Pain levels are high for me lately...

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Good evening,

I had hoped to not whine as much in 2008, but it is getting to me today,

how much worse my pain levels have been the last few months. I will be

in to see my doctor in about two months and I know I can call and get

my vicodin medication increased, if needed, but I am feeling sorry for

myself today and I wanted to just vent a bit. Thanks in advance for

reading this.

I have been ill for about ten years, and I was diagnosed with

fibromyalgia in June 2000, and I also have asthma, allergies and

sensitivities, plus problems with depression, thankfully that are not

bothering me at the present time.

I really strive to do as much as I can and do those things as well as I

can. I have given up a lot of things for my illnesses and I get pretty

fed up with being in pain most of the time. I could vent about all the

things that I used to be able to do, but I have a strong feeling that I

am still probably pretty high functioning compared to many.

My big complaint is the unrelenting pain. I get 20 vicodin a month to

be taken as needed and the problem is that I need more relief than that,

but if I am stronger medicated, I worry about driving to work and back

and functioning at work. I work part-time now as full-time work just

took too much out of me. I am 57 years old and hopefully will be able to

work at the level I am until my late 60's. My doctor feels that the

public contact is good for my depression levels. I work in an upscale

children's toy store and I am overqualified for what I do, but too ill

to work in management...

Anyway, I had the urge to vent and I also feel that only those who are

in chronic pain have a clue of how hard it is to continue with my life.

I am married with two grown sons, and a 16 year old daughter. My

husband is 60 years old and in excellent physical shape.

Thanks in advance for reading this. Penny