The up's and down 's of Mother's Day...

May 11, 2008

It is a very strange Mother's Day for me. Friday night my daughter

and I shared our Mother's Day celebration. My daughter told me to

pick my favorite place to eat and she said she had a surprise for me.

So she explained it was a Mother's Day/ early 50th b-day present. So

we had a very nice dinner with drinks at a place that overlooks the

river. It was so beautiful.

My daughter planned a weekend trip to New York City- for the 2 of

us. She bought tickets to see Wicked, which I really wanted to see.

She had pictures of the hotel we will be staying at...and bought me

the cd for Wicked. It was a lovely evening.

The next day....was my life the roller coaster ride of nada

being pissed off at me for not seeing her since Monday and she had a

virus since Wednesday. Now she has my dad and already posted how I

checked in everyday and talked to her....not good enough. So when I

called her the conversation was filled with hurtful comments directed

towards me.

Her comment about what my daughter did for me, was it must be

nice to have a daughter who wants to share things with you, and you

never told me you even liked -Wicked. The conversation sucked ....and

I did visit her...totally out of not so much guilt, but the not

wanting to hear anymore comments about me not even caring enough to

stop and see her this week...

So I went from this lovely moment with my daughter....to my

crazy mom. Who also was crazy with my daughter on the phone. Then I

sink pretty low do to the anger and hurt I feel.

Today I am balancing out, but this will not be about my day....and

did have my day. My daughter's idea because she knows this will be

about nada. We will all have to mourn the loss of nada's mother. She

already picked with fada's help the restuarant we will be eating

at...the activities that will follow. Yes, I could say, NO way...nada

this is my day too. Really though it never has been my day, so it is

like I don't even know what I am missing. It is easier to give her

what she wants, rather then endure her pay-back. Sick isn't it.

Well -Happy Mother's Day...

Blessings,

Malinda

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