Anything to help this slow descent

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I'm reading Get out of your mind and Happiness Trap, and I do the exercises, but

I am so afraid. I fall into helplessness. I feel like I can do nothing to better

myself. These thoughts are so ingrained. I keep going to the psychiatric

intensive care, and they don't know what to do. I get so confused. It feels so

big. I call my mother, and she doesn't know what to say. I surf the internet.

All these things I know don't work. I feel like a kid in a grown up body. Not

constructive at all.