overwhelmed once again

[Guest guest]

Well, I am back in school and the overwhelming fear of not being able to handle

the children is back upon me. I can go through times when I feel perfectly

capable to do my job and then the switch can just flip and I feel completely

scared to death. There are certain types of students the send me over the edge.

I'll try to describe. I have a little girl right now who brings out fear in me.

She has " attitude " . She will huff when asked to do work, act like she is so

bored, in general I get the feeling that she is just barely tolerating me and

what I am trying to teach her. I am a special ed teacher who works with limited

numbers of students and when I am one on one or in a small group with students

like this I get so taken down by this. I don't have a room full of students

where I have a variety of students, some of which would enjoy what you are

doing. I think maybe that would keep these disrespectful students from bothering

me so much, I don't know may be not. I do have other students who aren't like

that but a lot of my children pout up and shut down easily because they are

students who have had a lot of trouble with academics. This is the beginning of

my 28th year with this and I go through periods like this off and on, always

have. Every time it happens though I think, I am so tired of feeling this way!!

Makes me want to walk in and just quit although financially I can't yet. Then I

feel so trapped!!! I get into not being able to sleep well etc. It just seems to

change me completely from a calm, in control person to someone who is scared to

death all the time. I know I am not seeing how to apply ACT techniques right now

and that frustrates me even further!! Need help from you fellow travelers!!