Re: and pain meds

[Guest guest]

Jen,

thank you for all the great info. I was on a 200mg pain patch along

with 6 to 8 Oxycontins an hour for almost 1 year and I became sick as

soon as my meds would ware off. I can't really tell if it was the

meds that where making me sick or the insane pain levels I had.

I was also at the hospital every three days crying for help and to be

honest it was to KEEP my supply as long as I could because insurence

would not allow me to take as much as I was and would cut me off at

the pharmacy.

From then to now I look at my self as being fixed. reality is I can walk some

and go to the bathroom, dress myself as long as I don't try to put on socks and

shoes. lol God forbid I try to tie them. lol

I know i'm not getting any better and not taking something is only making

matters worse. but I was addicted to the high right from the start and moved up

the ladder real quick.

Now I'm looking at taking care of my kids to so I need to drive and be

alert very alert. I'm hoping to see my new pain doc this week who

will not use narc for pain management and I pray for some relief she

can offer.

quote " gain custody of your children, being in constant pain is

> going to greatly hinder your interactions with them. "

yes this has from day one but i have changed my interactions with my

kids around my pain. I play football and baseball with them in my

wheel chair but I'm the coach. we make up crazy plays and have secret

hand signs when we play. they have more fun then before because we

come up with crazy fun things to do even if i can't.

don't get me

wrong sometimes I do more than I can handle because my brain says I'm

38 but my body is 90 and pay that price. but in all if there is a

will there is a way.

my kids taught me that real quick. I don't have to move around with them to have

fun. they tell me it's me just being there is whats the best! It's funny how a

childs love for a parent(s) is so pure and nothing gets in its way. We should

all try to remember that!

Its late so I'm going to pretend to sleep for a while LOL

Jen thanks again

> " Jen " wrote:

> When I first started out in my CP " journey " , I had major issues

with taking pain medications too.

[Guest guest]

,

WOW! That is a lot of medication, about a toxic level for most

people. I have to be honest and say you're lucky you're still alive,

and it really gives me a better understanding of your resistance to

take pain meds again.

I do want to say another thing though, too. You don't have to be

ashamed to share your past history on here. Many people have done

things in the past that they are not particularly proud of, but we

are not here to judge. We are here to offer support and

understanding.

I'm very glad to hear that you are seeing a new pain management

doctor this week. They can offer a wide variety of treatments, and

if you state that you would prefer to stay away from opioids for pain

control, then she will most likely honor those wishes. No doctor is

going to force pain meds on you!

I know how you feel when you say you are 38, stuck in the body of

someone much older. I'll be 36 soon, and sometimes, I feel the exact

same way. It's embarrassing when people twice my age move faster

than I do! I'm doing better now that I'm not in the factory where

the toxins were making me even sicker, as was the extremely heavy

lifting, but I'm still far from being a " normal " person.

I'm thrilled to hear that you have such great interaction with your

kids, and it sounds like they've adapted really well. But you do

have to learn where your limit is with the physical stuff, no matter

what your brain is telling you. I was 31 when I developed Fibro, and

33 or 34 when I started having really bad back problems, but I was

determined that it wasn't going to change my life any. I had to

learn the very hard lesson that being a person with chronic pain and

illness does change your life, and you have to change with it. The

toughest battle for me was admitting that it's a forever change.

And your kids are right. It doesn't matter what you do with them

that matters, it's just that you're there. All they truly need is to

know that they are loved. Unless they're teenage girls, but that's a

different story! LOL!

Jen

[Guest guest]

hey Jen,

" The toughest battle for me was admitting that it's a forever change. "

YES IT IS! but its the first step to getting better! Thats funny you

said TOXIC levels! my cousin would come over and joke around with me

to give me 5 dollars to lick my arm LOL and if I ever had to take a

urin test I would melt the cup LOL. yes the only people close to me

are a little sick in the head LOL but they are the one who where

alway there making I was ok and letting the sun in when it was all

dark.

PS I thought my last post was just a private e mail? so thats the

little trick you do to get someone to fess up huh LOL

I really enjoy this group and can't thank every one enough.

Talk to you soon,

Jen wrote:

,

WOW! That is a lot of medication, about a toxic level for most

people. I have to be honest and say you're lucky you're still

alive, and it really gives me a better understanding of your

resistance to take pain meds again.

[Guest guest]

> my kids taught me that real quick. I don't have to move around with

them to have fun. they tell me it's me just being there is whats the

best! It's funny how a childs love for a parent(s) is so pure and

nothing gets in its way. We should all try to remember tha

Dear ,

I'm glad you was able to stop the oxy. when you did.Thanks for the

reminder about my kids. although I have teens sometimes it does get

hard when they want me to do something and I can't because I have to

set down orlpe down.

I am 40 and I always feel like I am in a 90 yr old body! it is the pits

but I guess I will survive.I guess the most embarassing moment for me

was wben my grandma was alive and was running circles around me even on

her walker lol.

oh well guess I will go as i am tired these days! Glad eo met you hope

to talk to you soon again.

,SC