so talking with husband this morning and start crying about talking to god

> about dieing. he says' it is the drug. you always cry 2 days after you

> taper'. then i go, yes!!!! i can see that. thinking one is dieing is a

> big w/d symptom, but the drug keeps you from seeing it is the drug--very

> sneaky stuff. so, today i know i am not dieing, spacey, but not dieing.

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> also, reread the symptom list of w/d and the sweating, heart palps etc, are

> also w/d symptoms. as jim has also said. so, we are thinking/hoping,

> since i experienced a break in the symptoms, that i am improving with the

> detox etc., and that once i'm off the benzo, the symptoms will continue to

> lesson. also, re: ms, w/d symptoms include weakness, 'jelly' legs,

> lethargy, unable to get up and do something, dizzines, light headedness,

> much the same as ms. we are hoping that these symptoms are indeed the w/d.

> much of all these symptoms are toxins, as benzos are very toxic, as is

> lyme. hard to tell the players apart.

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> sorry, i know i go back and forth. but that is what i'm in the middle of,

> this crazy cycle of not knowing what is going on with me. the drug causes

> so much of this confusion. just can't wrap by brain around it. so sorry.

> but your guys help alleviate a lot of this craziness from my husband as i

> can vent here my frustrations and confusion. he thanks you!!!!

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> i just have a couple months left and i think things will be a little

> clearer and easier to handle.

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> i am so grateful to have had a few days break in the symptoms. it has

> given me unbelievable hope. i know i still sound very confused now, but i

> can see a little light at the end of the tunnel--and it's not a train.

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> thanks barbara

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